WEBVTT 00:04.166 --> 00:06.333 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -Next on "Great Performances"... 00:06.333 --> 00:08.400 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% -♪ It's been four weeks since the treatment, 00:08.400 --> 00:10.533 align:left position:15% line:5% size:75% and my mind is still a mess ♪ 00:10.533 --> 00:12.700 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ And what's left to be remembered 00:12.700 --> 00:15.000 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% well, it's anybody's guess ♪ 00:15.000 --> 00:16.866 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -Join us for an intimate portrait of 00:16.866 --> 00:19.333 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% one family's struggle with a tragic loss 00:19.333 --> 00:21.933 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% and a mother's battle with bipolar disorder. 00:21.933 --> 00:23.266 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 00:23.266 --> 00:25.200 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -Unresolved loss can lead to depression. 00:25.200 --> 00:26.666 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 00:26.666 --> 00:28.166 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -Fear of loss to anxiety. 00:28.166 --> 00:30.700 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -A father strives to hold everything together. 00:30.700 --> 00:33.433 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -♪ Take this chance ♪ 00:33.433 --> 00:36.133 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ 'Cause it may be your last ♪ 00:36.133 --> 00:37.366 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ To be free ♪ 00:37.366 --> 00:40.000 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -A neglected daughter tries to find her way. 00:40.000 --> 00:43.333 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -♪ Take a look at the invisible girl ♪ 00:43.333 --> 00:46.266 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% ♪ Here she is clear as the day ♪ 00:46.266 --> 00:49.800 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -And together, they look for a brighter future. 00:49.800 --> 00:51.700 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% Stay tuned for the Tony Award- 00:51.700 --> 00:54.666 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% and Pulitzer Prize-winning musical "Next to Normal." 00:54.666 --> 00:58.466 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -♪ Light ♪ 01:00.166 --> 01:02.333 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:02.333 --> 01:04.466 align:left position:32.5% line:5% size:57.5% Major funding  for "Great Performances" 01:04.466 --> 01:05.633 align:left position:27.5% line:5% size:62.5% is provided by... 01:10.500 --> 01:12.800 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ...and by contributions  to your PBS station 01:12.800 --> 01:14.233 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% from viewers like you.  Thank you. 01:15.800 --> 01:18.433 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% This program contains content that is not suitable 01:18.433 --> 01:21.100 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% for all audiences, including descriptions of self-harm. 01:21.100 --> 01:22.800 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% Viewer discretion is advised. 01:24.433 --> 01:29.966 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:29.966 --> 01:35.533 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:35.533 --> 01:41.066 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:41.066 --> 01:46.600 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:46.600 --> 01:51.300 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -[ Sighs ] 01:51.300 --> 01:52.600 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -What are you doing up? 01:52.600 --> 01:54.400 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -[ Scoffs ] 01:54.400 --> 01:56.000 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -It's 3:30. 01:56.000 --> 01:58.766 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ It's the seventh night this week I've sat till morning ♪ 01:58.766 --> 02:01.533 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -Oh! Great! Here we go. 02:01.533 --> 02:04.800 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Imagining the ways you might have died ♪ 02:04.800 --> 02:06.833 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% -Yep! And tonight's winner is? 02:06.833 --> 02:10.533 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ In a freak September ice-storm with no warning ♪ 02:10.533 --> 02:12.100 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -'Cause that happens. 02:12.100 --> 02:15.600 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ There's a gang war, there's a bird flu, trains collide ♪ 02:15.600 --> 02:17.033 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -What did we say about watching the news? 02:17.033 --> 02:19.600 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ Now you act all sweet and surly ♪ 02:19.600 --> 02:24.833 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ But you swore you'd come home early, and you lied ♪ 02:28.866 --> 02:31.800 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -You gotta let go, Mom. I'm almost 18. 02:31.800 --> 02:34.133 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -Are you snorting coke? 02:34.133 --> 02:36.100 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -Not at the moment. -Who's up at this hour? 02:36.100 --> 02:38.433 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -Father. Go. Up the back way. -Why does he hate me? 02:38.433 --> 02:41.366 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -Because you're a total loser. -You can't call me a loser. 02:41.366 --> 02:43.000 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -Is everything okay? I heard voices. 02:43.000 --> 02:44.833 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -Just me, talking to myself, you know. 02:44.833 --> 02:46.233 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% Now you head on upstairs. 02:46.233 --> 02:47.966 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% I'll be up for sex in a minute. 02:47.966 --> 02:50.400 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -You'll... Are you sure everything's okay? 02:50.400 --> 02:53.133 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -Uh-huh. Go. 02:55.466 --> 02:59.900 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ They're the perfect loving family, so adoring ♪ 02:59.900 --> 03:04.166 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ And I love them every day of every week ♪ 03:04.166 --> 03:08.066 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ So my son's a little brat, my husband's boring ♪ 03:08.066 --> 03:11.966 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ And my daughter, though a genius, is a freak ♪ 03:11.966 --> 03:14.700 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ Still, I help them love each other ♪ 03:14.700 --> 03:19.600 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Father, mother, sister, brother, cheek-to-cheek ♪ 03:19.600 --> 03:21.333 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% Natalie. It's 4:00 in the morning. 03:21.333 --> 03:23.066 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -Is everything okay? -Everything's great. 03:23.066 --> 03:24.833 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% Why wouldn't it be great? It's great. 03:24.833 --> 03:26.300 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% I've just got three more chapters of calculus, 03:26.300 --> 03:27.833 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% a physics problem set, a history quiz, 03:27.833 --> 03:29.433 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% and two more pages on floral imagery in 03:29.433 --> 03:31.633 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% "Flowers for Algernon," which is just duh. 03:31.633 --> 03:34.266 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% Everything's so under control. It's just calm. 03:34.266 --> 03:36.700 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -Okay, honey, you need to slow down 03:36.700 --> 03:38.566 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% and take some time for yourself. 03:38.566 --> 03:41.200 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% I'm going to have sex with your father. 03:42.266 --> 03:45.333 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -Great. Thanks. 03:45.333 --> 03:47.866 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% So glad I know that! 03:47.866 --> 03:52.233 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ So, it's times like these I wonder how I take it ♪ 03:52.233 --> 03:56.300 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ And if other families live the way we do ♪ 03:56.300 --> 04:00.833 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ If they love each other or if they just fake it ♪ 04:00.833 --> 04:04.566 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ And if other daughters feel like I feel, too ♪ 04:04.566 --> 04:07.666 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ 'Cause some days, I think I'm dying ♪ 04:07.666 --> 04:11.966 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ But I'm really only trying to get through ♪ 04:11.966 --> 04:15.233 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -♪ For just another day ♪ 04:15.233 --> 04:18.633 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ For another stolen hour ♪ 04:18.633 --> 04:23.200 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ When the world will feel my power and obey ♪ 04:23.200 --> 04:26.366 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ It's just another day ♪ 04:26.366 --> 04:29.366 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ Feeling like I'll live forever ♪ 04:29.366 --> 04:34.133 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -♪ Feeling like this feeling never goes away ♪ 04:34.133 --> 04:37.300 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -♪ For just another day ♪ 04:37.300 --> 04:38.800 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -That was great, wasn't it? 04:38.800 --> 04:41.466 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% That was great. Geez, I'm late. 04:41.466 --> 04:43.666 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -Mm! That'll teach you to take a whole 10 minutes. 04:43.666 --> 04:44.933 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -I'm sorry, what? 04:44.933 --> 04:47.200 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -I said, isn't it a beautiful day? 04:47.200 --> 04:48.900 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -Oh, yeah, sure. 04:48.900 --> 04:51.100 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% It's cloudy and raining and really cold for September, 04:51.100 --> 04:52.666 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% but beautiful. 04:52.666 --> 04:54.500 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -Makes you want to dive in with both feet, doesn't it? 04:54.500 --> 04:57.000 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -Absolutely. 04:57.000 --> 04:59.666 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% I never know what she's talking about. 04:59.666 --> 05:04.133 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ When it's up you to hold your house together ♪ 05:04.133 --> 05:07.800 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ A house you built with patience and with care ♪ 05:07.800 --> 05:12.366 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ But you're grappling with that gray and rainy weather ♪ 05:12.366 --> 05:15.200 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ And you're living on a latte and a prayer ♪ 05:15.200 --> 05:16.666 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -♪ Prayer ♪ 05:16.666 --> 05:19.366 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ Can you keep the cup from tipping? ♪ 05:19.366 --> 05:23.900 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Can you keep your grip from slipping in despair? ♪ 05:23.900 --> 05:27.066 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ For just another day ♪ 05:27.066 --> 05:30.400 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ In the hustle and the hurry ♪ 05:30.400 --> 05:33.100 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ You want to wipe your worry clean away ♪ 05:33.100 --> 05:34.933 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Oh. 05:34.933 --> 05:37.733 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -♪ For just another day ♪ 05:37.733 --> 05:41.100 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ I will keep the plates all spinning ♪ 05:41.100 --> 05:45.866 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ With a smile so white and winning all the way ♪ 05:45.866 --> 05:49.833 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -♪ 'Cause what doesn't kill me doesn't kill me ♪ 05:49.833 --> 05:54.933 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ So fill me up for just another day ♪ 05:56.066 --> 05:58.766 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -♪ It only hurts when I'm here ♪ 05:58.766 --> 06:00.400 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -♪ Bum, bum, bum ♪ 06:00.400 --> 06:03.266 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -You're gonna be late, and you've got a huge day today. 06:03.266 --> 06:04.800 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -You have no idea what I do all day. 06:04.800 --> 06:06.866 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -Jazz band before school, class, Key Club, then football. 06:06.866 --> 06:08.300 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Not bad. 06:08.300 --> 06:10.466 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -Mm. Now get out of here. -Okay. [ Chuckles ] 06:13.566 --> 06:16.766 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -♪ It only hurts when he goes ♪ 06:16.766 --> 06:18.400 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -♪ Bum, bum, bum ♪ 06:18.400 --> 06:20.233 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -Morning, sunshine. 06:20.233 --> 06:23.033 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -So, I got the date for my winter recital, 06:23.033 --> 06:24.166 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% Do you think you guys can come? 06:24.166 --> 06:26.900 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -Uh, yeah! We'll put it on the calendar. 06:26.900 --> 06:29.533 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -Mom, the calendar is still on April of last year. 06:29.533 --> 06:32.500 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -Mm. Well, happy Easter. 06:32.500 --> 06:33.933 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -Happy Easter, Mom. 06:33.933 --> 06:35.566 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -Hi, sweetheart. -Hey. 06:35.566 --> 06:38.466 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% She's on fire this morning. -Oh, I know. 06:39.233 --> 06:41.166 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Ew. 06:41.766 --> 06:43.400 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Honey, can you do the shopping today? 06:43.400 --> 06:45.133 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% I'm slammed at work, and we're out of everything. 06:45.133 --> 06:48.766 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -I keep cave clean. You go out, get fire! 06:48.766 --> 06:51.700 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -[ Laughs ] Absolutely. 06:51.700 --> 06:54.166 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% Again, no clue. 06:55.633 --> 06:57.400 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -♪ It only hurts when I breathe ♪ 06:57.400 --> 06:59.700 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -♪ It only hurts when I try ♪ -♪ It only hurts when I think ♪ 06:59.700 --> 07:02.500 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -♪ It only hurts when I cry ♪ -♪ It only hurts when I work ♪ 07:02.500 --> 07:04.066 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ It hurts ♪ -♪ It only hurts when I play ♪ 07:04.066 --> 07:05.700 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ It hurts ♪ -♪ It only hurts when I move ♪ 07:05.700 --> 07:08.233 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ It hurts when I say ♪ -♪ It only hurts when I say ♪ 07:08.233 --> 07:09.500 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ It's just another day ♪ 07:09.500 --> 07:11.500 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -♪ A busy, busy day ♪ 07:11.500 --> 07:14.200 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ And the morning sun is stunning ♪ 07:14.200 --> 07:17.766 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ And you wish that you were running far away ♪ 07:17.766 --> 07:20.200 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -♪ I will hide the mess away ♪ -♪ It's just another day ♪ 07:20.200 --> 07:22.366 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ And I'll survive another day ♪ 07:22.366 --> 07:24.433 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Birds are singing, things are growing ♪ 07:24.433 --> 07:25.900 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -♪ And I will pray ♪ 07:25.900 --> 07:27.433 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -♪ And you wish you would be going, but you stay ♪ 07:27.433 --> 07:30.000 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ Hold on just this way ♪ 07:30.000 --> 07:32.500 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ You stay ♪ -♪ For my family's sake ♪ 07:32.500 --> 07:35.133 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ Though you know it's now or never ♪ 07:35.133 --> 07:37.000 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ I'll take what I can take ♪ 07:37.000 --> 07:39.133 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ And you know that for forever ♪ 07:39.133 --> 07:41.266 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -♪ Though I'm only just awake ♪ ♪ Every day is just another ♪ 07:41.266 --> 07:43.833 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ And another and another ♪ 07:43.833 --> 07:46.566 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ I will hold it all together ♪ 07:46.566 --> 07:48.900 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ We're the perfect loving family ♪ 07:48.900 --> 07:50.166 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Diana? 07:50.166 --> 07:51.966 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ If they say we're not, then screw 'em ♪ 07:51.966 --> 07:54.566 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ We're the perfect loving family ♪ 07:54.566 --> 07:55.900 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ I will keep the plates all spinning ♪ 07:55.900 --> 07:57.200 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Diana... 07:57.200 --> 07:59.100 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ And the world just keeps on spinning ♪ 07:59.100 --> 08:00.533 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% And I think the house is spinning. 08:00.533 --> 08:02.966 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -Hey, Diana, honey? -Dad? 08:02.966 --> 08:04.833 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -Don't worry about it. -Go on ahead. 08:04.833 --> 08:06.200 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% You'll miss your bus. 08:06.200 --> 08:07.500 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% -Mom? -Everything's fine! 08:07.500 --> 08:09.233 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% Just making sandwiches. 08:09.233 --> 08:10.833 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% On the floor. Um... 08:10.833 --> 08:13.000 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -You go on ahead. You'll miss your bus. 08:13.000 --> 08:14.866 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Go. 08:14.866 --> 08:16.066 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% Sweetie, everything okay? -Hmm? 08:16.066 --> 08:17.900 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -Yeah. I wanted to get ahead on lunches. 08:17.900 --> 08:20.566 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -Yeah, sure. Why don't you let me help you up? 08:22.933 --> 08:25.800 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -Well, I guess I got a little carried away. 08:25.800 --> 08:30.033 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -Maybe a little. Um, let's go see Dr. Fine. 08:30.033 --> 08:33.466 align:left position:15% line:5% size:75% T-This is just a blip, okay? It's nothing to worry about. 08:33.466 --> 08:37.233 align:left position:25% line:5% size:65% I'll, uh, wrap up the sandwiches, and then we'll go. 08:37.233 --> 08:39.833 align:left position:32.5% line:5% size:57.5% [ Bell rings ] 08:39.833 --> 08:48.233 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 08:48.233 --> 08:56.000 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 08:56.000 --> 08:58.433 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -♪ Mozart was crazy ♪ 08:59.766 --> 09:02.433 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ Flat freaking crazy ♪ 09:03.100 --> 09:05.333 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ Nutso, I hear ♪ 09:06.500 --> 09:08.566 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ But his music's not crazy ♪ 09:08.566 --> 09:12.100 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ It's balanced, it's nimble, it's crystalline-clear ♪ 09:13.300 --> 09:14.733 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ There's harmony, logic ♪ 09:14.733 --> 09:17.000 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ You listen to these ♪ 09:17.000 --> 09:20.033 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ You don't hear his doubts or his debts or disease ♪ 09:20.033 --> 09:23.400 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ You scan through the score and put fingers on keys ♪ 09:23.400 --> 09:25.033 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ And you play ♪ 09:25.033 --> 09:27.500 align:left position:47.5% line:89% size:42.5% ♪♪ 09:27.500 --> 09:31.466 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ And everything else goes away ♪ 09:31.466 --> 09:35.200 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Everything else goes away ♪ 09:35.200 --> 09:38.833 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% ♪ So you play till it's perfect, you play till you ache ♪ 09:38.833 --> 09:42.433 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ You play till the strings or your fingernails break ♪ 09:42.433 --> 09:46.133 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ So you'll rock that recital and get into Yale ♪ 09:46.133 --> 09:50.000 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ So you won't feel so sick and you won't look so pale ♪ 09:50.000 --> 09:51.533 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ 'Cause you've got your full ride, 09:51.533 --> 09:53.466 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% and it means that you're gone ♪ 09:53.466 --> 09:57.033 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ So you're done with this school and you get to move on ♪ 09:57.033 --> 10:00.933 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ So you graduate early, you're gone as of May ♪ 10:00.933 --> 10:08.033 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ And there's nothing your paranoid parents can say ♪ 10:10.133 --> 10:14.333 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ And you know that it's just a sonata away ♪ 10:14.333 --> 10:16.066 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ And you play ♪ 10:18.066 --> 10:20.633 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ And you play ♪ 10:23.233 --> 10:27.566 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ And everything else goes away ♪ 10:27.566 --> 10:32.000 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ Everything else goes away ♪ 10:32.000 --> 10:33.733 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ Everything else goes -- ♪ 10:33.733 --> 10:35.433 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -Sounds good. 10:35.433 --> 10:38.266 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -Uh, I-I still have this practice room for 10:38.266 --> 10:39.666 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% seven and a half minutes. 10:39.666 --> 10:43.633 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -Yeah. I mean, I know. I just like to listen. 10:45.300 --> 10:46.500 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% I'm Henry. 10:46.500 --> 10:48.566 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -Natalie. -Yeah. 10:48.566 --> 10:50.333 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% I mean, I know. 10:51.633 --> 10:54.200 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -It's a little creepy that you know. 10:54.200 --> 10:57.100 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -We've gone to school together for like six years. 10:57.100 --> 10:58.366 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Really? 10:58.366 --> 11:00.866 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -I sit behind you in four classes. 11:01.766 --> 11:02.766 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Huh! 11:02.766 --> 11:04.733 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% Also creepy. 11:05.633 --> 11:07.900 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -You're in here a lot. 11:10.766 --> 11:13.866 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% You know, before school... 11:13.866 --> 11:15.700 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% and after. 11:15.700 --> 11:17.566 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Right. 11:17.566 --> 11:18.833 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% Seven minutes. 11:22.500 --> 11:24.566 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% You give up way too easily. 11:24.566 --> 11:26.266 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -[ Laughs nervously ] 11:26.266 --> 11:28.233 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% You're kind of a confusing person. 11:29.300 --> 11:30.533 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -You should meet my mother. 11:32.533 --> 11:34.666 align:left position:20% line:5% size:70% -The pink ones are taken with food, 11:34.666 --> 11:36.633 align:left position:15% line:5% size:75% but not with the white ones. 11:36.633 --> 11:38.533 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% The white ones are taken with the round yellow ones, 11:38.533 --> 11:40.300 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% but not with the triangle yellow ones. 11:40.300 --> 11:42.566 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% The triangle yellow ones are taken with the oblong green ones 11:42.566 --> 11:44.700 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% with food, but not with the pink ones. 11:44.700 --> 11:47.166 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% If a train's leaving New York at 120 miles an hour 11:47.166 --> 11:49.566 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% and the other train is leaving St. Petersburg at the same time 11:49.566 --> 11:51.333 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% but going backwards, which train do you get on... 11:51.333 --> 11:52.566 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -♪ Who's crazy? 11:52.566 --> 11:54.533 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ The husband or wife? 11:54.533 --> 11:56.166 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ Who's crazy? 11:56.166 --> 11:58.333 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ To live their whole life ♪ 11:58.333 --> 12:05.233 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% ♪ Believing that somehow, things aren't as bizarre as they are? ♪ 12:05.233 --> 12:07.266 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ Who's crazy? ♪ 12:07.266 --> 12:09.233 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ The one who can't cope ♪ 12:09.233 --> 12:10.666 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ Or maybe ♪ 12:10.666 --> 12:13.066 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ The one who'll still hope? ♪ 12:13.066 --> 12:15.333 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ The one who sees doctors or the one 12:15.333 --> 12:19.666 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% who just waits in the car? ♪ 12:19.666 --> 12:24.000 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% ♪ And I was a wild twenty-five ♪ 12:24.000 --> 12:28.533 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ And I loved a wife so alive ♪ 12:28.533 --> 12:31.600 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ But now I believe I would settle ♪ 12:31.600 --> 12:35.300 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ For one who can drive ♪ 12:35.300 --> 12:37.800 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -The round blue ones are taken with food, 12:37.800 --> 12:39.866 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% but not with the oblong white ones. 12:39.866 --> 12:42.000 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% The white ones are taken with the round yellow ones, 12:42.000 --> 12:44.000 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% but not with the trapezoidal green ones. 12:44.000 --> 12:45.500 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% Break the green ones into thirds 12:45.500 --> 12:46.900 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% with a tiny chisel, put it all into a mortar... 12:46.900 --> 12:51.433 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ My psychopharmacologist and I ♪ 12:51.433 --> 12:54.866 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ It's like an odd romance ♪ 12:54.866 --> 12:58.166 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Intense and very intimate ♪ 12:58.166 --> 13:02.600 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ We do our dance ♪ 13:02.600 --> 13:06.833 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ My psychopharmacologist and I ♪ 13:06.833 --> 13:09.900 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ Call it a lover's game ♪ 13:09.900 --> 13:13.400 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ He knows my deepest secrets ♪ 13:13.400 --> 13:17.933 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ I know his name ♪ 13:17.933 --> 13:21.400 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ And though he'll never hold me ♪ 13:21.400 --> 13:25.466 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ He'll always take my calls ♪ 13:25.466 --> 13:28.833 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ It's truly like he told me ♪ 13:28.833 --> 13:33.466 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Without a little lift, the ballerina falls ♪ 13:33.466 --> 13:35.400 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -Goodman, Diana. 13:35.400 --> 13:38.000 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% Bipolar disorder with delusional episodes. 13:38.000 --> 13:41.733 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% 16-year history of medication. Adjustment after four weeks. 13:41.733 --> 13:43.033 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -I've got less anxiety, 13:43.033 --> 13:45.000 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% but I have headaches 13:45.000 --> 13:47.300 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% and blurry vision 13:47.300 --> 13:48.866 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% and I can't feel my toes. 13:48.866 --> 13:52.566 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -So, we'll try again, and eventually, we'll get it right. 13:52.566 --> 13:55.433 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% -Mm! Not a very exact science, is it? 13:55.433 --> 13:59.966 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ Zoloft and Paxil and BuSpar and Xanax ♪ 13:59.966 --> 14:03.833 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Depakote, Klonopin, Ambien, Prozac ♪ 14:03.833 --> 14:07.566 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ Ativan calms me when I see the bills ♪ 14:07.566 --> 14:12.633 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ These are a few of my favorite pills ♪ 14:12.633 --> 14:14.300 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -[ Gasps ] Thank you, Doctor! 14:14.300 --> 14:17.900 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% Valium is my favorite color. How'd you know? 14:17.900 --> 14:19.700 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -It's just t-the thing about jazz is, 14:19.700 --> 14:21.300 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% how do you ever know if you got it right? 14:21.300 --> 14:22.866 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -It's just making stuff up. 14:22.866 --> 14:25.533 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -Which is also known as the act of creation. 14:25.533 --> 14:29.133 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -Oh. You're one of those pretentious stoner types. 14:29.133 --> 14:32.033 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -That's totally not fair. I'm not pretentious. 14:32.866 --> 14:34.433 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% I'm definitely not classical. 14:34.433 --> 14:36.233 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% It's far too rigid and structured. 14:36.233 --> 14:37.666 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% There's no room for improvisation. 14:37.666 --> 14:39.133 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% You have to play the notes on the page. 14:39.133 --> 14:41.400 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% -Yeah, and what did Mozart know, anyway? 14:41.400 --> 14:43.300 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% He should have just smoked a bowl and jammed on 14:43.300 --> 14:45.066 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star." 14:45.066 --> 14:48.133 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -[ Laughs ] Yeah, let's do that! 14:48.133 --> 14:49.433 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -Goodman, Diana. 14:49.433 --> 14:51.300 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% Second adjustment after eight weeks. 14:51.300 --> 14:54.466 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% Delusions less frequent, but depressive state worse. 14:54.466 --> 14:57.433 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -I'm nauseous and I'm constipated. 14:57.433 --> 15:01.300 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% Completely lost my appetite and gained 6 pounds. 15:01.300 --> 15:05.033 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% Which is just, you know, not fair. 15:06.333 --> 15:10.366 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ May cause the following side effects, one or more ♪ 15:10.366 --> 15:14.200 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Dizziness, drowsiness, sexual dysfunction ♪ 15:14.200 --> 15:18.400 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ Headaches and tremors and nightmares and seizures ♪ 15:18.400 --> 15:20.166 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Anxiousness, anger, exhaustion, insomnia, 15:20.166 --> 15:22.300 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% irritability, nausea, vomiting ♪ 15:22.300 --> 15:24.333 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ Odd and alarming sexual feelings ♪ 15:24.333 --> 15:26.033 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ Oh, and one last thing ♪ 15:26.033 --> 15:28.266 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Use may be fatal ♪ -♪ Use may be fatal ♪ 15:28.266 --> 15:31.466 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -♪ Use may be fatal ♪ 15:31.466 --> 15:32.866 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -Goodman, Diana. 15:32.866 --> 15:34.933 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% Third adjustment after 12 weeks. 15:34.933 --> 15:38.500 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% Reports continued, mild anxiety and some lingering depression. 15:38.500 --> 15:40.966 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -I now can't feel my fingers or my toes. 15:40.966 --> 15:43.666 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% I-I sweat profusely for no reason. 15:43.666 --> 15:46.900 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -I've wasted like weeks of practice with you, improvising. 15:46.900 --> 15:49.233 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -Oscar Peterson was classically trained. 15:49.233 --> 15:50.500 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -Beethoven did cocaine. 15:50.500 --> 15:52.466 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -Miles Davis went to Juilliard. 15:52.466 --> 15:55.200 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% -Mozart wrote poems about farts. 15:56.066 --> 16:00.200 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -Fortunately, I have absolutely no desire for sex. 16:00.200 --> 16:02.233 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% Though whether that's the medicine 16:02.233 --> 16:03.566 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% or the marriage is anybody's guess. 16:03.566 --> 16:06.200 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -I'm sure it's the medicine. 16:06.200 --> 16:10.733 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -Oh, thank you. That's very sweet. 16:10.733 --> 16:12.033 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% [ Giggles ] 16:12.033 --> 16:14.600 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% But my husband is waiting in the car. 16:15.566 --> 16:17.966 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -♪ Who's crazy? 16:17.966 --> 16:21.700 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ The one who's half-gone, or maybe ♪ 16:21.700 --> 16:23.800 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ The one who holds on? ♪ 16:23.800 --> 16:26.333 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ Remembering when she was twenty ♪ 16:26.333 --> 16:31.733 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ And brilliant and bold ♪ 16:33.200 --> 16:36.366 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ And I was so young ♪ 16:36.366 --> 16:38.300 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ And so dumb ♪ 16:39.533 --> 16:42.533 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ And now I am old ♪ 16:42.533 --> 16:44.400 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ And she was wicked and wired ♪ 16:44.400 --> 16:46.466 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ And though he'll never hold me ♪ 16:46.466 --> 16:50.733 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% -♪ The sex was simply inspired ♪ -♪ He'll always take my calls ♪ 16:50.733 --> 16:52.100 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ Now there's no sex, she's depressed ♪ 16:52.100 --> 16:53.766 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ It's truly like he told me ♪ 16:53.766 --> 16:55.166 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ And me, I'm just tired, tired, tired, tired ♪ 16:55.166 --> 16:58.400 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ Without a little lift, the ballerina falls ♪ 16:58.400 --> 16:59.533 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -♪ Who's crazy? ♪ 16:59.533 --> 17:00.833 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ My psychopharmacologist and I ♪ 17:00.833 --> 17:03.433 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ The one who's uncured, or maybe ♪ 17:03.433 --> 17:06.733 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ Together side by side ♪ -♪ The one who's endured? ♪ 17:06.733 --> 17:08.533 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -♪ The one who has treatments ♪ -♪ Without him, I'd die ♪ 17:08.533 --> 17:09.733 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ Or the one who just lives with the pain? ♪ 17:09.733 --> 17:14.966 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ My psychopharmacologist and I ♪ 17:14.966 --> 17:18.366 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ They say love is blind ♪ 17:18.366 --> 17:20.433 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ But believe me ♪ 17:20.433 --> 17:22.133 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% [ Pills rattle, chuckles ] 17:22.133 --> 17:24.433 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ Love is insane ♪ 17:24.433 --> 17:28.033 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -Goodman, Diana. 16 weeks. 17:28.033 --> 17:31.166 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -I don't feel like myself. 17:31.166 --> 17:34.766 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% I mean, I-I don't feel anything. 17:34.766 --> 17:37.166 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Uh-huh. 17:37.166 --> 17:39.466 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% Patient stable. 17:39.466 --> 17:42.933 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 17:42.933 --> 17:44.933 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% [ Cheers and applause ] 17:50.400 --> 17:53.300 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 17:53.300 --> 17:56.933 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -Hey, uh, your mom's, like, in the next room. 17:56.933 --> 18:00.966 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -She's in denial. It's totally convenient. 18:06.733 --> 18:08.700 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% Dude, it's therapeutic. 18:08.700 --> 18:10.000 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Right. 18:10.000 --> 18:13.633 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% It's medical marijuana to treat your ADHD. 18:13.633 --> 18:15.066 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -Totally. [ Chuckles ] 18:16.633 --> 18:18.266 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% Huh? 18:20.300 --> 18:25.500 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -Oh, uh, I don't put anything into my mouth that's on fire. 18:27.100 --> 18:29.566 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -I guess that's a good rule. 18:29.566 --> 18:33.666 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 18:33.666 --> 18:35.600 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -Oh! Uh... -Oh. 18:35.600 --> 18:39.200 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -No, I... -[ Sighs ] 18:39.200 --> 18:42.233 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% I can't do this. 18:42.233 --> 18:43.333 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% Not with my life. 18:43.333 --> 18:47.133 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% I-I'm like one screw-up from disaster. 18:48.833 --> 18:51.066 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -Your life's not a disaster. 18:51.066 --> 18:53.533 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% The environment is a disaster. X is a disaster. 18:53.533 --> 18:56.600 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -You're stoned. -♪ Our planet is poisoned ♪ 18:56.600 --> 18:58.566 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ The oceans, the air ♪ 18:58.566 --> 19:01.833 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Around and beneath and above you ♪ 19:01.833 --> 19:05.633 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ Um, Henry, that's true, and I totally care ♪ 19:05.633 --> 19:08.833 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ I'm trying to tell you I love you ♪ 19:08.833 --> 19:11.033 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -What? -♪ The world is at war, 19:11.033 --> 19:13.466 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% filled with death and disease ♪ 19:13.466 --> 19:16.733 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ We dance on the edge of destruction ♪ 19:16.733 --> 19:21.200 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ The globe's getting warmer by deadly degrees ♪ 19:21.200 --> 19:24.500 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -♪ And this is one messed-up seduction ♪ 19:25.533 --> 19:31.333 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ This planet is pretty much broken beyond all repair ♪ 19:31.333 --> 19:33.766 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ But one thing is working ♪ 19:33.766 --> 19:38.800 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ If you're standing there ♪ 19:38.800 --> 19:42.333 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ Perfect for you ♪ 19:42.333 --> 19:46.066 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ I could be perfect for you ♪ 19:46.066 --> 19:53.666 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ And I might be lazy, a loner, a bit of a stoner, it's true ♪ 19:53.666 --> 19:57.666 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ But I might be perfect ♪ 19:57.666 --> 19:59.966 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ I'll make myself perfect ♪ 19:59.966 --> 20:01.600 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ Perfect for you ♪ 20:01.600 --> 20:05.333 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ You square all the corners, I straighten the curves ♪ 20:05.333 --> 20:09.066 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ You've got some nerve, Henry, and I'm just all nerves ♪ 20:09.066 --> 20:13.133 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -♪ But even if everything else turns to dirt ♪ 20:13.133 --> 20:18.566 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ We'll be the one thing in this world that won't hurt ♪ 20:21.566 --> 20:24.100 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ I can't fix what's messed up ♪ 20:25.466 --> 20:31.133 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ But one thing I know I can do ♪ 20:31.133 --> 20:35.400 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ I can be perfect for you ♪ 20:35.400 --> 20:41.900 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ I can be perfect for you ♪ 20:41.900 --> 20:44.933 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -♪ Perfect 20:44.933 --> 20:53.333 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% for you ♪ 20:53.333 --> 21:01.100 align:left position:47.5% line:89% size:42.5% ♪♪ 21:01.100 --> 21:08.766 align:left position:47.5% line:89% size:42.5% ♪♪ 21:08.766 --> 21:11.300 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -Nice house. 21:11.300 --> 21:12.566 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% Can I come in? -Oh, no. 21:12.566 --> 21:14.600 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Oh. 21:16.766 --> 21:19.233 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -Are you spying on your own daughter? 21:19.233 --> 21:21.933 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -When did she get a boyfriend? -Ew. 21:24.100 --> 21:26.300 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -How did I miss this? 21:26.300 --> 21:29.400 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -Well, you kinda miss a lot. 21:29.400 --> 21:35.366 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 21:35.366 --> 21:38.533 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -You think they're in love? -[ Laughs ] 21:38.533 --> 21:40.400 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% Who knows? 21:40.400 --> 21:43.433 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% They're young and they're horny. 21:43.433 --> 21:45.966 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% It happens. 21:45.966 --> 21:48.566 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -Marry me. -What? 21:48.566 --> 21:51.333 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -Marry me. Let's have a family. 21:51.333 --> 21:54.333 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% Now, I-I know we're too young, but we're not. 21:54.333 --> 21:55.700 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% I'm almost 22. 21:55.700 --> 21:59.500 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% And h-how do you know that this isn't a sign 21:59.500 --> 22:01.466 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% saying we belong together? 22:01.466 --> 22:05.900 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -How do you know it's not a sign saying get new rubbers? 22:06.800 --> 22:08.633 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -Because I know it's not. 22:08.633 --> 22:12.233 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% I love you and this baby. 22:12.233 --> 22:14.300 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -[ Laughs ] 22:14.300 --> 22:18.566 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% Dan, this is crazy. -This is crazy. 22:18.566 --> 22:19.666 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -Maybe it is. -Maybe it is. 22:19.666 --> 22:23.133 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 22:23.133 --> 22:25.100 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -[ Laughs ] 22:25.100 --> 22:33.500 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 22:33.500 --> 22:36.233 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% [ Laughs ] 22:36.233 --> 22:44.366 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 22:44.366 --> 22:49.733 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ There was a time when I flew higher ♪ 22:51.833 --> 22:58.733 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ Was a time the wild girl running free ♪ 22:58.733 --> 23:02.133 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ Would be me ♪ 23:03.900 --> 23:09.100 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ Now I see her feel the fire ♪ 23:09.100 --> 23:15.666 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ Now I know she needs me there to share ♪ 23:17.433 --> 23:20.933 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ I'm nowhere ♪ 23:20.933 --> 23:27.333 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ All these blank and tranquil years ♪ 23:27.333 --> 23:34.033 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Seems they dried up all my tears ♪ 23:34.033 --> 23:39.366 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ And while she runs free and fast ♪ 23:40.366 --> 23:45.366 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ Seems my wild days 23:45.366 --> 23:53.466 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% are past ♪ 23:55.466 --> 24:04.733 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ But I miss the mountains ♪ 24:04.733 --> 24:09.066 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ I miss the dizzy heights ♪ 24:10.033 --> 24:13.800 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ All the manic, magic days ♪ 24:13.800 --> 24:17.766 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ And the dark, depressing nights ♪ 24:19.666 --> 24:25.466 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ I miss the mountains ♪ 24:25.466 --> 24:30.133 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ I miss the highs and lows ♪ 24:30.133 --> 24:34.100 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ All the climbing, all the falling ♪ 24:34.100 --> 24:37.766 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ All the while, the wild wind blows ♪ 24:37.766 --> 24:40.400 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ Stinging you with snow ♪ 24:40.400 --> 24:45.700 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ And soaking you with rain ♪ 24:45.700 --> 24:50.400 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ I miss the mountains ♪ 24:50.400 --> 24:53.033 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ I miss the pain ♪ 24:57.233 --> 25:00.466 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Mountains make you crazy ♪ 25:00.466 --> 25:03.033 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Here, it's safe and sound ♪ 25:03.033 --> 25:05.566 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ My mind is somewhere hazy ♪ 25:05.566 --> 25:09.200 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ My feet are on the ground ♪ 25:09.200 --> 25:15.233 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ Everything is balanced here and on an even keel ♪ 25:15.233 --> 25:19.500 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ Everything is perfect ♪ 25:22.100 --> 25:28.500 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ Nothing's real ♪ 25:28.500 --> 25:34.166 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ Nothing's real ♪ 25:34.166 --> 25:40.800 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ And I miss the mountains ♪ 25:40.800 --> 25:45.800 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ I miss the lonely climb ♪ 25:45.800 --> 25:49.766 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ Wandering through the wilderness ♪ 25:49.766 --> 25:52.800 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ And spending all my time ♪ 25:52.800 --> 26:00.333 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Where the air is clear and cuts you like a knife ♪ 26:00.333 --> 26:05.400 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ I miss the mountains ♪ 26:05.733 --> 26:11.633 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ I miss the mountains ♪ 26:14.333 --> 26:18.633 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% ♪ I miss my 26:18.633 --> 26:24.766 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% life ♪ 26:24.766 --> 26:29.000 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% ♪ I miss my 26:29.000 --> 26:37.366 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% life ♪ 26:37.366 --> 26:39.366 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% [ Cheers and applause ] 26:59.433 --> 27:01.866 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -Are you sure about this, Mom? 27:03.200 --> 27:05.366 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -What? You think it's a bad idea? 27:07.100 --> 27:08.833 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Um... 27:10.700 --> 27:12.933 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% I think it's a great idea. 27:14.233 --> 27:16.133 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% Yeah. I think you're brave. 27:19.266 --> 27:22.500 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -What will your father think? 27:22.500 --> 27:25.266 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Nothing. 27:25.266 --> 27:27.666 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% If he doesn't know. 27:35.766 --> 27:38.633 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 27:38.633 --> 27:41.533 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ It's gonna be good ♪ -♪ Good, good, good ♪ 27:41.533 --> 27:44.433 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ It's gonna be good ♪ -♪ Good, good, good ♪ 27:44.433 --> 27:46.533 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ It's gonna be good ♪ 27:46.533 --> 27:48.466 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -♪ G-O-O-D, good ♪ 27:48.466 --> 27:50.033 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ It's gonna be good ♪ -♪ Uh-huh ♪ 27:50.033 --> 27:51.333 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ It's gonna be good ♪ -♪ Mm-hmm ♪ 27:51.333 --> 27:52.500 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ Two weeks, and it's all working 27:52.500 --> 27:54.433 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% just the way I knew it would ♪ 27:54.433 --> 27:57.200 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ And I don't sit at work just waiting for the phone to ring ♪ 27:57.200 --> 27:58.500 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -♪ A-ling ♪ 27:58.500 --> 28:00.366 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ It's a good, good, good, good thing ♪ 28:00.366 --> 28:01.400 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -♪ Ring ♪ 28:01.400 --> 28:03.133 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -♪ A-ling ♪ 28:03.133 --> 28:05.500 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -♪ Ring ♪ -♪ A-ling ♪ 28:05.500 --> 28:06.766 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Hello? 28:06.766 --> 28:08.466 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% Oh, hi, sweetie! -♪ Uh-huh ♪ 28:08.466 --> 28:09.666 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -Yeah, everything's great, fantastic. 28:09.666 --> 28:11.033 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% I disinfected the entire house, 28:11.033 --> 28:12.966 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% rewired the computer, and did some decoupage. 28:12.966 --> 28:14.866 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% Okay, bye-bye. -♪ Uh-huh ♪ 28:14.866 --> 28:18.300 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -Oh, next, I think I'll retile the roof. 28:19.633 --> 28:21.766 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ It's gonna be great ♪ -♪ It's gonna be great ♪ 28:21.766 --> 28:23.766 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ Will be great ♪ -♪ The sex is still amazing, 28:23.766 --> 28:25.600 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% and we don't stay up that late ♪ 28:25.600 --> 28:27.433 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ It's almost been a month, and she's as happy as a clam ♪ 28:27.433 --> 28:29.400 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -♪ Happy as a clam ♪ 28:29.400 --> 28:31.666 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ Do I look great, I am ♪ 28:31.666 --> 28:34.300 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -Look, I'd ask you in, but it's too soon. 28:34.300 --> 28:36.566 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -We've been going out for nine weeks and three days. 28:36.566 --> 28:38.300 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% Don't I get to meet your family? 28:38.300 --> 28:40.666 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -Oh, you keep count? 28:40.666 --> 28:43.233 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% You're so the girl. And no. 28:43.233 --> 28:45.900 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -Natalie! And this must be Harry! 28:45.900 --> 28:47.066 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -It's Henry. 28:47.066 --> 28:49.033 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -Pleasure to finally meet you. Come on in. 28:49.033 --> 28:50.233 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% Why don't you join us for dinner? 28:50.233 --> 28:54.533 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -Uh, Dad, no! Henry really can't stay. 28:54.533 --> 28:56.466 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% He's got, uh... 28:56.466 --> 28:58.566 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ It's gonna be good ♪ -Homework. 28:58.566 --> 29:00.233 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ It's gonna be good ♪ -Surgery. 29:00.233 --> 29:02.166 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% -♪ Gonna sit right down together like a happy family should ♪ 29:02.166 --> 29:03.400 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Rabies. 29:03.400 --> 29:04.833 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ And eat and talk and laugh and joke, 29:04.833 --> 29:06.633 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% my pride, my brood, and me ♪ 29:06.633 --> 29:08.766 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ It's gonna be good, you'll see ♪ 29:08.766 --> 29:10.133 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ We'll smile and chat, and just like that, 29:10.133 --> 29:11.500 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% we'll all be all okay ♪ 29:11.500 --> 29:13.400 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ It's gonna be great, it's gonna be great ♪ 29:13.400 --> 29:16.600 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ It's gonna be, gonna be, gonna be great that way ♪ 29:16.600 --> 29:18.133 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% ♪ Hey ♪ 29:18.133 --> 29:21.700 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ It's gonna be good, it's gonna be great ♪ 29:21.700 --> 29:24.900 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ Gonna sit right down together like a happy family should ♪ 29:24.900 --> 29:28.366 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ And eat and talk and laugh and joke, my family and me ♪ 29:28.366 --> 29:30.500 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ It's gonna be good, gonna be good ♪ 29:30.500 --> 29:32.466 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ Gonna be, gonna be, gonna be, gonna be, gonna be ♪ 29:32.466 --> 29:33.933 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ Good, good, good, good, good, good, good, good, good, 29:33.933 --> 29:35.300 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% good, good, good ♪ 29:35.300 --> 29:36.966 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ It's gonna be good, it's gonna be good ♪ 29:36.966 --> 29:38.366 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ It's gonna be good, you'll see ♪ 29:38.366 --> 29:41.433 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Okay! It's somebody's birthday! 29:41.433 --> 29:44.533 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -[ Laughs ] Whose birthday is it? 29:47.733 --> 29:50.566 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -My brother's. -Oh. 29:50.566 --> 29:52.933 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% I didn't know you had a brother. 29:54.600 --> 29:56.200 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -I don't. 29:56.200 --> 29:58.233 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 29:58.233 --> 30:00.900 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% He died before I was born. 30:03.566 --> 30:06.200 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -What? 30:06.200 --> 30:07.866 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% What is it? 30:10.066 --> 30:12.666 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -♪ He's not here ♪ 30:14.133 --> 30:16.333 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ He's not here ♪ 30:17.300 --> 30:22.566 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ Love, I know you know ♪ 30:22.566 --> 30:24.966 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -[ Laughs ] 30:24.966 --> 30:27.900 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -♪ Do you feel ♪ 30:27.900 --> 30:30.400 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ He's still real? ♪ 30:31.433 --> 30:34.500 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ Love, it's just not so ♪ 30:34.500 --> 30:38.266 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -Just stop. 30:38.266 --> 30:42.866 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ Why is it you still believe? ♪ 30:43.900 --> 30:50.800 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ Do you dream or do you grieve? ♪ 30:50.800 --> 30:55.933 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ You've got to let him go ♪ 30:58.200 --> 31:05.533 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ He's been dead all these years ♪ 31:05.533 --> 31:08.333 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ No, my love ♪ 31:10.433 --> 31:13.833 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ He's not here ♪ 31:13.833 --> 31:16.300 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -This is bull. -Language. 31:16.300 --> 31:18.233 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -No, screw this. 31:21.033 --> 31:23.000 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -It was wonderful to meet you both. 31:25.733 --> 31:27.333 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% Thank you. 31:27.333 --> 31:36.100 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 31:36.100 --> 31:39.566 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -What about the new meds? 31:42.266 --> 31:44.900 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -We have the happiest septic tank on the block. 31:44.900 --> 31:46.600 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -You... 31:46.600 --> 31:48.333 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -Come on, Di. They were working. 31:48.333 --> 31:49.966 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -They weren't, really. 31:49.966 --> 31:53.833 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -[ Sighs ] Alright, um, we'll get a new round. 31:53.833 --> 31:55.833 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% We'll go back to Dr. Fine. -No! 31:55.833 --> 31:57.666 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Diana, look, I know this is hard. 31:59.100 --> 32:01.000 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -Oh, you know? 32:01.000 --> 32:03.766 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% Really? What exactly do you know? 32:03.766 --> 32:07.133 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -I know that you're hurting, alright? I am, too. 32:07.133 --> 32:11.866 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% -♪ Do you wake up in the morning and need help to lift your head? 32:11.866 --> 32:16.333 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Do you read obituaries and feel jealous of the dead? 32:16.333 --> 32:18.933 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ It's like living on a cliffside, 32:18.933 --> 32:21.000 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% not knowing when you'll dive ♪ 32:21.000 --> 32:25.900 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ Do you know, do you know what it's like to die alive? ♪ 32:25.900 --> 32:28.700 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ When a world that once had color fades to 32:28.700 --> 32:30.566 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% white and gray and black ♪ 32:30.566 --> 32:33.033 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ When tomorrow terrifies you, 32:33.033 --> 32:34.833 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% but you'll die if you look back ♪ 32:34.833 --> 32:37.400 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ You don't know ♪ 32:37.400 --> 32:39.633 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ I know you don't know ♪ 32:39.633 --> 32:42.000 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ You say that you're hurting ♪ 32:42.000 --> 32:44.400 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ It sure doesn't show ♪ 32:44.400 --> 32:46.900 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ You don't know ♪ 32:46.900 --> 32:49.566 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ It lays me so low ♪ 32:49.566 --> 32:51.566 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ When you say, "Let go" ♪ 32:51.566 --> 32:58.333 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ And I say, "You don't know" ♪ 32:58.333 --> 33:00.966 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ The sensation that you're screaming, 33:00.966 --> 33:03.533 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% but you never make a sound ♪ 33:03.533 --> 33:05.666 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ Or the feeling that you're falling, 33:05.666 --> 33:07.966 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% but you never hit the ground ♪ 33:07.966 --> 33:10.466 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ It just keeps on rushing at you 33:10.466 --> 33:12.566 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% day by day by day by day ♪ 33:12.566 --> 33:14.400 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ You don't know, 33:14.400 --> 33:17.600 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% you don't know what it's like to live that way ♪ 33:17.600 --> 33:22.100 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ Like a refugee, a fugitive forever on the run ♪ 33:22.100 --> 33:24.900 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ If it gets me, it will kill me, 33:24.900 --> 33:27.466 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% but I don't know what I've done ♪ 33:27.466 --> 33:29.700 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -♪ Can you tell me ♪ 33:31.133 --> 33:33.633 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ What it is you're afraid of? ♪ 33:33.633 --> 33:36.233 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Oh, I... 33:36.233 --> 33:41.100 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ And can you tell me why I'm afraid it's me? 33:42.633 --> 33:44.766 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ Can I touch you? ♪ 33:46.400 --> 33:49.800 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ We've been fine for so long now ♪ 33:51.533 --> 33:56.400 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ How could something go wrong that I can't see? ♪ 33:56.400 --> 33:59.566 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ 'Cause I'm holding on ♪ 34:01.766 --> 34:05.366 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ And I won't let go ♪ 34:05.366 --> 34:08.733 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ I just thought you should know ♪ 34:08.733 --> 34:11.200 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ I am the one who knows you ♪ 34:11.200 --> 34:13.533 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ I am the one who cares ♪ 34:13.533 --> 34:17.866 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ I am the one who's always been there ♪ 34:19.266 --> 34:21.533 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ I am the one who's helped you ♪ 34:21.533 --> 34:26.133 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ And if you think that I just don't give a damn ♪ 34:26.133 --> 34:29.866 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ Then you just don't know who I am ♪ 34:33.700 --> 34:37.533 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Could you leave me? -♪ Hey, Dad, it's me ♪ 34:37.533 --> 34:39.766 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ Could you let me go under? 34:39.766 --> 34:42.666 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -♪ Why can't you see? 34:42.666 --> 34:44.800 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ Will you watch as I drown ♪ 34:44.800 --> 34:48.600 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ And wonder why? ♪ -♪ I wonder why ♪ 34:48.600 --> 34:49.700 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ Are you bleeding? ♪ 34:49.700 --> 34:51.100 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ Are you waiting, are you wishing, 34:51.100 --> 34:52.666 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% are you wanting all that she can't give? ♪ 34:52.666 --> 34:55.033 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ Are you bruised, are you broken? ♪ 34:55.033 --> 34:56.700 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ Are you hurting, are you healing, 34:56.700 --> 34:58.600 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% are you hoping for a life to live? ♪ 34:58.600 --> 35:00.100 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ Does it help you to know ♪ 35:00.100 --> 35:03.233 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ That so am I? ♪ -♪ Well, so am I ♪ 35:03.233 --> 35:05.866 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ Tell me what to do ♪ 35:05.866 --> 35:08.233 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -♪ Look at me ♪ 35:08.233 --> 35:10.566 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ Tell me who to be ♪ 35:10.566 --> 35:11.800 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ Look at me, and you'll see ♪ 35:11.800 --> 35:15.100 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ So I can see what you see ♪ 35:15.100 --> 35:16.500 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ I am the one who'll hold you ♪ 35:16.500 --> 35:18.000 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -♪ I am ♪ 35:18.000 --> 35:19.900 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -♪ I am the one who'll stay ♪ -♪ I am ♪ 35:19.900 --> 35:20.966 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ I am the one who won't walk away ♪ 35:20.966 --> 35:24.000 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ I won't walk away ♪ 35:24.000 --> 35:25.500 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 35:25.500 --> 35:28.000 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% ♪ I am the one who'll hear you ♪ -♪ I am ♪ 35:28.000 --> 35:31.133 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ And now you tell me that I won't give a damn ♪ 35:31.133 --> 35:32.966 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ You don't give a damn ♪ 35:32.966 --> 35:34.500 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ But I know you know who I am ♪ 35:34.500 --> 35:36.266 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -♪ Who I am ♪ 35:36.266 --> 35:39.200 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ -♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 35:39.200 --> 35:40.933 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -♪ That's who I am ♪ 35:40.933 --> 35:43.900 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ -♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 35:43.900 --> 35:46.300 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ That's who I am ♪ -♪ Who I am ♪ 35:46.300 --> 35:49.633 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ -♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 35:49.633 --> 35:52.566 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -♪ That's who I am ♪ 35:54.233 --> 35:57.133 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ 'Cause I'm holding on ♪ 35:57.133 --> 36:00.133 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ You say you hurt like me ♪ 36:00.133 --> 36:02.733 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ And I won't let go ♪ 36:02.733 --> 36:04.366 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ You say that you know ♪ 36:04.366 --> 36:07.366 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -♪ Yeah, I thought you should know ♪ 36:07.366 --> 36:09.900 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ Oh, you don't know ♪ 36:09.900 --> 36:12.133 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ I am the one who knows you ♪ 36:12.133 --> 36:14.800 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ I know you don't know ♪ -♪ I am the one who cares ♪ 36:14.800 --> 36:16.100 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% -♪ You say that you're hurting ♪ 36:16.100 --> 36:17.100 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ I am the one who's always been there ♪ 36:17.100 --> 36:19.333 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ I know it ain't so ♪ 36:19.333 --> 36:20.633 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ You don't know ♪ -♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 36:20.633 --> 36:22.366 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ I am the one who needs you ♪ 36:22.366 --> 36:24.800 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ Why don't you just go? ♪ -♪ And if you think that I ♪ 36:24.800 --> 36:27.266 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ 'Cause it lays me low ♪ -♪ Just don't give a damn ♪ 36:27.266 --> 36:28.566 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -♪ When I say ♪ 36:28.566 --> 36:31.166 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ Then you just don't know who I am ♪ 36:31.166 --> 36:32.666 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -♪ You don't know ♪ 36:32.666 --> 36:34.333 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -♪ Who I am ♪ 36:34.333 --> 36:36.133 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -♪ You don't know ♪ 36:36.133 --> 36:38.033 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -♪ Who I am ♪ 36:38.033 --> 36:45.800 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ You just don't know who I am ♪ 36:45.800 --> 36:47.800 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% [ Cheers and applause ] 36:56.600 --> 36:59.433 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 36:59.433 --> 37:02.700 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -When she gets like this, she's useless. 37:02.700 --> 37:07.133 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% Can't use the phone, can't drive, can't... 37:07.133 --> 37:09.966 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -Well, I bet she's got great pills. 37:12.466 --> 37:15.433 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% I mean, not that I would go there. 37:15.433 --> 37:17.733 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% That stuff's inorganic. 37:17.733 --> 37:19.800 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -And totally ineffective, apparently. 37:19.800 --> 37:23.300 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -You know me. I'm old school. 37:23.300 --> 37:25.533 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% A dying breed. 37:25.533 --> 37:27.933 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% You see, all the preppies and the jocks, 37:27.933 --> 37:30.333 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% they're raiding their parents' medicine cabinets. 37:30.333 --> 37:33.666 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% They're popping Xanax and snorting Adderall. 37:33.666 --> 37:35.300 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Really? 37:35.300 --> 37:38.066 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -But me, I'm the master of the lost art 37:38.066 --> 37:41.100 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% of making a pipe out of an apple. 37:42.433 --> 37:46.233 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Yeah. You're the MacGyver of pot. 37:48.400 --> 37:52.000 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% You promise this'll help? -No. What? 37:52.000 --> 37:56.033 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -♪ Superboy and the invisible girl ♪ 37:56.033 --> 37:59.766 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ Son of steel and daughter of air ♪ 37:59.766 --> 38:03.100 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ He's a hero, a lover, a prince ♪ 38:03.100 --> 38:07.133 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ She's not there ♪ 38:07.133 --> 38:10.500 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% ♪ Superboy and the invisible girl ♪ 38:10.500 --> 38:14.566 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ Everything a kid oughta be ♪ 38:14.566 --> 38:17.500 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ He's immortal, forever alive ♪ 38:17.500 --> 38:20.800 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ Then there's me ♪ 38:20.800 --> 38:25.166 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ I wish I could fly ♪ 38:25.166 --> 38:29.433 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ And magically appear and disappear ♪ 38:29.433 --> 38:33.300 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ I wish I could fly ♪ 38:33.300 --> 38:39.333 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ I'd fly far away from here ♪ 38:39.333 --> 38:42.600 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% ♪ Superboy and the invisible girl ♪ 38:42.600 --> 38:46.733 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ He's the one you wish would appear ♪ 38:46.733 --> 38:49.833 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ He's your hero, forever your son ♪ 38:49.833 --> 38:51.266 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ He's not here ♪ 38:51.266 --> 38:54.166 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ I am here ♪ 38:54.166 --> 38:57.333 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ You know that's not true ♪ 38:57.333 --> 39:01.700 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ You're our little pride and joy, our perfect plan ♪ 39:01.700 --> 39:04.966 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ You know I love you ♪ 39:06.266 --> 39:10.033 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% I love you as much as I can. 39:14.733 --> 39:18.266 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -♪ Take a look at the invisible girl ♪ 39:18.266 --> 39:21.633 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ Here she is, clear as the day ♪ 39:21.633 --> 39:23.633 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Please look closely and find her 39:23.633 --> 39:29.333 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% before she fades away ♪ 39:29.333 --> 39:32.733 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -♪ Superboy and the invisible girl ♪ 39:32.733 --> 39:36.700 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ Son of steel and daughter of air ♪ 39:36.700 --> 39:39.333 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ He's a hero, a lover, a prince ♪ 39:39.333 --> 39:42.266 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ She's not there ♪ 39:42.266 --> 39:45.500 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ She's not there ♪ 39:45.700 --> 39:49.400 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ She's not there ♪ 39:49.400 --> 39:58.700 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ She's not there ♪ 39:58.700 --> 40:01.100 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% [ Cheers and applause ] 40:01.100 --> 40:03.100 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -[ Coughs ] 40:09.533 --> 40:11.900 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -Let's not get discouraged. 40:11.900 --> 40:15.000 align:left position:40% line:5% size:50% Alright? We'll find a doctor who can 40:15.000 --> 40:16.966 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% treat you without the drugs. 40:16.966 --> 40:19.600 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% Alright? There is someone out there for you. 40:19.600 --> 40:22.566 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% In the depression forums, they say it's like dating. 40:22.566 --> 40:26.066 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% You know, you have to keep going until you find the right match. 40:26.066 --> 40:28.900 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -They have depression forums? -Yeah. 40:28.900 --> 40:32.266 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% And, uh this doctor is supposed to be fantastic, 40:32.266 --> 40:33.833 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% like a real rock star. 40:33.833 --> 40:35.866 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% Three different women at work gave me his name. 40:35.866 --> 40:38.000 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -Three women at work know I'm nuts? 40:38.900 --> 40:40.800 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -[ Clears throat ] -Ah! 40:42.133 --> 40:44.466 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Diana. This way, please. 40:44.466 --> 40:46.166 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 40:46.166 --> 40:51.033 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 40:54.633 --> 40:56.200 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -What did you just say? 40:56.200 --> 40:59.466 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -I said "Welcome." I'm Dr. Madden. Have a seat. 40:59.466 --> 41:01.700 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% It's -- It's nice to meet you. 41:01.700 --> 41:07.700 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Let's get it on now, baby ♪ 41:09.533 --> 41:11.833 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -Excuse me, what? -I said, let's get started. 41:11.833 --> 41:15.066 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% Are you nervous, Diana? -I am, a little. 41:15.066 --> 41:17.433 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% Um, a bit out of breath. 41:17.433 --> 41:21.533 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% Tingly, actually. Uh, now you go. 41:21.533 --> 41:23.633 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -Uh, let's start by getting to know each other a bit. 41:23.633 --> 41:26.033 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% Psychotherapy and medication work best in tandem, 41:26.033 --> 41:29.333 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% but we can try the first alone and see how far we get. 41:29.333 --> 41:30.400 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% Why don't you tell me. 41:30.400 --> 41:34.033 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% ♪ Baby, what's your history? ♪ 41:34.033 --> 41:39.933 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ Where'd you go, and who'd you see, yeah ♪ 41:39.933 --> 41:43.100 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -Um, my history? -Mm. 41:43.100 --> 41:49.066 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -Okay, uh, I was diagnosed bipolar, wow, 16 years ago, uh, 41:49.066 --> 41:50.933 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% but it turned out bipolar didn't totally cover it. 41:50.933 --> 41:52.100 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Often, the best we can do 41:52.100 --> 41:54.166 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% is put names to collections of symptoms. 41:54.166 --> 41:56.033 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% It's possible bipolar has more in common 41:56.033 --> 41:58.000 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% with schizophrenia than depression. 41:58.000 --> 41:59.366 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -Yeah, when I was young, my mother called me 41:59.366 --> 42:00.933 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% "high-spirited." 42:00.933 --> 42:02.933 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% She would know. 42:02.933 --> 42:04.766 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% She was so high-spirited, they banned her from the PTA. 42:04.766 --> 42:07.000 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -Sometimes, we have a predisposition to illness, 42:07.000 --> 42:08.866 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% but actual onset is often triggered 42:08.866 --> 42:10.433 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% by some traumatic event. 42:11.566 --> 42:13.466 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -Look, I never know what to say when I have to go over all this. 42:13.466 --> 42:15.200 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% It starts to sounds like some story 42:15.200 --> 42:17.200 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% I tell about some other person entirely. 42:17.200 --> 42:22.900 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% -Why don't you tell me about the last time you truly felt happy. 42:24.366 --> 42:26.966 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% Uh, were you happy when you got married? 42:26.966 --> 42:28.700 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -Yeah, I thought I was. 42:28.700 --> 42:30.366 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -There's a difference between being happy 42:30.366 --> 42:31.933 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% and just thinking that you're happy? 42:31.933 --> 42:33.700 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -Most people who think they're happy 42:33.700 --> 42:36.266 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% just haven't thought about it enough. 42:36.266 --> 42:38.300 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% Most people who think they're happy are actually just stupid. 42:38.300 --> 42:40.200 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -Ah. I see. 42:40.200 --> 42:43.566 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% Uh, were you happy when your son was born? 42:45.033 --> 42:47.100 align:left position:47.5% line:89% size:42.5% ♪♪ 42:47.100 --> 42:48.333 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -My son. 42:48.333 --> 42:50.366 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -Tell me about him. 42:52.533 --> 42:54.300 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -About my son? 42:54.300 --> 42:56.166 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -Why is he still around? 42:56.166 --> 42:58.033 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -Who is he? 42:58.033 --> 43:00.066 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% What is he? 43:00.066 --> 43:02.333 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% -♪ I am what you want me to be ♪ 43:02.333 --> 43:05.400 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ And I'm your worst fear, you'll find it in me ♪ 43:05.400 --> 43:07.400 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ Come closer ♪ 43:08.300 --> 43:09.900 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ Come closer ♪ 43:09.900 --> 43:11.733 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -Where does he come from, do you think? 43:11.733 --> 43:14.333 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ I am more than memory ♪ 43:14.333 --> 43:17.133 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ I am what might be, I am mystery ♪ 43:17.133 --> 43:19.666 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ You know me ♪ 43:19.666 --> 43:22.766 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ So show me ♪ 43:22.766 --> 43:28.733 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ When I appear, it's not so clear ♪ 43:28.733 --> 43:34.766 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ If I'm a simple spirit or I'm flesh and blood ♪ 43:34.766 --> 43:38.033 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ But I'm alive, I'm alive, I am so alive ♪ 43:38.033 --> 43:40.933 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ And I feed on the fear that's behind your eyes ♪ 43:40.933 --> 43:44.066 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ And I need you to need me, it's no surprise ♪ 43:44.066 --> 43:46.500 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ I'm alive ♪ 43:46.500 --> 43:49.933 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ I'm so alive ♪ 43:49.933 --> 43:51.766 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ I'm alive ♪ 43:51.766 --> 43:54.666 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -Four times a week? That's a lot, isn't it? 43:54.666 --> 43:57.066 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -Um, it's what the doctor recommended. 43:57.066 --> 44:00.300 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -This is never going to get better, is it? 44:00.300 --> 44:01.966 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% He's never going away. 44:01.966 --> 44:04.400 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -I don't know, Natalie. 44:04.400 --> 44:05.866 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -You know, this is one of those moments 44:05.866 --> 44:07.600 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% where you could just be a typical parent and lie. 44:07.600 --> 44:10.233 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% Say "yes." -Yes. 44:10.233 --> 44:11.933 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -Ah, thanks. 44:11.933 --> 44:13.900 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% That's comforting. 44:13.900 --> 44:16.633 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ I am flame and I am fire ♪ 44:16.633 --> 44:19.766 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ I am destruction, decay, and desire ♪ 44:19.766 --> 44:22.633 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ I'll hurt you ♪ -You know, Natalie... 44:22.633 --> 44:23.966 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -♪ I'll heal you ♪ 44:23.966 --> 44:25.833 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -...it's not all about your comfort. 44:25.833 --> 44:28.433 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -♪ I'm your wish, your dream come true ♪ 44:28.433 --> 44:31.133 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ And I am your darkest nightmare, too ♪ 44:31.133 --> 44:32.933 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ I've shown you ♪ 44:32.933 --> 44:34.333 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% -It's about helping your mother. 44:34.333 --> 44:36.433 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -♪ I own you ♪ 44:36.433 --> 44:37.900 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -As always. 44:37.900 --> 44:43.600 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ And though you made me, you can't change me ♪ 44:43.600 --> 44:48.666 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ I'm the perfect stranger, who knows you too well ♪ 44:48.666 --> 44:52.133 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ And I'm alive, I'm alive, I am so alive ♪ 44:52.133 --> 44:55.100 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ And I'll tell you the truth if you let me try ♪ 44:55.100 --> 45:00.466 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ You're alive, I'm alive, and I'll show you why I'm alive ♪ 45:00.466 --> 45:03.433 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ I'm so alive ♪ 45:03.433 --> 45:06.066 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ I'm alive ♪ 45:07.600 --> 45:09.466 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -Risperdal. 45:09.466 --> 45:12.466 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -♪ I'm alive ♪ 45:12.466 --> 45:15.466 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -Valium. Xanax. 45:15.466 --> 45:17.933 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -♪ I'm alive ♪ 45:18.766 --> 45:21.233 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -What the heck? 45:21.233 --> 45:23.800 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -♪ I'm alive ♪ 45:23.800 --> 45:27.366 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ I'm right behind you ♪ 45:28.400 --> 45:32.866 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ You say "forget," but I remind you ♪ 45:33.433 --> 45:39.333 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ You can try to hide, you know that I will find you ♪ 45:39.333 --> 45:42.833 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ 'Cause if you won't grieve me ♪ 45:42.833 --> 45:48.233 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ You won't leave me behind ♪ 45:48.233 --> 45:51.333 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% ♪ Ah, hoo ♪ 45:51.333 --> 45:53.800 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -Let's say he's 18 now. Isn't that when kids move out? 45:53.800 --> 45:56.300 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% Isn't it time to let him go? 45:56.300 --> 46:00.266 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ No, no, no, I'm alive, I'm alive, I am so alive ♪ 46:00.266 --> 46:03.433 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ If you climb on my back, then we both can fly ♪ 46:03.433 --> 46:06.433 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ If you try to deny me, I'll never die ♪ 46:06.433 --> 46:08.733 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ I'm alive ♪ 46:08.733 --> 46:11.700 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ I'm so alive ♪ 46:11.700 --> 46:14.766 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ I'm alive ♪ 46:14.766 --> 46:17.366 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ Yeah, yeah ♪ 46:17.366 --> 46:20.366 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ I'm alive ♪ 46:21.033 --> 46:23.633 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ I'm alive ♪ 46:23.633 --> 46:26.666 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ I'm alive ♪ 46:27.300 --> 46:35.100 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ I'm alive ♪ 46:35.100 --> 46:37.100 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% [ Cheers and applause ] 46:51.500 --> 46:56.900 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -It's been four weeks, and I'd like to try something new today. 46:56.900 --> 47:01.266 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% Sometimes, when these stories are hard to tell, 47:01.266 --> 47:02.966 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% hypnosis can be helpful. 47:02.966 --> 47:05.033 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -[ Laughs ] -Oh I, uh... 47:05.033 --> 47:06.800 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% I don't think I could be hypnotized. 47:06.800 --> 47:08.666 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% I mean, it's fine. I'm just not the type. 47:08.666 --> 47:11.300 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -Uh-huh. Put your feet on the floor. 47:11.300 --> 47:14.566 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 47:14.566 --> 47:17.133 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% Your hands in your lap. 47:18.933 --> 47:21.400 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% Breathe. 47:21.400 --> 47:24.366 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -♪ Walk with me, walk with me 47:24.366 --> 47:27.366 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -Okay, I'm walking. -♪ Go all the way down ♪ 47:27.366 --> 47:28.866 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Down a long flight of stairs ♪ 47:28.866 --> 47:30.300 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -Ooh, stairs! 47:30.300 --> 47:34.133 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ Go step by step into the darkness down there ♪ 47:34.133 --> 47:37.600 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -Should we turn on a light? You know, for the stairs? 47:37.600 --> 47:39.333 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -[ Laughs ] 47:39.333 --> 47:43.333 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ Walk with me down a hall ♪ 47:43.333 --> 47:45.166 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ A hall that you know ♪ 47:45.166 --> 47:47.400 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ At the end, there's a door ♪ 47:47.400 --> 47:53.200 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ It's a door that you've never laid eyes on before ♪ 47:53.200 --> 47:56.000 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ Open the door ♪ 47:56.000 --> 48:05.666 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ Open the door ♪ 48:07.566 --> 48:11.233 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% Can you hear me, Diana? -Yes. 48:14.733 --> 48:17.033 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -Are you nervous? 48:18.200 --> 48:20.166 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -No. 48:20.166 --> 48:21.833 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Good. 48:24.133 --> 48:26.000 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% Now... 48:26.000 --> 48:30.366 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ Make up your mind to explore yourself ♪ 48:30.366 --> 48:34.166 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Make up your mind, you have stories to tell ♪ 48:34.166 --> 48:38.166 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ We'll search in your past for what sorrows may last ♪ 48:38.166 --> 48:42.633 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Then make up your mind to be well ♪ 48:42.633 --> 48:46.933 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -Di, you come home from these sessions in tears. 48:46.933 --> 48:49.833 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% Is this helping, or... 48:49.833 --> 48:51.600 align:left position:47.5% line:89% size:42.5% Di? 48:53.100 --> 48:56.400 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% Di... -We were both undergrads. 48:56.400 --> 49:00.233 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% Architecture. The baby wasn't planned. 49:01.500 --> 49:02.800 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% Neither was the marriage. 49:04.166 --> 49:06.600 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% I'd always expected to be too busy, 49:06.600 --> 49:12.733 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% but when the baby came, it all seemed to make sense. 49:12.733 --> 49:13.733 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% Until... 49:16.766 --> 49:18.566 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% Until... 49:18.566 --> 49:20.500 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Until? 49:20.500 --> 49:22.366 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -♪ He's not here ♪ 49:22.366 --> 49:25.233 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ He's not here ♪ 49:25.233 --> 49:28.100 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ Love, I know you know ♪ 49:28.100 --> 49:30.966 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Make up your mind that you're strong enough ♪ 49:30.966 --> 49:34.733 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Make up your mind, let the truth be revealed ♪ 49:34.733 --> 49:38.833 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Admit what you've lost and live with the cost ♪ 49:38.833 --> 49:42.266 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% ♪ At times, it does hurt to be healed ♪ 49:42.266 --> 49:43.533 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 49:43.533 --> 49:45.666 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -In our first session, you told me... 49:45.666 --> 49:47.033 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 49:47.033 --> 49:48.466 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -...that talking through your history... 49:48.466 --> 49:51.800 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ Faster than anyone should ♪ 49:51.800 --> 49:53.566 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 49:53.566 --> 49:55.266 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -...it feels like it's about someone else. 49:55.266 --> 49:56.700 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ Please hear me calling ♪ 49:56.700 --> 49:58.433 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -Make it about you. 49:58.433 --> 50:02.700 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ Catch me, I'm falling for good ♪ 50:02.700 --> 50:04.566 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -[ Sniffles ] 50:04.566 --> 50:06.333 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% -Hey. -Hey. 50:06.333 --> 50:10.433 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -I'm not supposed to be backstage, but, uh... 50:10.433 --> 50:12.300 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% For luck. 50:12.300 --> 50:14.600 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -Uh, did you see my parents out there? 50:14.600 --> 50:16.433 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -Are you okay? -Yeah. 50:16.433 --> 50:19.000 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% Yeah, I'm fine. My dad said they'd both be here. 50:19.000 --> 50:20.633 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -Okay, well, I'm sure they will be. 50:20.633 --> 50:22.133 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -Will they? 50:23.266 --> 50:25.633 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -We had Natalie to re... 50:30.100 --> 50:32.000 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% And I know she knows. 50:33.766 --> 50:38.133 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% I couldn't hold her in the hospital. 50:38.133 --> 50:40.433 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -Well, where are they? 50:40.433 --> 50:43.400 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% -I couldn't let myself hold her. 50:43.400 --> 50:44.900 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -That's the first time 50:44.900 --> 50:47.700 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% you've mentioned Natalie in weeks of therapy. 50:47.700 --> 50:49.566 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -You gotta be kidding me. 50:49.566 --> 50:52.300 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ She's not there ♪ 50:52.300 --> 50:55.733 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -♪ She's not there ♪ 50:55.733 --> 50:58.433 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ She's not there ♪ 50:59.100 --> 51:03.066 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Make up your mind, you want clarity ♪ 51:03.066 --> 51:06.966 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Take what you know and then make it make sense ♪ 51:06.966 --> 51:10.900 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ Just face what you fear, and soon, it comes clear ♪ 51:10.900 --> 51:15.000 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ The visions are just your defense ♪ 51:16.266 --> 51:18.133 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -Thank you for coming. 51:19.366 --> 51:20.533 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% Natalie Goodman. 51:23.533 --> 51:26.066 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% [ Piano plays ] 51:26.066 --> 51:27.500 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Playing stops ] 51:27.500 --> 51:29.666 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -Let's try to understand what all of this is doing to you 51:29.666 --> 51:31.533 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% and to your family. 51:34.066 --> 51:37.000 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% [ Plays bad notes, smacks keys ] -Ugh! 51:37.000 --> 51:39.233 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -Your grief for your son. 51:39.233 --> 51:41.500 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% Your distance from Natalie. 51:42.866 --> 51:47.866 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Sorry. Sorry, it's just, um... 51:50.433 --> 51:53.866 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% You know what the problem with classical is? 51:53.866 --> 51:56.333 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% It's so rigid 51:56.333 --> 51:58.566 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% and -- and structured. 51:58.566 --> 52:00.600 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% You have to play the notes on the page. 52:00.600 --> 52:02.833 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% There's no room for improvisation. 52:02.833 --> 52:03.866 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Oh, no. 52:04.800 --> 52:06.400 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 52:06.400 --> 52:08.966 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Make up your mind, you can live at last ♪ 52:08.966 --> 52:10.266 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -♪ Take a look ♪ 52:10.266 --> 52:13.400 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Make up your mind to be fully alive ♪ 52:13.400 --> 52:15.766 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ Embrace what's inside ♪ 52:15.766 --> 52:17.500 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ Replace what has died ♪ 52:17.500 --> 52:23.466 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ And make up your mind you'll survive ♪ 52:23.466 --> 52:25.466 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -♪ Catch me, I'm falling 52:25.466 --> 52:27.166 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -Unresolved loss can lead to depression. 52:27.166 --> 52:28.466 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 52:28.466 --> 52:30.600 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -Fear of loss to anxiety. 52:30.600 --> 52:33.866 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ Flying headfirst into fate ♪ 52:33.866 --> 52:35.400 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 52:35.400 --> 52:37.400 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -The more you hold on to something you've lost... 52:37.400 --> 52:39.766 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ Please hear me calling ♪ -...the more you fear losing it. 52:39.766 --> 52:41.366 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ Catch me before it's too late ♪ 52:41.366 --> 52:43.233 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -Depression, anxiety. 52:43.233 --> 52:44.533 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ Catch me before it's too late ♪ 52:44.533 --> 52:46.700 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -Depression, anxiety, one gives rise to the other. 52:46.700 --> 52:47.733 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ Catch me before it's too late ♪ 52:47.733 --> 52:49.466 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -It becomes a cycle. 52:49.466 --> 52:51.633 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 52:51.633 --> 52:53.866 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 52:53.866 --> 52:56.333 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% ♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 52:57.600 --> 53:01.500 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -Wouldn't you like to be free from all of that, finally? 53:02.566 --> 53:05.533 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% Wouldn't you like to go home, clear out his things, 53:05.533 --> 53:07.833 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% maybe spend some time with your daughter, 53:07.833 --> 53:12.966 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% and let your son go at last? 53:12.966 --> 53:14.833 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -Uh, should we go? 53:16.966 --> 53:19.433 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% -Yes. -Yes. 53:19.433 --> 53:21.033 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Mom? 53:21.033 --> 53:22.633 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -Yes, I would. 53:22.633 --> 53:24.600 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -[ Crying ] 53:24.600 --> 53:32.133 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 53:32.133 --> 53:39.633 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 53:39.633 --> 53:47.166 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 53:47.166 --> 53:54.666 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 53:54.666 --> 53:57.300 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -This, um... 53:57.300 --> 54:01.166 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% This is good, Di. This is a good step. 54:01.166 --> 54:11.066 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 54:15.966 --> 54:18.866 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Okay. [ Sniffles ] 55:01.300 --> 55:03.700 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% [ Whimpers ] 55:03.700 --> 55:06.000 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% [ Crying ] My baby. 55:37.433 --> 55:45.600 align:left position:47.5% line:89% size:42.5% ♪♪ 55:45.600 --> 55:47.600 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% [ Humming ] 55:53.766 --> 56:01.700 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ I saw you light the ballroom ♪ 56:01.700 --> 56:07.300 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% ♪ With your sparkling eyes of blue ♪ 56:10.066 --> 56:15.400 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ Graceful as an angel's wing ♪ 56:15.400 --> 56:20.233 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% ♪ I dreamed a dance with you ♪ 56:20.233 --> 56:26.000 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 56:26.000 --> 56:30.500 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ You whispered slyly, softly ♪ 56:32.166 --> 56:37.700 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ You told me you would be true ♪ 56:37.700 --> 56:42.000 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% ♪ We spun around a thousand stars ♪ 56:42.000 --> 56:46.900 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ I dreamed a dance with you ♪ 56:46.900 --> 56:51.366 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 56:51.366 --> 56:57.133 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ I know the night is dying, dear ♪ 56:57.133 --> 57:02.700 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ I know the day will dawn ♪ 57:02.700 --> 57:06.466 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ The dancers may disappear ♪ 57:06.466 --> 57:12.600 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Still, the dance goes on ♪ 57:15.533 --> 57:20.266 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -♪ And on ♪ 57:23.833 --> 57:28.433 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ I'll wake alone tomorrow ♪ 57:31.100 --> 57:36.166 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ The dream of our dance is through ♪ 57:38.566 --> 57:43.166 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ But now until forever, love ♪ 57:43.166 --> 57:47.500 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ I'll live to dance with you ♪ 57:51.466 --> 57:54.666 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ I'll dream my love ♪ 57:54.666 --> 57:57.700 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ I'll live my love ♪ 57:57.700 --> 58:03.800 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ And I'll die to dance with ♪ 58:03.800 --> 58:12.600 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 58:12.600 --> 58:17.533 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -♪ There's a world ♪ 58:17.533 --> 58:20.866 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ There's a world I know ♪ 58:20.866 --> 58:24.666 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ A place we can go ♪ 58:24.666 --> 58:31.066 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ Where the pain will go away ♪ 58:32.533 --> 58:41.633 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ There's a world where the sun shines each day ♪ 58:45.600 --> 58:50.233 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ There's a world ♪ 58:50.233 --> 58:53.000 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ There's a world out there ♪ 58:53.000 --> 58:56.466 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ I'll show you just where ♪ 58:56.466 --> 59:02.466 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ And in time, I know you'll see ♪ 59:02.466 --> 59:10.033 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ There's a world where we ♪ 59:10.033 --> 59:17.633 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ Can be free ♪ 59:22.766 --> 59:27.566 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ Come with me ♪ 59:27.566 --> 59:29.466 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -Goodman, Diana. 59:29.466 --> 59:33.100 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -♪ Come with me ♪ 59:33.100 --> 59:36.433 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -Discovered unconscious at home. 59:36.433 --> 59:42.400 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ There's a world where we can be free ♪ 59:42.400 --> 59:44.900 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -Multiple razor wounds to wrists and forearms, 59:44.900 --> 59:46.800 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% self-inflicted. 59:46.800 --> 59:52.833 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -♪ Come with me ♪ 59:52.833 --> 59:57.500 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -Saline rinse, sutures, gauze, I.V., antibiotics, 59:57.500 --> 59:59.600 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% isolated, sedated, and restrained. 59:59.600 --> 01:00:01.033 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% Damn it! 01:00:02.766 --> 01:00:04.466 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ECT is indicated. 01:00:06.633 --> 01:00:09.500 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -Wow! Um... 01:00:10.466 --> 01:00:11.833 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% I mean, they still do that? 01:00:11.833 --> 01:00:13.200 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -We do, yes. 01:00:13.200 --> 01:00:15.066 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% It's the standard in cases like this. 01:00:15.066 --> 01:00:17.166 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% She's got a long history of drug-therapy resistance, 01:00:17.166 --> 01:00:18.533 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% and she's acutely suicidal. 01:00:18.533 --> 01:00:20.000 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% It's really our best option. 01:00:20.000 --> 01:00:21.933 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -It's kind of terrifying. -It's not. 01:00:21.933 --> 01:00:24.033 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% The electricity involved is barely enough 01:00:24.033 --> 01:00:25.933 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% to light a 100-watt bulb. 01:00:25.933 --> 01:00:28.233 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -Oh, well, if it's just a 100-watt bulb... 01:00:28.233 --> 01:00:30.066 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -It's safer than crossing the street, 01:00:30.066 --> 01:00:33.133 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% and the short-term success rate is over 80%. 01:00:34.366 --> 01:00:36.433 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -I thought she was better. 01:00:37.600 --> 01:00:40.200 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -Sometimes, patients regain just enough strength 01:00:40.200 --> 01:00:42.233 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% to follow through on suicidal impulses, 01:00:42.233 --> 01:00:44.966 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% but not enough to resist them. 01:00:46.500 --> 01:00:49.666 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Well, that seems very messed up. 01:00:49.666 --> 01:00:51.300 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Yes. 01:00:51.300 --> 01:00:53.300 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% Legally, we need her consent, 01:00:53.300 --> 01:00:55.533 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% and hospital policy says we need yours, too. 01:00:55.533 --> 01:00:57.266 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -I don't think she's gonna go for this. 01:00:57.266 --> 01:00:58.966 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -Mr. Goodman, I can administer the ECT 01:00:58.966 --> 01:01:01.033 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% and you can take her home in three weeks, 01:01:01.033 --> 01:01:03.866 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% or I can keep her sedated for another 48 hours, 01:01:03.866 --> 01:01:07.700 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% discharge her, and wait for her to try again. 01:01:09.666 --> 01:01:13.033 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% Go home, take the night. 01:01:16.533 --> 01:01:19.033 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% We'll talk to her in the morning. 01:01:21.266 --> 01:01:26.300 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:01:26.300 --> 01:01:31.300 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:01:31.300 --> 01:01:33.533 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ Standing in this room ♪ 01:01:33.533 --> 01:01:36.400 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ Well, I wonder what comes now ♪ 01:01:36.400 --> 01:01:38.733 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ I know I have to help her ♪ 01:01:38.733 --> 01:01:41.433 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ But hell if I know how ♪ 01:01:41.433 --> 01:01:44.100 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ And all the times that I've been told ♪ 01:01:44.100 --> 01:01:46.466 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ The way her illness goes ♪ 01:01:46.466 --> 01:01:50.233 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ The truth of it is, no one really knows ♪ 01:01:51.633 --> 01:01:56.766 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% ♪ And every day, this act we act gets more and more absurd ♪ 01:01:56.766 --> 01:01:59.266 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ And all my fears just sit inside me, 01:01:59.266 --> 01:02:01.200 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% screaming to be heard ♪ 01:02:01.933 --> 01:02:06.600 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ I know they won't, though, not a single word ♪ 01:02:06.600 --> 01:02:09.400 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ I was here, at her side ♪ 01:02:09.400 --> 01:02:12.600 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ When she called, when she cried ♪ 01:02:12.600 --> 01:02:16.366 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ How could she leave me on my own? ♪ 01:02:16.366 --> 01:02:19.433 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Will it work, this cure? ♪ 01:02:19.433 --> 01:02:24.666 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ There's no way to be sure ♪ 01:02:24.666 --> 01:02:27.133 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ But I'm weary to the bone ♪ 01:02:27.133 --> 01:02:29.733 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% ♪ And whenever she goes flying ♪ 01:02:31.566 --> 01:02:35.166 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ I keep my feet right on the ground ♪ 01:02:36.766 --> 01:02:44.766 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Oh, now I need a lift, and there's no one around ♪ 01:02:49.233 --> 01:02:52.033 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% ♪ Hey ♪ 01:02:52.033 --> 01:02:57.433 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -♪ Hey, oh ♪ 01:02:57.433 --> 01:03:02.933 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ Oh, ooh ♪ -♪ Oh, ooh ♪ 01:03:02.933 --> 01:03:06.733 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -♪ You know ♪ 01:03:06.733 --> 01:03:11.966 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% ♪ And I've never had to face the world without her at my side ♪ 01:03:11.966 --> 01:03:14.400 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% ♪ Now I'm strolling right beside her 01:03:14.400 --> 01:03:17.066 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% as the black hole opens wide ♪ 01:03:17.066 --> 01:03:21.800 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ Mine is just a slower suicide ♪ 01:03:21.800 --> 01:03:27.233 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:03:27.233 --> 01:03:31.666 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ I've been here for the show ♪ 01:03:31.666 --> 01:03:35.900 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ Every high, every low ♪ 01:03:35.900 --> 01:03:39.033 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ But it's the worst we've ever known ♪ 01:03:40.800 --> 01:03:44.266 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ She's been hurt, and how ♪ 01:03:44.266 --> 01:03:52.633 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ But I can't give up now ♪ 01:03:52.633 --> 01:03:54.800 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% ♪ 'Cause I've never been alone ♪ 01:03:54.800 --> 01:03:59.100 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:03:59.100 --> 01:04:01.533 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ I could never be alone ♪ 01:04:01.533 --> 01:04:10.833 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:04:10.833 --> 01:04:12.400 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -Why didn't you take me with you? 01:04:12.400 --> 01:04:13.433 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -Don't see a lot of you these days. 01:04:13.433 --> 01:04:16.266 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% This Henry a good influence? 01:04:16.266 --> 01:04:19.066 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -Like, compared to what? 01:04:22.066 --> 01:04:24.333 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -Okay, that's fair. 01:04:24.333 --> 01:04:25.566 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:04:25.566 --> 01:04:27.366 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% The aftereffects are minimal. 01:04:27.366 --> 01:04:29.100 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% You'll feel like you have a bit of a hangover. 01:04:29.100 --> 01:04:32.700 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -Mom? Mom! Please don't let them do this. 01:04:32.700 --> 01:04:34.466 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% It causes brain damage. 01:04:34.466 --> 01:04:37.366 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -Your mother's in for a new treatment, ECT. 01:04:37.366 --> 01:04:40.200 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Okay. L-M-N-O-P. What is that? 01:04:40.200 --> 01:04:42.933 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -Electroconvulsive therapy. Shock therapy. 01:04:42.933 --> 01:04:46.433 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -A minority of patients have reported some memory loss, 01:04:46.433 --> 01:04:48.166 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% but it's usually not much memory. 01:04:48.166 --> 01:04:52.300 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% -How do you know how much memory you've lost if you've lost it? 01:04:52.300 --> 01:04:54.700 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -You're kidding, right? 01:04:54.700 --> 01:04:57.266 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% Dad, that's bull! -Language! 01:04:57.266 --> 01:05:00.166 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -Patients have said it's like becoming a new person. 01:05:00.166 --> 01:05:03.366 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -It's bull! She trusts you! -Oh, Natalie! 01:05:03.366 --> 01:05:08.200 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ Didn't I see this movie with McMurphy and the nurse? ♪ 01:05:08.200 --> 01:05:14.266 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ That hospital was heavy, but this cuckoo's nest is worse ♪ 01:05:14.266 --> 01:05:19.533 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ Isn't this the one where, in the end, the good guys fry? 01:05:19.533 --> 01:05:24.333 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Didn't I see this movie and didn't I cry? ♪ 01:05:24.333 --> 01:05:26.733 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ Didn't I cry? ♪ 01:05:26.733 --> 01:05:29.500 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -The modern procedure is clean and simple. 01:05:29.500 --> 01:05:32.866 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% Hundreds of thousands of patients receive it every year. 01:05:32.866 --> 01:05:37.966 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ What makes you think I'd lose my mind for you? ♪ 01:05:37.966 --> 01:05:43.666 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ I'm no sociopath, I'm no Sylvia Plath ♪ 01:05:43.666 --> 01:05:48.866 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ I ain't no Frances Farmer kind of find for you ♪ 01:05:48.866 --> 01:05:51.866 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ So stay out of my brain ♪ 01:05:51.866 --> 01:05:55.100 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ I'm no princess of pain ♪ 01:05:55.100 --> 01:05:59.200 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ Didn't I see this movie with a doctor dressed like you? ♪ 01:05:59.200 --> 01:06:03.366 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ Where the patient got impatient and said, 01:06:03.366 --> 01:06:05.966 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% "Sorry, Doc, I'm through"? ♪ 01:06:05.966 --> 01:06:11.300 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ I know where this is going and I know what you're about ♪ 01:06:11.300 --> 01:06:15.933 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ 'Cause I have seen this movie and I walked out ♪ 01:06:15.933 --> 01:06:19.066 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ I walked out ♪ 01:06:19.066 --> 01:06:24.466 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ I'm walking ♪ 01:06:24.466 --> 01:06:30.533 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:06:30.533 --> 01:06:36.600 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:06:36.600 --> 01:06:42.300 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ One light shines in the drive ♪ 01:06:42.300 --> 01:06:47.533 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ One single sign that our house is alive ♪ 01:06:47.533 --> 01:06:50.333 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ Our house ♪ 01:06:50.333 --> 01:06:53.033 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% ♪ Our own ♪ 01:06:53.033 --> 01:06:56.866 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ So why do I live there alone? ♪ 01:06:58.200 --> 01:07:03.333 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Tell me why I wait through the night ♪ 01:07:03.333 --> 01:07:08.500 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ And why do I leave on the light? ♪ 01:07:08.500 --> 01:07:11.800 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ You know ♪ 01:07:11.800 --> 01:07:14.400 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% ♪ I know ♪ 01:07:14.400 --> 01:07:19.333 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% ♪ Our house was a home long ago ♪ 01:07:21.766 --> 01:07:24.700 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ Take this chance ♪ 01:07:24.700 --> 01:07:29.233 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ 'Cause it may be our last to be free ♪ 01:07:29.233 --> 01:07:31.966 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ To let go of the past ♪ 01:07:31.966 --> 01:07:36.366 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ And to try to be husband and wife ♪ 01:07:36.366 --> 01:07:39.000 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ To let love never die ♪ 01:07:39.000 --> 01:07:40.800 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Or to just live our life ♪ 01:07:40.800 --> 01:07:43.566 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ Take my hand ♪ 01:07:43.566 --> 01:07:45.966 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ And let me take your heart ♪ 01:07:45.966 --> 01:07:50.533 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ Keep it far from what keeps us apart ♪ 01:07:50.533 --> 01:07:52.466 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ Let us start ♪ 01:07:54.233 --> 01:07:59.833 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ With a light in the dark ♪ 01:07:59.833 --> 01:08:03.366 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ Night falls, I stare at the walls ♪ 01:08:03.366 --> 01:08:04.700 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ I stare at these walls ♪ 01:08:04.700 --> 01:08:07.633 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% -♪ I wake and wander the halls ♪ 01:08:07.633 --> 01:08:09.100 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ I get lost in these halls ♪ 01:08:09.100 --> 01:08:11.233 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ And I ache to the bone ♪ 01:08:11.233 --> 01:08:13.966 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ It's like nothing I've known ♪ 01:08:13.966 --> 01:08:19.600 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ I can't get through this alone ♪ 01:08:23.633 --> 01:08:26.800 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% - ♪ Take this chance ♪ 01:08:26.800 --> 01:08:29.500 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ And we'll make a new start ♪ 01:08:29.500 --> 01:08:34.466 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ Somewhere far from what keeps us apart ♪ 01:08:34.466 --> 01:08:38.600 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ And I swear that somewhere in the night ♪ 01:08:38.600 --> 01:08:44.200 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ There's a light ♪ 01:08:58.133 --> 01:09:03.200 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ A light in the dark ♪ 01:09:03.200 --> 01:09:10.666 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:09:10.666 --> 01:09:18.133 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:09:18.133 --> 01:09:20.133 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% [ Cheers and applause ] 01:09:26.466 --> 01:09:34.433 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:09:34.433 --> 01:09:42.433 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:09:42.433 --> 01:09:50.400 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:09:50.400 --> 01:09:58.366 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:09:58.366 --> 01:10:00.600 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -Come on, this is my favorite club. Let's go. 01:10:00.600 --> 01:10:03.700 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% -Isn't three clubs a little much for a Tuesday night? 01:10:03.700 --> 01:10:05.400 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% Wednesday morning. 01:10:05.400 --> 01:10:06.700 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -Come on, they're playing my favorite song. 01:10:06.700 --> 01:10:08.866 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% -They're all your favorite song. What are you on? 01:10:08.866 --> 01:10:13.200 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -Uh, Adderall. And Xanax. And Valium. 01:10:13.200 --> 01:10:14.766 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% And Robitussin. 01:10:14.766 --> 01:10:16.400 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -Since when did you become a bad influence on me? 01:10:16.400 --> 01:10:18.733 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -Hey, I'm under stress. 01:10:18.733 --> 01:10:20.666 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% My mom's in a hospital, being electrocuted. 01:10:20.666 --> 01:10:22.866 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -Good morning, Diana. It's good to see you again. 01:10:22.866 --> 01:10:24.633 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -Seriously, she gets it like 01:10:24.633 --> 01:10:27.133 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% every other day for the next three weeks. 01:10:27.133 --> 01:10:28.666 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% I can't even deal. 01:10:28.666 --> 01:10:31.166 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% I'd never let them mess with my brain like that. 01:10:31.166 --> 01:10:33.300 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% No, you're strictly a do-it-yourselfer. 01:10:33.300 --> 01:10:35.500 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -I see you've met our anesthesiologist. 01:10:35.500 --> 01:10:37.966 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% Now, just relax, breathe normally, 01:10:37.966 --> 01:10:40.666 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% count backwards from 100, and before you reach zero, 01:10:40.666 --> 01:10:42.433 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% you should be asleep. 01:10:42.433 --> 01:10:44.700 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% When you wake up, you may feel some muscle stiffness, 01:10:44.700 --> 01:10:46.100 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% disorientation. 01:10:46.100 --> 01:10:47.633 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% Don't worry. It's completely normal. 01:10:48.633 --> 01:10:50.200 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% Diana? 01:10:50.200 --> 01:10:53.933 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% Diana? Ah, good. 01:10:53.933 --> 01:10:58.800 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:10:58.800 --> 01:11:01.466 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -♪ In an instant, lightning flashes ♪ 01:11:01.466 --> 01:11:04.066 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ And the burst might leave me blind ♪ 01:11:06.233 --> 01:11:08.833 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ When the bolt of lightning crashes ♪ 01:11:08.833 --> 01:11:13.533 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ And it burns right through my mind ♪ 01:11:13.533 --> 01:11:16.200 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ It's like someone drained my brain out ♪ 01:11:16.200 --> 01:11:19.066 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ Set my frozen mind to thaw ♪ 01:11:21.233 --> 01:11:23.733 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ Let the lethargy and pain out ♪ 01:11:23.733 --> 01:11:28.400 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ While I stood and watched in awe ♪ 01:11:28.400 --> 01:11:32.633 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ I am riding on the brightest buzz ♪ 01:11:32.633 --> 01:11:36.233 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ I am worlds away from who I was ♪ 01:11:36.233 --> 01:11:38.800 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ And they told me it would change me ♪ 01:11:38.800 --> 01:11:40.533 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Though they don't know how it does ♪ 01:11:40.533 --> 01:11:43.600 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ Though they don't know how it does ♪ 01:11:43.600 --> 01:11:46.800 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% -♪ I have lived a life of clouds and gray, 01:11:46.800 --> 01:11:48.333 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% but this is crystal-clear ♪ 01:11:48.333 --> 01:11:50.900 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Wish I were here ♪ -♪ Wish I were here ♪ 01:11:50.900 --> 01:11:55.433 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -♪ I imagine it's remarkable, exuberant, austere ♪ 01:11:55.433 --> 01:11:57.000 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ Wish I were here ♪ 01:11:57.000 --> 01:11:59.333 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Wish I were here ♪ -♪ Wish I were here ♪ 01:11:59.333 --> 01:12:01.300 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -♪ Wish I were here ♪ 01:12:01.300 --> 01:12:03.766 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ It's euphoria, it's anger ♪ 01:12:03.766 --> 01:12:05.566 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ It's the winter wind, it's fire ♪ 01:12:05.566 --> 01:12:08.766 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ It's the winter wind, it's fire ♪ 01:12:08.766 --> 01:12:11.133 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ And it kills my deepest hunger 01:12:11.133 --> 01:12:15.900 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% as it fills me with desire ♪ 01:12:15.900 --> 01:12:18.433 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ I'm the light and heat of every sun ♪ 01:12:18.433 --> 01:12:20.000 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ I'm the light and heat of every sun ♪ 01:12:20.000 --> 01:12:21.833 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ I'm a bullet from a magic gun ♪ 01:12:21.833 --> 01:12:24.000 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ I'm a bullet from a magic gun ♪ 01:12:24.000 --> 01:12:26.300 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ And I'm trying to enjoy it ♪ 01:12:26.300 --> 01:12:31.166 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% -♪ But I'm missing all the fun ♪ -♪ I am missing all the fun ♪ 01:12:31.166 --> 01:12:33.866 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Am I feeling what I think I'm feeling? ♪ 01:12:33.866 --> 01:12:35.766 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% ♪ The hope, the heat, the fear ♪ 01:12:35.766 --> 01:12:38.566 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Wish I were here ♪ -♪ Wish I were here ♪ 01:12:38.566 --> 01:12:41.533 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ Is this someone else's head trip? ♪ 01:12:41.533 --> 01:12:43.500 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Do I just disappear? ♪ 01:12:43.500 --> 01:12:45.900 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Wish I were here ♪ -♪ Wish I were here ♪ 01:12:45.900 --> 01:12:48.966 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Wish I were here ♪ -♪ Wish I were ♪ 01:12:48.966 --> 01:12:51.100 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% ♪ Here ♪ -Natalie. 01:12:51.100 --> 01:12:53.800 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% What are you doing in my electricity? 01:12:53.800 --> 01:12:56.400 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -It's always all about you, isn't it? 01:12:56.400 --> 01:12:59.300 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% I'm robo-trippin'. I can't feel my legs. 01:12:59.300 --> 01:13:01.600 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -I don't want you doing drugs. 01:13:01.600 --> 01:13:06.000 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% -Well, that's persuasive, coming from Pfizer's Woman of the Year. 01:13:06.000 --> 01:13:07.833 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% You're the one who's hallucinating. 01:13:07.833 --> 01:13:10.400 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -It's my treatment. 01:13:10.400 --> 01:13:13.133 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% It's a miracle. 01:13:13.133 --> 01:13:15.100 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% Everything is different now. 01:13:15.100 --> 01:13:16.766 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -I know what you mean. 01:13:18.233 --> 01:13:22.300 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ Plug me in and turn me on ♪ 01:13:22.300 --> 01:13:26.866 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ And flip the switch, I'm good as gone ♪ 01:13:26.866 --> 01:13:31.333 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ It slips my skin and trips my brain ♪ 01:13:31.333 --> 01:13:38.033 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ I feel the burn, but I don't feel the pain ♪ 01:13:38.033 --> 01:13:40.866 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Is my brain reborn or is it wrecked? ♪ 01:13:40.866 --> 01:13:42.866 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ In freedom or in fear? ♪ 01:13:42.866 --> 01:13:45.433 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Wish I were here ♪ -♪ Wish I were here ♪ 01:13:45.433 --> 01:13:48.366 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ Have I blown my mind forever? ♪ 01:13:48.366 --> 01:13:50.133 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ Is cloudy my new clear? 01:13:50.133 --> 01:13:52.833 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Wish I were here ♪ -♪ Wish I were here ♪ 01:13:52.833 --> 01:13:57.233 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Wish I were here ♪ -♪ Wish I were ♪ 01:13:57.233 --> 01:13:59.866 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -Natalie! Natalie, come on! 01:14:02.200 --> 01:14:04.033 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% This is the fifth night in a row 01:14:04.033 --> 01:14:06.133 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% I've had to come and find you at some random club. 01:14:06.133 --> 01:14:08.766 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Diana? 01:14:08.766 --> 01:14:10.566 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Dan. 01:14:10.566 --> 01:14:14.633 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -Three weeks are up. It's time to go home. 01:14:14.633 --> 01:14:16.700 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -Home? But, I -- -No, don't -- don't talk. 01:14:16.700 --> 01:14:18.700 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% Just relax. 01:14:21.866 --> 01:14:24.733 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -Okay, you can go. 01:14:24.733 --> 01:14:27.333 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% I'm like 70% less messed up now. 01:14:28.400 --> 01:14:31.166 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% Seriously, my dad's gonna be home any minute. 01:14:31.166 --> 01:14:32.800 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% He's bringing my mom back from the hospital. 01:14:32.800 --> 01:14:34.133 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% You don't wanna be here. 01:14:34.133 --> 01:14:36.500 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -Will you call me? -Just go! 01:14:42.433 --> 01:14:46.766 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% ♪ Can I hide my stupid hunger? ♪ 01:14:46.766 --> 01:14:51.166 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ Fake some confidence and cheer? ♪ 01:14:51.166 --> 01:14:55.600 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ Wish I were here ♪ 01:14:57.433 --> 01:15:04.000 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ Wish I were here ♪ 01:15:04.000 --> 01:15:08.733 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:15:08.733 --> 01:15:10.766 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -We're here. -Hey. 01:15:12.200 --> 01:15:14.766 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% Wow! You look great. 01:15:14.766 --> 01:15:17.466 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -Oh, well, thank you. 01:15:19.033 --> 01:15:20.066 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% And who are you? 01:15:22.133 --> 01:15:25.233 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -Who am I? -Diana, this is Natalie. 01:15:27.466 --> 01:15:28.733 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -Your daughter. 01:15:29.800 --> 01:15:33.100 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -Oh. Of course. 01:15:34.766 --> 01:15:37.133 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% And this is our house? 01:15:38.300 --> 01:15:40.100 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -Diana, don't you... 01:15:40.100 --> 01:15:42.700 align:left position:47.5% line:89% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:15:42.700 --> 01:15:46.933 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% Um, you don't remember any of this? 01:15:46.933 --> 01:15:48.933 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -I should, right? 01:15:48.933 --> 01:15:52.533 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ This house and all these rooms ♪ 01:15:52.533 --> 01:15:56.966 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ Last Christmas or last year ♪ 01:15:56.966 --> 01:16:01.000 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% ♪ Out back, the dogwood blooms ♪ 01:16:01.000 --> 01:16:05.166 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ Do I really live here? ♪ 01:16:05.166 --> 01:16:07.833 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -♪ The paint, the walls ♪ 01:16:07.833 --> 01:16:10.833 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ All this glass and wood ♪ 01:16:10.833 --> 01:16:13.466 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ You don't recall? ♪ 01:16:13.466 --> 01:16:16.000 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ How I wish I could ♪ 01:16:16.000 --> 01:16:20.033 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ Our house on Walton Way ♪ 01:16:20.033 --> 01:16:23.700 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ The house with the red door? 01:16:25.033 --> 01:16:28.566 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ Our trip to St. Tropez ♪ 01:16:28.566 --> 01:16:32.366 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ The whole week a downpour? ♪ 01:16:32.366 --> 01:16:35.100 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ My first few steps ♪ 01:16:35.100 --> 01:16:37.866 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ And my first lost tooth ♪ 01:16:37.866 --> 01:16:40.633 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ What, nothing yet? ♪ 01:16:40.633 --> 01:16:43.100 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ To tell the truth ♪ 01:16:43.100 --> 01:16:48.633 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ Sing a song of forgetting ♪ 01:16:48.633 --> 01:16:53.066 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ A song of the way things were not ♪ 01:16:53.066 --> 01:16:56.633 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ Sing of what's lost to you ♪ 01:16:58.333 --> 01:17:04.866 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% ♪ Of times that you never knew ♪ 01:17:04.866 --> 01:17:09.866 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ Sing of not remembering when ♪ 01:17:09.866 --> 01:17:15.366 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Of memories that go unremembered, and then ♪ 01:17:15.366 --> 01:17:23.833 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ Sing a song of forgetting again ♪ 01:17:23.833 --> 01:17:27.000 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ That day our child was born ♪ 01:17:27.000 --> 01:17:30.866 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Our baby girl's first cry ♪ 01:17:31.833 --> 01:17:35.233 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ That gray and drizzly morn ♪ 01:17:35.233 --> 01:17:39.000 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ I've never felt so high ♪ 01:17:39.000 --> 01:17:41.433 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -♪ The day we met ♪ 01:17:41.433 --> 01:17:43.933 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ And we shared two beers ♪ 01:17:43.933 --> 01:17:45.633 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -♪ Then? ♪ 01:17:45.633 --> 01:17:50.500 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ I forget ♪ -♪ That's nineteen years ♪ 01:17:50.500 --> 01:17:55.600 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -Well, Dr. Mitchell did say there may be some memory loss. 01:17:55.600 --> 01:17:57.733 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -It's Dr. Madden. 01:17:57.733 --> 01:17:59.300 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -Well, see? There you go. 01:18:00.700 --> 01:18:02.666 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ What a lovely cure ♪ 01:18:02.666 --> 01:18:05.200 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ It's a medical miracle ♪ 01:18:05.200 --> 01:18:07.933 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ With a mind so pure ♪ 01:18:07.933 --> 01:18:10.200 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ That she doesn't know anything ♪ 01:18:10.200 --> 01:18:12.366 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -♪ It's there, I'm sure ♪ 01:18:12.366 --> 01:18:15.200 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ 'Cause memories don't die ♪ 01:18:15.200 --> 01:18:18.533 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -♪ Why? ♪ 01:18:18.533 --> 01:18:20.466 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ They don't die ♪ -♪ They die ♪ 01:18:20.466 --> 01:18:23.866 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -♪ I'll try ♪ 01:18:24.766 --> 01:18:29.700 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ Sing a song of forgetting ♪ 01:18:29.700 --> 01:18:34.000 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ A song of the way things were not ♪ 01:18:34.000 --> 01:18:37.166 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -♪ Sing of what's lost to you ♪ -♪ What's lost to you ♪ 01:18:37.166 --> 01:18:38.900 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ What's lost to you ♪ 01:18:38.900 --> 01:18:40.300 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -♪ Of times that you never knew ♪ 01:18:40.300 --> 01:18:42.833 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ What's lost to you ♪ 01:18:42.833 --> 01:18:45.866 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ You never knew ♪ 01:18:45.866 --> 01:18:50.700 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ Sing of not remembering when ♪ 01:18:50.700 --> 01:18:56.800 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Of memories that go unremembered, and then ♪ 01:18:56.800 --> 01:19:02.700 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -♪ Sing a song of forgetting ♪ -♪ Sing a song of forgetting ♪ 01:19:02.700 --> 01:19:08.733 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ Sing a song of forgetting ♪ 01:19:08.733 --> 01:19:13.400 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -♪ Again ♪ 01:19:13.400 --> 01:19:17.433 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% [ Bell rings ] 01:19:17.433 --> 01:19:21.100 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:19:21.100 --> 01:19:24.733 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -♪ Hey ♪ -♪ Hey ♪ 01:19:24.733 --> 01:19:27.266 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ I've missed you these days ♪ 01:19:29.100 --> 01:19:32.766 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ I thought you might call ♪ 01:19:32.766 --> 01:19:34.366 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ It's been weeks ♪ 01:19:34.366 --> 01:19:38.533 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -♪ I've been crazed ♪ 01:19:38.533 --> 01:19:40.200 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% ♪ Hey ♪ 01:19:40.200 --> 01:19:44.266 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ Have you been on the scene? ♪ 01:19:44.266 --> 01:19:47.600 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ 'Cause you look like a mess ♪ 01:19:47.600 --> 01:19:49.266 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -♪ Thanks, I guess ♪ 01:19:49.266 --> 01:19:51.733 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -♪ Are you clean? ♪ 01:19:51.733 --> 01:19:53.566 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ Wow! Coming from you! ♪ 01:19:53.566 --> 01:19:55.533 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ I don't do what you do ♪ 01:19:55.533 --> 01:19:57.466 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ Okay, how did it start? ♪ 01:19:57.466 --> 01:19:59.266 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ But you took it too far ♪ 01:19:59.266 --> 01:20:02.100 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ Oh, I took it too far? ♪ -♪ Hey, hey ♪ 01:20:02.100 --> 01:20:03.633 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -♪ Henry, don't, don't do this to me ♪ 01:20:03.633 --> 01:20:08.433 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ Are we over? ♪ Don't say that we're over ♪ 01:20:08.433 --> 01:20:09.733 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ Don't you want us to be? ♪ 01:20:09.733 --> 01:20:13.433 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ No, I want who I knew ♪ 01:20:13.433 --> 01:20:18.166 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ She's somewhere in you ♪ 01:20:20.300 --> 01:20:24.066 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% ♪ Hey ♪ ♪ Say ♪ 01:20:24.066 --> 01:20:27.400 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ Will you come to this dance? ♪ 01:20:27.400 --> 01:20:31.000 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ It's some spring formal dance ♪ 01:20:31.000 --> 01:20:35.266 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ It's May 1st, and it's cheese ♪ 01:20:35.266 --> 01:20:38.766 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ But it's fun and it's free ♪ 01:20:38.766 --> 01:20:41.300 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ I don't do dances ♪ 01:20:41.300 --> 01:20:47.266 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ Do this dance with me ♪ 01:20:47.266 --> 01:20:54.300 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -♪ Goodbye, Henry ♪ 01:20:54.300 --> 01:20:57.133 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -Natalie... Natalie, wait up. Hey... 01:20:57.133 --> 01:21:00.400 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -This much loss is rare, but it has been reported. 01:21:00.400 --> 01:21:02.200 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% It may be partly psychogenic. 01:21:02.200 --> 01:21:04.033 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% At times like this, the mind tends to 01:21:04.033 --> 01:21:05.033 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% repress troubling memories. 01:21:05.033 --> 01:21:06.766 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% But they're still there, somewhere. 01:21:06.766 --> 01:21:08.500 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% They tend to return in fits and starts. 01:21:08.500 --> 01:21:10.200 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% It's been two weeks. 01:21:10.200 --> 01:21:13.100 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ A little loss of memory is normal ♪ 01:21:13.100 --> 01:21:15.600 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ And helpful in forgetting all her fears ♪ 01:21:15.600 --> 01:21:19.666 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ I couldn't give a flying fig what's normal ♪ 01:21:19.666 --> 01:21:22.166 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ We haven't had a "normal" day in years ♪ 01:21:22.166 --> 01:21:25.666 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -♪ Diana, are things becoming clearer with the treatment? ♪ 01:21:25.666 --> 01:21:27.100 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Yes. 01:21:27.100 --> 01:21:28.633 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ Is life less cloudy than it was before? ♪ 01:21:28.633 --> 01:21:30.166 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -Well, yes. 01:21:30.166 --> 01:21:32.266 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Do you still feel your head is filled with concrete? ♪ 01:21:32.266 --> 01:21:33.800 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -No. 01:21:35.533 --> 01:21:38.833 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ And you're not a scary rock star anymore ♪ 01:21:40.200 --> 01:21:43.266 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% Okay, great. [ Laughs ] 01:21:43.266 --> 01:21:45.633 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -What about her memory? 01:21:45.633 --> 01:21:48.900 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ The memories are there, somewhere ♪ 01:21:48.900 --> 01:21:51.800 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Find some pictures you can share ♪ 01:21:51.800 --> 01:21:57.666 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ Keepsakes of the life that's there behind her ♪ 01:21:57.666 --> 01:22:00.666 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% -Do I bring up the subject of -- -Yes. 01:22:00.666 --> 01:22:03.666 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ But keep it light at first, that's best ♪ 01:22:03.666 --> 01:22:06.533 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% ♪ Careful that she's not distressed ♪ 01:22:06.533 --> 01:22:09.166 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ When the time is right, tell the rest ♪ 01:22:09.166 --> 01:22:12.533 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ Remind her ♪ 01:22:12.533 --> 01:22:16.100 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ You'll find her ♪ 01:22:16.100 --> 01:22:20.666 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:22:20.666 --> 01:22:23.200 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ So, let's start with something small ♪ 01:22:23.200 --> 01:22:26.666 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Something personal and pretty ♪ 01:22:26.666 --> 01:22:29.633 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ I bet you'll know these shiny things ♪ 01:22:30.466 --> 01:22:33.300 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -Um...they must be tacky trinkets 01:22:33.300 --> 01:22:35.333 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% from, I guess, Atlantic City? 01:22:35.333 --> 01:22:40.000 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ No. Actually, Di, they're our wedding rings ♪ 01:22:40.000 --> 01:22:41.500 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -It's going well. 01:22:41.500 --> 01:22:43.900 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ Here's a flower from our wedding ♪ 01:22:43.900 --> 01:22:46.866 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ It was such a sight to see ♪ 01:22:46.866 --> 01:22:50.100 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ With the ceremony everything we'd hoped ♪ 01:22:50.100 --> 01:22:51.433 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Uh, Dad? 01:22:51.433 --> 01:22:54.100 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ Well, that's how I remember it ♪ 01:22:54.100 --> 01:22:56.266 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ So, that's how it'll be ♪ 01:22:56.266 --> 01:23:00.666 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ It was raining, it was Portland, you eloped ♪ 01:23:00.666 --> 01:23:02.766 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% I mean, Portland? 01:23:02.766 --> 01:23:05.666 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ It's an open book to write here ♪ 01:23:05.666 --> 01:23:08.100 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ It's a life we can restore ♪ 01:23:08.100 --> 01:23:13.500 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ We can get back what we had and maybe more ♪ 01:23:13.500 --> 01:23:17.366 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ Maybe get us back to better than before ♪ 01:23:19.333 --> 01:23:23.366 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -Uh, you're missing a few pictures here, Dad. 01:23:23.366 --> 01:23:24.833 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% Didn't the doctor say -- 01:23:24.833 --> 01:23:25.933 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -The doctor said at the right time. 01:23:25.933 --> 01:23:27.666 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% -Oh. Well, then... 01:23:27.666 --> 01:23:30.600 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ Here's the year we drove the West ♪ 01:23:30.600 --> 01:23:33.966 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ We hit the highway in the Honda ♪ 01:23:33.966 --> 01:23:37.233 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ And I took pictures everywhere we went ♪ 01:23:38.666 --> 01:23:42.133 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ We saw the Painted Desert, the Grand Canyon, 01:23:42.133 --> 01:23:43.800 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% and Aunt Rhonda ♪ 01:23:43.800 --> 01:23:47.200 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% ♪ And Nat learned what her middle finger meant ♪ 01:23:48.333 --> 01:23:50.666 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Here's the first house that we owned ♪ 01:23:50.666 --> 01:23:53.566 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ On Walton Way, we loved that place ♪ 01:23:53.566 --> 01:23:57.233 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% ♪ Then we built this one on land that we both chose ♪ 01:23:58.633 --> 01:24:04.033 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ And here's a pic of all of us with smiles on every face ♪ 01:24:04.033 --> 01:24:07.866 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ And the photoshopping hardly even shows ♪ 01:24:09.400 --> 01:24:14.666 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -♪ We're standing by a lake, with all these ducks ♪ 01:24:14.666 --> 01:24:17.500 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% ♪ And who's this little, chubby girl? ♪ 01:24:17.500 --> 01:24:19.633 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ That's Natalie ♪ -♪ This stinks ♪ 01:24:19.633 --> 01:24:22.233 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% Hey, Nat! Nat! 01:24:22.233 --> 01:24:24.700 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ Gonna get us back to normal ♪ 01:24:24.700 --> 01:24:27.200 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Gonna get us back to good ♪ 01:24:27.200 --> 01:24:30.800 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ Gonna get back what we had and maybe more ♪ 01:24:32.533 --> 01:24:35.000 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ We'll remember all the good times 01:24:35.000 --> 01:24:37.533 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% and forget the things we should 01:24:37.533 --> 01:24:41.033 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ Gonna get us back to better than before ♪ 01:24:42.500 --> 01:24:46.133 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ We can get things back to better than before ♪ 01:24:46.133 --> 01:24:48.233 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Alright. 01:24:48.233 --> 01:24:49.800 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% Fine. 01:24:51.066 --> 01:24:54.066 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Here's the headline in the paper ♪ 01:24:54.066 --> 01:24:56.833 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ When you freaked out at the market ♪ 01:24:56.833 --> 01:25:00.566 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% ♪ Here's the house on Walton Way after the fire ♪ 01:25:00.566 --> 01:25:01.866 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Natalie! 01:25:01.866 --> 01:25:04.333 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Here's the damage to the Honda ♪ 01:25:04.333 --> 01:25:07.133 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ When you showed me how to park it ♪ 01:25:07.133 --> 01:25:11.333 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ Did we crush somebody's cat beneath the tire? ♪ 01:25:11.333 --> 01:25:14.833 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -Yes. Ours. 01:25:16.133 --> 01:25:18.766 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Here's Dad at my recital ♪ 01:25:18.766 --> 01:25:21.866 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ And we're wondering where you are ♪ 01:25:21.866 --> 01:25:25.600 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ I remember this, I made it to the school ♪ 01:25:25.600 --> 01:25:27.533 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -Wait, you remember? 01:25:27.533 --> 01:25:29.700 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ It was the year of too much lithium ♪ 01:25:29.700 --> 01:25:32.033 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ I hid out in the car ♪ -Yes. 01:25:32.033 --> 01:25:34.700 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ And your swim meet just last year ♪ 01:25:34.700 --> 01:25:37.900 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ I'm in the pool ♪ -So you are. 01:25:37.900 --> 01:25:39.600 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ You're getting it! ♪ 01:25:39.600 --> 01:25:43.033 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ You've got it, Di, hooray! ♪ 01:25:43.033 --> 01:25:45.966 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -♪ Your life has kind of stunk, I think ♪ 01:25:45.966 --> 01:25:47.966 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -♪ You've got it, yay, hooray ♪ 01:25:47.966 --> 01:25:50.966 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ Hooray! ♪ -♪ Hooray! ♪ 01:25:50.966 --> 01:25:53.233 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -♪ Gonna get back what I lost there ♪ 01:25:53.233 --> 01:25:55.833 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Gonna find out who I was ♪ 01:25:55.833 --> 01:26:00.833 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Gonna open up the gates and let it pour ♪ 01:26:00.833 --> 01:26:03.433 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ And if memory makes things better, 01:26:03.433 --> 01:26:05.766 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% well, memory always does ♪ 01:26:05.766 --> 01:26:10.866 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ Gonna get us back to better than before ♪ 01:26:10.866 --> 01:26:13.500 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ Make everything much better than before ♪ 01:26:13.500 --> 01:26:15.200 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -♪ Won't anything be better than before? ♪ 01:26:15.200 --> 01:26:16.533 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ Better than before ♪ 01:26:16.533 --> 01:26:17.700 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -♪ I guess it must be better than before ♪ 01:26:17.700 --> 01:26:20.833 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ Better than before ♪ 01:26:20.833 --> 01:26:28.400 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ Better than before ♪ 01:26:28.400 --> 01:26:32.600 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:26:32.600 --> 01:26:34.600 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ They've managed to get rid of me, 01:26:34.600 --> 01:26:36.700 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% return me to the grave ♪ 01:26:36.700 --> 01:26:40.866 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ ECT, electric chair, we shock who we can't save ♪ 01:26:40.866 --> 01:26:43.066 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ They've cleared you of my memory, 01:26:43.066 --> 01:26:44.966 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% and many more, as well ♪ 01:26:44.966 --> 01:26:48.933 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ You may have wanted some of them, but who can ever tell? ♪ 01:26:48.933 --> 01:26:51.333 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ Your brainwaves are more regular, 01:26:51.333 --> 01:26:53.500 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% the chemistry more pure ♪ 01:26:53.500 --> 01:26:57.733 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ The headaches and the nausea will pass, and you'll endure ♪ 01:26:57.733 --> 01:27:00.566 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ Your son is gone forever, though, 01:27:00.566 --> 01:27:04.666 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% of that the doctor's sure ♪ 01:27:05.433 --> 01:27:11.000 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ The memories will wane ♪ 01:27:11.000 --> 01:27:16.466 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ The aftershocks remain ♪ 01:27:17.833 --> 01:27:21.000 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ You wonder which is worse ♪ 01:27:21.000 --> 01:27:28.900 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ The symptom or the cure ♪ 01:27:28.900 --> 01:27:33.000 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -Di, honey, you've been at this for days. 01:27:33.000 --> 01:27:37.033 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -Something is missing, Dan. It's like it's tugging at me. 01:27:37.033 --> 01:27:38.400 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% I can almost see it. -Come to bed. 01:27:38.400 --> 01:27:42.700 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% If -- If the memories are meant to come back, they will. 01:27:47.366 --> 01:27:50.166 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% -Oh. Hi, Ms. Goodman. 01:27:51.366 --> 01:27:55.666 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% I just needed to talk to Natalie about some homework. 01:27:55.666 --> 01:27:57.766 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% I know it's late. Um... 01:27:57.766 --> 01:27:59.600 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% She's not been answering her phone, and I thought -- 01:27:59.600 --> 01:28:01.066 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% Is everything okay? 01:28:01.066 --> 01:28:04.466 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Henry? -Yes. 01:28:05.766 --> 01:28:08.700 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -God, you remind me of someone. 01:28:08.700 --> 01:28:10.566 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% How old are you? 01:28:10.566 --> 01:28:12.666 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Uh, 17. 01:28:12.666 --> 01:28:14.566 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% Why? 01:28:14.566 --> 01:28:16.533 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -I don't know. 01:28:17.400 --> 01:28:19.833 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% Uh, Natalie's in her room. -Thank you. 01:28:19.833 --> 01:28:23.566 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:28:23.566 --> 01:28:25.866 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ They've managed to get rid of me, 01:28:25.866 --> 01:28:27.966 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% I'm gone without a trace ♪ 01:28:27.966 --> 01:28:30.100 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ But sear the soul and leave a scar 01:28:30.100 --> 01:28:32.100 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% no treatment can erase ♪ 01:28:32.100 --> 01:28:35.766 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ They cut away the cancer but forgot to fill the hole ♪ 01:28:35.766 --> 01:28:38.200 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ They moved me from your memory, 01:28:38.200 --> 01:28:40.333 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% I'm still there in your soul ♪ 01:28:40.333 --> 01:28:42.366 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ Your life goes back to normal now 01:28:42.366 --> 01:28:44.500 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% or so they all believe ♪ 01:28:44.500 --> 01:28:46.733 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ Your heart is in your chest again, 01:28:46.733 --> 01:28:48.800 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% not hanging from your sleeve ♪ 01:28:48.800 --> 01:28:51.233 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ They've driven out the demons 01:28:51.233 --> 01:28:56.400 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% and they've earned you this reprieve ♪ 01:28:56.400 --> 01:29:00.733 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ The memories are gone ♪ 01:29:03.200 --> 01:29:08.433 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ The aftershocks live on ♪ 01:29:10.433 --> 01:29:14.333 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% ♪ But with nothing to remember ♪ 01:29:14.333 --> 01:29:23.833 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ Is there nothing left to grieve? ♪ 01:29:23.833 --> 01:29:29.600 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ With nothing to remember ♪ 01:29:29.600 --> 01:29:32.033 align:left position:47.5% line:89% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:29:32.033 --> 01:29:35.466 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -♪ Hey ♪ -♪ Hey ♪ 01:29:35.466 --> 01:29:39.300 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ So, tomorrow's the dance ♪ 01:29:39.300 --> 01:29:42.666 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ It's annoying, I know ♪ 01:29:42.666 --> 01:29:44.966 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ But let's go ♪ 01:29:44.966 --> 01:29:46.433 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -♪ Not a chance ♪ 01:29:46.433 --> 01:29:48.666 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ Let me know you again ♪ 01:29:48.666 --> 01:29:50.900 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ Not right now ♪ -♪ Okay, when? ♪ 01:29:50.900 --> 01:29:54.233 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ Say "wait," and I'll wait ♪ -♪ It's already too late ♪ 01:29:54.233 --> 01:29:56.233 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -♪ There's no way it's too late ♪ 01:29:56.233 --> 01:29:57.833 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ There's no way ♪ -♪ Hey ♪ 01:29:57.833 --> 01:30:00.766 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ I stayed by your side ♪ -♪ Will you listen? ♪ 01:30:00.766 --> 01:30:05.200 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -♪ Just shut up and listen ♪ -♪ Why do I get denied? ♪ 01:30:05.200 --> 01:30:08.566 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -♪ You remind me of me ♪ 01:30:08.566 --> 01:30:13.666 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ And how messed up I can be ♪ 01:30:15.733 --> 01:30:17.566 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% ♪ Okay ♪ 01:30:17.566 --> 01:30:19.100 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% ♪ Hey ♪ 01:30:19.100 --> 01:30:22.800 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ Let's start over, clean slate ♪ 01:30:22.800 --> 01:30:25.500 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ I'll come by here at eight ♪ 01:30:26.666 --> 01:30:30.333 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ If you show, then we'll go ♪ 01:30:30.333 --> 01:30:33.933 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ And if you don't, well, we'll see ♪ 01:30:33.933 --> 01:30:36.600 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ You just don't give up ♪ 01:30:36.600 --> 01:30:43.166 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ So don't give up on me ♪ 01:30:44.633 --> 01:30:53.700 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -♪ Goodbye, Henry ♪ 01:30:53.700 --> 01:30:57.500 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:30:57.500 --> 01:30:59.900 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ It's been four weeks since the treatment, 01:30:59.900 --> 01:31:02.200 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% and my mind is still a mess ♪ 01:31:02.200 --> 01:31:04.333 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ And what's left to be remembered, 01:31:04.333 --> 01:31:06.733 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% well, it's anybody's guess ♪ 01:31:06.733 --> 01:31:09.066 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ 'Cause my past is like the weather ♪ 01:31:09.066 --> 01:31:11.200 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ It will come and it will go ♪ 01:31:11.200 --> 01:31:15.966 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ I don't know, even know, what it is that I don't know ♪ 01:31:15.966 --> 01:31:20.266 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% ♪ I'm some Christopher Columbus, sailing out into my mind ♪ 01:31:20.266 --> 01:31:24.800 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% ♪ With no map of where I'm going or of what I've left behind ♪ 01:31:24.800 --> 01:31:26.966 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ I don't know ♪ 01:31:26.966 --> 01:31:29.200 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ The things I don't know ♪ 01:31:29.200 --> 01:31:33.500 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ I'm sure something's missing, and I wish it would show ♪ 01:31:33.500 --> 01:31:36.300 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ I don't know ♪ 01:31:36.300 --> 01:31:39.433 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ You say take it slow, and I do ♪ 01:31:39.433 --> 01:31:47.566 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Although, how I do, I don't know ♪ 01:31:47.566 --> 01:31:49.733 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ Are you talking with your husband? ♪ 01:31:49.733 --> 01:31:51.933 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% -♪ Well, he hasn't much to say ♪ 01:31:51.933 --> 01:31:54.100 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% -♪ Is it helping you remember? ♪ 01:31:54.100 --> 01:31:56.433 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ I remember that's his way ♪ 01:31:56.433 --> 01:32:00.766 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% -♪ Does the puzzle come together piece by piece and row by row? ♪ 01:32:00.766 --> 01:32:05.433 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -♪ I don't know, I don't know where the stupid pieces go ♪ 01:32:05.433 --> 01:32:08.100 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ 'Cause I don't know how this started ♪ 01:32:08.100 --> 01:32:10.200 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ So I won't know when it's done ♪ 01:32:10.200 --> 01:32:12.266 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Have you talked of your depression, 01:32:12.266 --> 01:32:14.800 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% your delusions, and your son? ♪ 01:32:16.400 --> 01:32:17.600 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% My what? 01:32:20.066 --> 01:32:22.233 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -Your husband didn't... 01:32:22.233 --> 01:32:24.966 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% Mm! I think you two should talk more. 01:32:26.066 --> 01:32:28.800 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -We should talk more? That's it? 01:32:28.800 --> 01:32:31.166 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% I don't even remember marrying this man! 01:32:31.166 --> 01:32:33.166 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% It's not like I'm some sexually frustrated soccer mom. 01:32:33.166 --> 01:32:35.766 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -Interestingly, the underlying challenges are similar, 01:32:35.766 --> 01:32:38.266 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% but, uh... 01:32:38.266 --> 01:32:39.766 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% I'll see you next week. -But Doctor, I -- 01:32:39.766 --> 01:32:42.066 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -Next week. 01:32:43.533 --> 01:32:49.566 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:32:49.566 --> 01:32:55.600 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:32:55.600 --> 01:33:01.700 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:33:01.700 --> 01:33:07.733 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:33:07.733 --> 01:33:09.766 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -[ Sighs ] 01:33:09.766 --> 01:33:15.000 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:33:15.000 --> 01:33:20.233 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:33:20.233 --> 01:33:27.133 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:33:36.166 --> 01:33:44.400 align:left position:47.5% line:89% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:33:44.400 --> 01:33:46.400 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -[ Humming ] 01:33:46.400 --> 01:33:55.033 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:33:55.033 --> 01:34:03.733 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:34:03.733 --> 01:34:05.233 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -What are you doing? 01:34:06.866 --> 01:34:10.433 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -What is this? -Hey, where'd you get that? 01:34:10.433 --> 01:34:12.433 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% Um, it's, uh... 01:34:13.333 --> 01:34:14.933 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% It's nothing. It's, uh... 01:34:14.933 --> 01:34:16.800 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% It's just an old music box. 01:34:21.900 --> 01:34:24.333 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -We used to play it for the baby. 01:34:26.800 --> 01:34:29.366 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% Sometimes, it helped him sleep. 01:34:30.466 --> 01:34:32.733 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -Diana... -Him! 01:34:34.766 --> 01:34:37.400 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% We did have a boy. 01:34:37.400 --> 01:34:40.166 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -Diana, you shouldn't. 01:34:40.166 --> 01:34:44.066 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -♪ We were still living downtown ♪ 01:34:44.066 --> 01:34:45.633 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -It's not a good idea. 01:34:45.633 --> 01:34:50.900 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ My black coat thrown over my blue nightgown ♪ 01:34:50.900 --> 01:34:53.766 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ You drove too fast ♪ 01:34:53.766 --> 01:34:58.033 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ The lights of the city flew past ♪ 01:34:59.133 --> 01:35:01.200 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -Please don't. 01:35:01.200 --> 01:35:05.166 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ How could I ever forget? ♪ 01:35:05.166 --> 01:35:09.666 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ Outside, the morning was cool and wet ♪ 01:35:09.666 --> 01:35:12.033 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ He had such chills ♪ 01:35:12.033 --> 01:35:15.766 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ But still, he lay there so still ♪ 01:35:17.633 --> 01:35:20.633 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ And just eight months old ♪ 01:35:23.900 --> 01:35:27.300 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% ♪ So cold ♪ 01:35:30.433 --> 01:35:33.033 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ We ran him inside ♪ 01:35:34.566 --> 01:35:38.933 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Lost, worrying, wondering ♪ 01:35:40.600 --> 01:35:46.633 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ That hospital room ♪ 01:35:46.633 --> 01:35:52.866 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ That gloom ♪ 01:35:52.866 --> 01:35:55.466 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ How could I ever forget? ♪ 01:35:55.466 --> 01:35:57.400 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ How could I ever forget? ♪ 01:35:57.400 --> 01:35:58.800 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ Screaming at doctors, alarmed, upset ♪ 01:35:58.800 --> 01:36:01.833 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ God, I was so upset ♪ 01:36:01.833 --> 01:36:03.933 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ They said to wait ♪ -♪ Diana, don't ♪ 01:36:03.933 --> 01:36:05.366 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ They never said we were too late ♪ 01:36:05.366 --> 01:36:09.033 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -♪ You think this will help, but it won't ♪ 01:36:09.033 --> 01:36:13.600 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ But I was a child ♪ -♪ So many years ago ♪ 01:36:13.600 --> 01:36:17.466 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Raising a child ♪ -♪ So much we could not know ♪ 01:36:17.466 --> 01:36:20.566 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ Those weeks full of joy ♪ 01:36:20.566 --> 01:36:24.466 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ Then a moment of dread ♪ 01:36:26.033 --> 01:36:28.933 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ Someone simply said ♪ 01:36:31.200 --> 01:36:36.466 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ "Your child is..." ♪ 01:36:36.466 --> 01:36:41.366 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -♪ How could I ever forget? ♪ -♪ How could I ever forget? ♪ 01:36:41.366 --> 01:36:46.600 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ This was the moment my life was set ♪ 01:36:46.600 --> 01:36:50.633 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ The day that I lost you ♪ 01:36:52.200 --> 01:36:59.133 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% ♪ It's clear as the day we met ♪ 01:37:01.433 --> 01:37:08.033 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ How could I ever 01:37:08.033 --> 01:37:13.733 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% forget? ♪ 01:37:14.800 --> 01:37:18.100 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -Why would you want to remember the things that hurt you? 01:37:20.300 --> 01:37:23.266 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -I want to remember everything, Dan. 01:37:29.500 --> 01:37:31.200 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% How did he die? 01:37:33.300 --> 01:37:34.633 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -He was sick. 01:37:34.633 --> 01:37:37.233 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -With what? 01:37:37.233 --> 01:37:39.333 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% Why wasn't he treated? What was wrong? 01:37:41.400 --> 01:37:45.100 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ Something the doctors all missed ♪ 01:37:46.200 --> 01:37:50.800 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ The clinic, the E.R., each specialist ♪ 01:37:50.800 --> 01:37:53.700 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ They said, "Babies cry ♪ 01:37:53.700 --> 01:37:57.066 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ Allergies, gas, who knows why?" 01:37:58.700 --> 01:38:02.933 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ And I was a child ♪ 01:38:04.066 --> 01:38:07.966 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ Raising a child ♪ 01:38:11.066 --> 01:38:12.700 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ We stayed up all night ♪ 01:38:14.833 --> 01:38:17.700 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ Most nights, you slept at his side ♪ 01:38:17.700 --> 01:38:21.066 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Oh, God. 01:38:21.066 --> 01:38:23.866 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ But still, he just cried ♪ 01:38:26.766 --> 01:38:29.800 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ And cried ♪ 01:38:31.933 --> 01:38:35.466 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -He was a baby when he died, but I remember him older. 01:38:37.100 --> 01:38:39.466 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -No, he was a baby. Um... 01:38:40.200 --> 01:38:41.733 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% We should call Dr. Madden. 01:38:41.733 --> 01:38:43.400 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -Why would we call Dr. Madden? 01:38:43.400 --> 01:38:45.700 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% I'm just -- I'm trying to make sense of this. 01:38:46.766 --> 01:38:49.566 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% Wait. What was his name? 01:38:51.133 --> 01:38:52.866 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% I don't remember you ever saying his name. 01:38:52.866 --> 01:38:56.200 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% Why is that? -Diana, um... 01:38:56.200 --> 01:38:59.000 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -What was his name? Tell me. 01:38:59.000 --> 01:39:01.400 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ It's gonna be fine, it's gonna be fine ♪ 01:39:01.400 --> 01:39:02.533 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Gonna go back to the doctor 01:39:02.533 --> 01:39:03.533 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% 'cause we caught it just in time ♪ 01:39:03.533 --> 01:39:04.733 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -His name! 01:39:04.733 --> 01:39:06.366 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ We'll take the pills and pay the bills, 01:39:06.366 --> 01:39:07.966 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% we'll do more ECT ♪ -Our son. 01:39:07.966 --> 01:39:09.166 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ It's gonna be good, you'll see ♪ 01:39:09.166 --> 01:39:10.433 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -What was his name? 01:39:10.433 --> 01:39:11.900 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ It's gonna be good, you'll see ♪ 01:39:11.900 --> 01:39:13.500 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -What was his name?! 01:39:13.500 --> 01:39:14.733 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ It's gonna be good... ♪ 01:39:14.733 --> 01:39:16.233 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ What was his name, what was his name, 01:39:16.233 --> 01:39:17.633 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% what was his, what was his, what was his, what was his ♪ 01:39:17.633 --> 01:39:19.200 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ Name, name, name, name, name, name, name, name ♪ 01:39:19.200 --> 01:39:21.066 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ What was his name, what was his name? ♪ 01:39:21.066 --> 01:39:22.066 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -No! 01:39:22.066 --> 01:39:23.700 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% -Dad! -Natalie! 01:39:23.700 --> 01:39:25.700 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -[ Crying ] 01:39:48.766 --> 01:39:50.466 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ Why stay? ♪ 01:39:52.133 --> 01:39:53.900 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ Why stay? ♪ 01:39:55.166 --> 01:39:58.100 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ So steadfast and stolid ♪ 01:39:58.100 --> 01:40:00.833 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ And stoic and solid ♪ 01:40:00.833 --> 01:40:04.633 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ For day after every day ♪ 01:40:04.633 --> 01:40:06.633 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ Why stay? ♪ 01:40:07.166 --> 01:40:09.433 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ Why stay? ♪ 01:40:09.433 --> 01:40:12.433 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Why not simply give in and get on with livin' ♪ 01:40:12.433 --> 01:40:14.733 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ 'Cause everyone knows you tried ♪ 01:40:14.733 --> 01:40:19.266 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ But somehow, something died on the way ♪ 01:40:19.266 --> 01:40:21.066 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ So tell me why you stay ♪ 01:40:21.066 --> 01:40:23.333 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -♪ Why stay, why stay? ♪ 01:40:23.333 --> 01:40:25.466 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Enduring and coping and hurting and hoping 01:40:25.466 --> 01:40:27.666 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% for day after fricking day ♪ 01:40:27.666 --> 01:40:30.100 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ Why stay, why stay? ♪ 01:40:30.100 --> 01:40:32.266 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Why not simply end it, we'd all comprehend it ♪ 01:40:32.266 --> 01:40:34.400 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ And most of the world would say, 01:40:34.400 --> 01:40:36.933 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% "He's better off that way ♪ 01:40:36.933 --> 01:40:39.633 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ To be free ♪ 01:40:39.633 --> 01:40:42.866 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ And maybe so is she" ♪ 01:40:44.366 --> 01:40:48.366 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ A promise, a boy says forever ♪ 01:40:48.366 --> 01:40:52.466 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ A boy says, "Whatever may come, we'll come through ♪ 01:40:52.466 --> 01:40:53.966 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ And who can know how, 01:40:53.966 --> 01:40:57.300 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% when all I know now to be true ♪ 01:40:57.300 --> 01:41:02.600 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ Is this promise that I made to you ♪ 01:41:03.600 --> 01:41:06.266 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ A question, a boy wonders whether ♪ 01:41:06.266 --> 01:41:07.666 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -♪ A boy wonders, "Should I stay?" ♪ 01:41:07.666 --> 01:41:11.000 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ The two stay together the way that they stay ♪ 01:41:11.000 --> 01:41:13.200 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ For year after year ♪ 01:41:13.200 --> 01:41:15.000 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ For love or from fear ♪ 01:41:15.000 --> 01:41:20.766 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% ♪ Either way, that's the promise that I made that day ♪ 01:41:20.766 --> 01:41:25.566 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ Here's what I say to the girl who was burning so brightly ♪ 01:41:25.566 --> 01:41:30.033 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Like the light from Orion above ♪ 01:41:30.033 --> 01:41:33.866 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ And still, I will search for her nightly ♪ 01:41:33.866 --> 01:41:37.300 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ If you see her, please send her my love ♪ 01:41:37.300 --> 01:41:40.200 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ And the boy was a boy for all seasons ♪ 01:41:40.200 --> 01:41:41.500 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -♪ The boy is long-lost ♪ 01:41:41.500 --> 01:41:44.366 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ That boy is long-lost to me now ♪ 01:41:44.366 --> 01:41:45.633 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -♪ So lost ♪ 01:41:45.633 --> 01:41:49.333 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -♪ The man has forgotten his reasons ♪ 01:41:49.333 --> 01:41:52.800 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -♪ The man still remembers his vow ♪ 01:41:53.733 --> 01:41:57.733 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ A promise, a man says "Forever" ♪ 01:41:57.733 --> 01:42:02.133 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ A man says, "I'll never regret or let you" ♪ 01:42:02.133 --> 01:42:04.966 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ The promise that I made to stay ♪ 01:42:04.966 --> 01:42:09.966 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% And I stayed true ♪ 01:42:09.966 --> 01:42:13.800 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ Knowing one day we'd remember that joy ♪ 01:42:13.800 --> 01:42:18.366 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ You'd remember that girl, I'd remember that boy ♪ 01:42:18.366 --> 01:42:21.300 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% ♪ Till we do, the promise I made ♪ 01:42:21.300 --> 01:42:24.866 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ I'll make it brand-new ♪ 01:42:24.866 --> 01:42:31.300 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ The promise that I made 01:42:31.300 --> 01:42:38.266 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% to you ♪ 01:42:38.266 --> 01:42:43.400 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ I am more than memory ♪ 01:42:43.400 --> 01:42:46.466 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ I am what might be ♪ 01:42:46.466 --> 01:42:49.100 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ I am mystery ♪ 01:42:50.600 --> 01:42:53.400 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ Come closer ♪ 01:42:53.400 --> 01:42:55.700 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Dan. 01:42:55.700 --> 01:42:59.500 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -♪ Come closer ♪ 01:42:59.500 --> 01:43:02.966 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -Diana, there's nothing there. 01:43:02.966 --> 01:43:06.766 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ I'm old as time and forever young ♪ 01:43:06.766 --> 01:43:10.500 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ I am every song that will stay unsung ♪ 01:43:10.500 --> 01:43:12.600 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ I'll find you ♪ -Oh, no. 01:43:12.600 --> 01:43:15.400 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -You're kidding! -♪ Remind you ♪ 01:43:15.400 --> 01:43:17.966 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -Natalie! -Diana, come back here! 01:43:17.966 --> 01:43:23.533 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Until you name me, you can't tame me ♪ 01:43:23.533 --> 01:43:29.266 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ This is one old game that I can play so well ♪ 01:43:29.266 --> 01:43:32.766 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ I'm alive, I'm alive, I am so alive ♪ 01:43:32.766 --> 01:43:35.333 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ And the medicine failed, and the doctors lied ♪ 01:43:35.333 --> 01:43:38.700 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ I'm alive, I'm alive, I am death defied ♪ 01:43:38.700 --> 01:43:41.200 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ I'm alive ♪ 01:43:41.200 --> 01:43:44.333 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ So alive ♪ 01:43:44.333 --> 01:43:46.100 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ I'm alive ♪ 01:43:46.100 --> 01:43:47.266 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -I can't go to your dance. 01:43:47.266 --> 01:43:49.000 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% I have to take my mom to the doctor. 01:43:49.000 --> 01:43:50.466 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -I'll drive. -No. 01:43:50.466 --> 01:43:52.133 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -♪ I'm alive ♪ 01:43:52.133 --> 01:43:54.033 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -Natalie, let me help you. -No, you can't. 01:43:54.033 --> 01:43:56.333 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Diana! -Just go. 01:43:56.333 --> 01:43:59.000 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -♪ I'm alive ♪ 01:43:59.000 --> 01:44:00.833 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Look, I'll try to come later, okay? 01:44:00.833 --> 01:44:02.200 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -Okay, I'll wait for you there. 01:44:02.200 --> 01:44:10.200 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -♪ I'm alive ♪ 01:44:11.500 --> 01:44:14.500 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -♪ They told me that the wiring was somehow all misfiring 01:44:14.500 --> 01:44:16.900 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% and screwing up the signals in my brain ♪ 01:44:16.900 --> 01:44:19.133 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ And then they told me chemistry, the juice, 01:44:19.133 --> 01:44:22.400 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% and not the circuitry was mixing up and making me insane ♪ 01:44:22.400 --> 01:44:25.366 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ What happens when the burn has healed, 01:44:25.366 --> 01:44:27.866 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% but the skin has not regrown? 01:44:27.866 --> 01:44:32.000 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ What happens when the cast at last comes off 01:44:32.000 --> 01:44:38.033 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% and then you find the break was always in another bone? ♪ 01:44:38.033 --> 01:44:40.100 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -Relapse is very common, Diana. 01:44:40.100 --> 01:44:42.000 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% It's upsetting that the delusional episodes 01:44:42.000 --> 01:44:45.533 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% have returned, but not entirely unexpected. 01:44:47.066 --> 01:44:49.366 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% -♪ They tried a million meds and they strapped me to their beds 01:44:49.366 --> 01:44:52.066 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% and they shrugged and told me, "That's the way it goes" ♪ 01:44:52.066 --> 01:44:55.000 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ When, finally, you hit it, I asked you just what did it, 01:44:55.000 --> 01:44:57.400 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% you shrugged and said that no one really knows ♪ 01:44:57.400 --> 01:45:02.966 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ What happens if the medicine wasn't really in control? ♪ 01:45:02.966 --> 01:45:06.600 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ What happens if the cut, the burn, the break 01:45:06.600 --> 01:45:14.566 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% was never in my brain or in my blood, but in my soul? ♪ 01:45:17.166 --> 01:45:24.100 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ What happens if the cut, the burn, the break 01:45:24.100 --> 01:45:28.633 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% was never in my brain 01:45:28.633 --> 01:45:35.233 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% or in my blood, but in my soul? ♪ 01:45:39.566 --> 01:45:43.600 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Make up your mind, this is clarity ♪ 01:45:43.600 --> 01:45:47.933 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% ♪ Clarity that you did not have before ♪ 01:45:47.933 --> 01:45:52.500 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ The treatment is strong, but lasts only so long ♪ 01:45:52.500 --> 01:45:55.900 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% ♪ It may be your mind's needing more ♪ 01:45:55.900 --> 01:45:57.600 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -Let's say that's not it. 01:45:57.600 --> 01:46:00.466 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% The ECT is powerful. It gave you your life back. 01:46:00.466 --> 01:46:02.400 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% But the effects fade, 01:46:02.400 --> 01:46:04.233 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% and additional treatments are almost always needed. 01:46:04.233 --> 01:46:06.333 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -That wasn't on the form. 01:46:06.333 --> 01:46:09.766 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ Make up your mind that you'll try again ♪ 01:46:10.700 --> 01:46:14.200 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Make up your mind, there are moments of light ♪ 01:46:14.200 --> 01:46:18.666 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ The one thing that's sure is that there is no cure ♪ 01:46:18.666 --> 01:46:21.533 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ But that doesn't mean we don't fight ♪ 01:46:21.533 --> 01:46:24.633 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ -We'll return to talk therapy. 01:46:24.633 --> 01:46:28.600 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ Sinking and sprawling ♪ -There's still work to do. 01:46:28.600 --> 01:46:31.900 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ Maybe I'll let myself fall ♪ 01:46:31.900 --> 01:46:35.166 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Watch me, I'm falling ♪ -We might have to look at, uh... 01:46:35.166 --> 01:46:38.200 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ Maybe the falling ♪ -...a new drug regimen. 01:46:38.200 --> 01:46:40.066 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ Isn't so bad after all ♪ 01:46:40.066 --> 01:46:41.833 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -There are other promising therapies. 01:46:41.833 --> 01:46:44.400 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% EMDR, for instance, or rTMS. -♪ Isn't so bad after all ♪ 01:46:44.400 --> 01:46:47.033 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Watch me, I'm falling ♪ -Diana! 01:46:47.033 --> 01:46:48.633 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ Watch me, I'm flying ♪ -♪ Make up your mind ♪ 01:46:48.633 --> 01:46:50.966 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ Somehow surviving ♪ 01:46:50.966 --> 01:46:53.400 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Diana, you have a chronic illness! 01:46:54.333 --> 01:46:57.400 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% Like diabetes or hypertension, if left untreated, 01:46:57.400 --> 01:47:00.766 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% it could be catastrophic. 01:47:00.766 --> 01:47:03.266 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -I understand. 01:47:04.700 --> 01:47:06.633 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% But there has to be another way. 01:47:06.633 --> 01:47:10.466 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ Stay with me, try again ♪ 01:47:10.466 --> 01:47:14.733 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ Don't walk out on treatment, don't lose what you've won ♪ 01:47:14.733 --> 01:47:19.833 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ You've struggled for years, but you've only begun ♪ 01:47:22.033 --> 01:47:28.600 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -My first psychiatrist told me that, according to the manual, 01:47:28.600 --> 01:47:33.000 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% grief that continues past six months is pathological 01:47:33.000 --> 01:47:34.233 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% and should be medicated. 01:47:37.266 --> 01:47:39.066 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% Six months. 01:47:41.233 --> 01:47:43.666 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% For the life of my child. 01:47:45.300 --> 01:47:46.933 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% Who makes these decisions? 01:47:46.933 --> 01:47:48.866 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -It's a guideline, nothing more. 01:47:48.866 --> 01:47:52.533 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -Yes. Nothing more. 01:47:52.533 --> 01:47:56.566 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ Stay with me, try again ♪ 01:47:56.566 --> 01:47:58.900 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ Is medicine magic? ♪ 01:47:58.900 --> 01:48:00.900 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ You know that it's not ♪ 01:48:00.900 --> 01:48:05.400 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ We know it's not perfect, but it's what we've got ♪ 01:48:06.333 --> 01:48:11.433 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ That's all that we've got ♪ 01:48:14.700 --> 01:48:17.266 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -Goodbye, Dr. Madden. 01:48:18.866 --> 01:48:23.633 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:48:23.633 --> 01:48:25.133 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -So, what did he say? 01:48:27.033 --> 01:48:32.666 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% -Uh, he said I could do more ECT or go back on the meds. 01:48:34.266 --> 01:48:36.100 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -Okay, so, what are you gonna do? 01:48:36.100 --> 01:48:37.833 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -I'm gonna take you to your dance. 01:48:37.833 --> 01:48:39.700 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Mom... 01:48:39.700 --> 01:48:41.633 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -It's time you start thinking of your own happiness. 01:48:41.633 --> 01:48:44.866 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% It's not happiness. It's Henry. 01:48:48.500 --> 01:48:50.233 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -You love him. 01:48:52.300 --> 01:48:55.833 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -Mom, you can't just walk out on your doctor. 01:48:56.533 --> 01:49:00.133 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ Maybe I've lost it at last ♪ 01:49:00.133 --> 01:49:02.833 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:49:02.833 --> 01:49:08.966 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ Maybe my last lucid moment has passed ♪ 01:49:08.966 --> 01:49:12.666 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ I'm dancing with death, I suppose ♪ 01:49:12.666 --> 01:49:15.000 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:49:15.000 --> 01:49:18.533 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ But, really, who knows? ♪ 01:49:18.533 --> 01:49:20.833 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:49:20.833 --> 01:49:26.533 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ Maybe I'm tired of the game ♪ 01:49:26.533 --> 01:49:32.433 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Of coming up short of the rules, of the shame ♪ 01:49:32.433 --> 01:49:38.466 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% ♪ And maybe you feel that way, too ♪ 01:49:38.466 --> 01:49:42.833 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ I see me in you ♪ 01:49:42.833 --> 01:49:48.666 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% ♪ A girl full of anger and hope ♪ 01:49:48.666 --> 01:49:54.200 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ A girl with a mother who just couldn't cope ♪ 01:49:54.200 --> 01:49:56.800 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:49:56.800 --> 01:50:00.900 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ A girl who felt caught ♪ 01:50:00.900 --> 01:50:05.766 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% ♪ And thought no one could see ♪ 01:50:05.766 --> 01:50:10.500 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ But maybe one day, she'll be free ♪ 01:50:10.500 --> 01:50:13.333 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -♪ It's so lovely that you're sharing ♪ 01:50:13.333 --> 01:50:16.033 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ No, really, I'm all ears ♪ 01:50:16.033 --> 01:50:21.700 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ But where has all this caring been for sixteen years? ♪ 01:50:21.700 --> 01:50:27.566 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ For all those years I prayed that you'd go away for good ♪ 01:50:27.566 --> 01:50:29.600 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:50:29.600 --> 01:50:34.866 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ Half the time afraid that you really would ♪ 01:50:34.866 --> 01:50:37.133 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ When I thought you might be dying ♪ 01:50:37.133 --> 01:50:40.500 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ I cried for all we'd never be ♪ 01:50:40.500 --> 01:50:45.566 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ But there'll be no more crying ♪ 01:50:45.566 --> 01:50:47.800 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ Not for me ♪ 01:50:47.800 --> 01:50:51.200 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ Things will get better, you'll see ♪ 01:50:51.200 --> 01:50:54.466 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -♪ Not for me ♪ 01:50:54.466 --> 01:50:56.600 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ You'll see ♪ -No! 01:50:56.600 --> 01:51:00.833 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ Not for me ♪ -♪ You'll see ♪ 01:51:00.833 --> 01:51:02.500 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ Not for me ♪ -♪ You'll see ♪ 01:51:02.500 --> 01:51:07.566 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -♪ Not for m-e-e ♪ -♪ You'll s-e-ee ♪ 01:51:07.566 --> 01:51:11.133 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:51:13.600 --> 01:51:17.733 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ Maybe we can't be okay ♪ 01:51:17.733 --> 01:51:20.533 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:51:20.533 --> 01:51:26.200 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪But maybe we're tough, and we'll try anyway ♪ 01:51:26.200 --> 01:51:28.233 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:51:28.233 --> 01:51:31.033 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ We'll live with what's real ♪ 01:51:31.033 --> 01:51:33.466 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:51:33.466 --> 01:51:36.200 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ Let go of what's past ♪ 01:51:36.200 --> 01:51:38.366 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:51:38.366 --> 01:51:39.866 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% ♪ And maybe I'll see you at last ♪ 01:51:42.566 --> 01:51:45.300 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:51:45.300 --> 01:51:47.166 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -I don't believe you. 01:51:47.166 --> 01:51:51.733 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:51:51.733 --> 01:51:56.466 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% -17 years ago, your brother died of an intestinal obstruction. 01:51:58.933 --> 01:52:00.633 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% He was 8 months old. 01:52:07.200 --> 01:52:10.133 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% I know I -- I couldn't say that to you before. 01:52:11.233 --> 01:52:13.133 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% I'm sorry. 01:52:13.133 --> 01:52:17.366 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:52:17.366 --> 01:52:20.900 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% We wanted to give you a normal life. 01:52:20.900 --> 01:52:23.000 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:52:23.000 --> 01:52:25.366 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% I realize I have no clue what that is. 01:52:29.833 --> 01:52:34.533 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ I don't need a life that's normal ♪ 01:52:34.533 --> 01:52:38.766 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ That's way too far away ♪ 01:52:38.766 --> 01:52:43.933 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ But something next to normal would be okay ♪ 01:52:43.933 --> 01:52:46.233 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:52:46.233 --> 01:52:49.800 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% ♪ Yeah, something next to normal ♪ 01:52:49.800 --> 01:52:54.833 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ That's the thing I'd like to try ♪ 01:52:54.833 --> 01:53:00.300 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ Close enough to normal ♪ 01:53:00.300 --> 01:53:04.366 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ To get by ♪ 01:53:04.366 --> 01:53:07.400 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:53:07.400 --> 01:53:11.600 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -♪ We'll get by ♪ 01:53:13.700 --> 01:53:16.266 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -♪ We'll get by ♪ 01:53:16.266 --> 01:53:18.100 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:53:18.100 --> 01:53:19.866 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Okay. 01:53:22.800 --> 01:53:24.500 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% Now go to your dance. 01:53:24.500 --> 01:53:34.500 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:53:34.500 --> 01:53:42.300 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:53:42.300 --> 01:53:44.500 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -♪ Hey ♪ 01:53:44.500 --> 01:53:46.700 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -♪ Hey ♪ 01:53:46.700 --> 01:53:48.766 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -♪ You look like a star ♪ 01:53:48.766 --> 01:53:50.933 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:53:50.933 --> 01:53:54.633 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ A vision in blue ♪ 01:53:54.633 --> 01:53:57.166 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -Oh, I do. 01:53:57.166 --> 01:53:59.566 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -♪ And you are ♪ 01:53:59.566 --> 01:54:01.633 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% ♪ Hey ♪ 01:54:01.633 --> 01:54:03.300 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ You came ♪ 01:54:03.300 --> 01:54:07.666 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ Well, I said that I might ♪ 01:54:07.666 --> 01:54:11.333 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ I thought we were through ♪ 01:54:11.333 --> 01:54:13.466 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ Me and you ♪ 01:54:13.466 --> 01:54:15.633 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -♪ Not tonight ♪ 01:54:15.633 --> 01:54:17.833 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ Will your mom be okay? ♪ 01:54:17.833 --> 01:54:19.866 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ Well, she might be someday ♪ 01:54:19.866 --> 01:54:22.100 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% -♪ But for now, it's all fine? ♪ 01:54:22.100 --> 01:54:24.200 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ She's still on my mind ♪ 01:54:24.200 --> 01:54:26.600 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ Can you leave it behind? Stay ♪ 01:54:26.600 --> 01:54:28.666 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -♪ Let's see this thing through ♪ 01:54:28.666 --> 01:54:30.433 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -♪ Am I crazy? ♪ 01:54:30.433 --> 01:54:33.800 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ I might end up crazy ♪ 01:54:33.800 --> 01:54:36.466 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -♪ I'll be here for you ♪ 01:54:36.466 --> 01:54:39.166 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ You say that right here ♪ 01:54:39.166 --> 01:54:43.433 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ But then give it a year, or ten years, or a life ♪ 01:54:43.433 --> 01:54:45.333 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ I could end up your wife ♪ 01:54:45.333 --> 01:54:47.300 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Sitting, staring at walls ♪ 01:54:47.300 --> 01:54:49.066 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ Throwing crap down the stairs ♪ 01:54:49.066 --> 01:54:50.966 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Freaking out at the store ♪ 01:54:50.966 --> 01:54:52.566 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% ♪ Running nude down the street ♪ 01:54:52.566 --> 01:54:54.300 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Bleeding out in the bath ♪ 01:54:54.300 --> 01:54:56.700 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% -Shh! -[ Crying ] 01:54:59.200 --> 01:55:01.766 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -♪ Perfect for you ♪ 01:55:02.800 --> 01:55:06.766 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ I will be perfect for you ♪ 01:55:07.766 --> 01:55:10.866 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ So you could go crazy, or I could go crazy ♪ 01:55:13.566 --> 01:55:15.300 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ It's true ♪ 01:55:15.300 --> 01:55:17.933 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:55:17.933 --> 01:55:21.333 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Sometimes life is insane ♪ 01:55:21.333 --> 01:55:22.466 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:55:22.466 --> 01:55:28.633 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ But crazy I know I can do ♪ 01:55:28.633 --> 01:55:33.900 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ 'Cause crazy is perfect, and messed-up is perfect ♪ 01:55:33.900 --> 01:55:37.300 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ So I will be perfect ♪ 01:55:37.300 --> 01:55:39.733 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:55:39.733 --> 01:55:41.900 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -♪ Perfect ♪ 01:55:41.900 --> 01:55:45.900 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:55:45.900 --> 01:55:55.900 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -♪ Perfect for you ♪♪ 01:55:55.900 --> 01:56:05.966 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:56:05.966 --> 01:56:12.600 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:56:12.600 --> 01:56:16.000 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -♪ So, anyway ♪ 01:56:16.000 --> 01:56:17.200 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ I'm leaving ♪ 01:56:19.566 --> 01:56:21.466 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% ♪ I thought you'd like to know ♪ 01:56:23.333 --> 01:56:27.033 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ You're faithful, come what may ♪ 01:56:27.033 --> 01:56:30.933 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ But clearly I can't stay ♪ 01:56:30.933 --> 01:56:34.233 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ We'd both go mad that way ♪ 01:56:36.333 --> 01:56:39.633 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ So, here I go ♪ 01:56:39.633 --> 01:56:42.633 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:56:42.633 --> 01:56:46.033 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ And anyway ♪ 01:56:46.033 --> 01:56:50.233 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ I'm leaving ♪ 01:56:50.233 --> 01:56:51.933 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ I guess that you can see ♪ 01:56:51.933 --> 01:56:54.600 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:56:54.600 --> 01:56:57.300 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ I'll try this on my own ♪ 01:56:57.300 --> 01:56:59.800 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ A life I've never known ♪ 01:56:59.800 --> 01:57:03.633 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ I'll face the dread alone ♪ 01:57:03.633 --> 01:57:05.666 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:57:05.666 --> 01:57:12.433 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ But I'll be free ♪ 01:57:12.433 --> 01:57:13.766 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:57:13.766 --> 01:57:17.966 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ With you always beside me ♪ 01:57:17.966 --> 01:57:21.300 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ To catch me when I fall ♪ 01:57:21.300 --> 01:57:27.400 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% ♪ I'd never get to know the feel of solid ground at all ♪ 01:57:27.400 --> 01:57:35.433 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% ♪ With you always believing that we could still come through ♪ 01:57:35.433 --> 01:57:39.633 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% ♪ It makes me feel the fool to know that it's not true ♪ 01:57:39.633 --> 01:57:42.900 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:57:42.900 --> 01:57:47.566 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% ♪ What doctors call dysfunction, we tried to call romance ♪ 01:57:47.566 --> 01:57:49.166 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% ♪ And true, it's quite a trick ♪ 01:57:49.166 --> 01:57:51.933 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ To tell the dancers from the dance ♪ 01:57:51.933 --> 01:57:54.733 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% ♪ But rather than let chance take me ♪ 01:57:56.233 --> 01:58:03.666 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ I'll take a chance ♪ 01:58:03.666 --> 01:58:06.400 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:58:06.400 --> 01:58:09.033 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ I'll take a chance on leaving ♪ 01:58:09.033 --> 01:58:11.700 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:58:11.700 --> 01:58:13.800 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ It's that or stay and die ♪ 01:58:13.800 --> 01:58:16.833 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:58:16.833 --> 01:58:21.900 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% ♪ I loved you once, and though you love me still, I know ♪ 01:58:21.900 --> 01:58:27.333 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ It's time for me to fly ♪ 01:58:27.333 --> 01:58:30.133 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:58:30.133 --> 01:58:35.133 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% ♪ I loved you once, and though ♪ 01:58:35.133 --> 01:58:40.500 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ I love you still, I know ♪ 01:58:40.500 --> 01:58:49.400 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ It's time for me to go ♪ 01:58:49.400 --> 01:58:53.133 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:58:53.133 --> 01:58:54.800 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% ♪ And so... ♪ 01:58:58.100 --> 01:59:02.333 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% ♪ Goodbye ♪ 01:59:02.333 --> 01:59:12.333 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:59:12.333 --> 01:59:22.333 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:59:22.333 --> 01:59:26.733 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:59:26.733 --> 01:59:30.666 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ I am the one who loved you ♪ 01:59:30.666 --> 01:59:33.566 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ I am the one who stayed ♪ 01:59:33.566 --> 01:59:35.733 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ I am the one ♪ 01:59:35.733 --> 01:59:41.033 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ And you walked away ♪ 01:59:41.033 --> 01:59:42.433 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 01:59:42.433 --> 01:59:45.866 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ I am the one who waited ♪ 01:59:45.866 --> 01:59:52.566 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ And now you act like you just don't give a damn ♪ 01:59:52.566 --> 01:59:57.366 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% ♪ Like you never knew who I am ♪ 01:59:57.366 --> 02:00:00.366 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -♪ I am the one who knows you ♪ -♪ I am ♪ 02:00:00.366 --> 02:00:03.000 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -♪ I am the one you fear ♪ -♪ I am ♪ 02:00:03.000 --> 02:00:08.466 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ I am the one who's always been here ♪ 02:00:08.466 --> 02:00:09.666 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -♪ I am ♪ 02:00:09.666 --> 02:00:11.266 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -♪ I am the one who'll hear you ♪ 02:00:11.266 --> 02:00:12.733 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -♪ I am ♪ 02:00:12.733 --> 02:00:18.533 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ I know you told her that I'm not worth a damn ♪ 02:00:18.533 --> 02:00:22.933 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% ♪ But I know you know who I am ♪ 02:00:22.933 --> 02:00:25.133 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 02:00:25.133 --> 02:00:26.200 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -No. 02:00:26.200 --> 02:00:30.866 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ I know you know who I am ♪ 02:00:30.866 --> 02:00:32.300 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -Can't you just leave me alone? 02:00:32.300 --> 02:00:36.566 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -♪ I know you know who I am ♪ 02:00:36.566 --> 02:00:38.466 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -Why didn't you go with her? 02:00:38.466 --> 02:00:41.733 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -♪ 'Cause I'm holding on ♪ 02:00:41.733 --> 02:00:44.066 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -Let me go! 02:00:44.066 --> 02:00:46.900 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ And I won't let go ♪ 02:00:46.900 --> 02:00:48.433 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -♪ Let me go ♪ 02:00:48.433 --> 02:00:51.400 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -♪ I want you to know ♪ -♪ You don't know ♪ 02:00:51.400 --> 02:00:53.700 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -♪ I am the one who held you ♪ 02:00:53.700 --> 02:00:55.833 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ I am the one who cried ♪ 02:00:55.833 --> 02:01:00.300 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ I am the one who watched while you died ♪ 02:01:00.300 --> 02:01:01.900 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 02:01:01.900 --> 02:01:04.233 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ I am the one who loved you ♪ 02:01:04.233 --> 02:01:09.266 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ I tried pretending that I don't give a damn ♪ 02:01:09.266 --> 02:01:13.533 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ But you've always known who I am ♪ 02:01:13.533 --> 02:01:15.466 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 02:01:15.466 --> 02:01:16.500 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Gabe. 02:01:16.500 --> 02:01:19.166 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 02:01:19.166 --> 02:01:20.433 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% Gabriel. 02:01:20.433 --> 02:01:23.666 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 02:01:23.666 --> 02:01:25.433 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Hi, Dad. 02:01:25.433 --> 02:01:29.133 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 02:01:29.133 --> 02:01:31.333 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Dad? 02:01:32.900 --> 02:01:34.733 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% What's going on? Why are the lights off? 02:01:39.500 --> 02:01:40.866 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% Where's Mom? 02:01:43.500 --> 02:01:46.400 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -She's... 02:01:46.400 --> 02:01:49.933 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% Uh, she's, uh... 02:01:52.900 --> 02:01:54.833 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Gone? 02:01:54.833 --> 02:01:56.700 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Yeah. 02:02:02.233 --> 02:02:03.900 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -So, it's, uh... 02:02:05.833 --> 02:02:08.066 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% It's just me and you for now. 02:02:11.133 --> 02:02:12.233 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Oh... 02:02:16.700 --> 02:02:18.233 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Yeah. 02:02:23.066 --> 02:02:24.266 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -[ Crying ] 02:02:34.433 --> 02:02:36.066 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -[ Cries ] 02:02:37.333 --> 02:02:39.333 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Hey. 02:02:39.333 --> 02:02:40.800 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% Okay. 02:02:41.933 --> 02:02:43.300 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% Okay. 02:02:43.300 --> 02:02:44.700 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -[ Crying ] 02:02:44.700 --> 02:02:47.266 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 02:02:47.266 --> 02:02:50.600 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ We need some light ♪ 02:02:50.600 --> 02:02:53.033 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 02:02:53.033 --> 02:02:59.333 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ First of all, we need some light ♪ 02:02:59.333 --> 02:03:04.100 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ You can't sit here in the dark ♪ 02:03:04.100 --> 02:03:07.300 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ And all alone ♪ 02:03:07.300 --> 02:03:10.000 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ It's a sorry sight ♪ 02:03:10.000 --> 02:03:13.633 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ It's just you and me ♪ 02:03:13.633 --> 02:03:15.033 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% [ Smooches ] 02:03:15.033 --> 02:03:16.666 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 02:03:16.666 --> 02:03:20.300 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ We'll live, you'll see ♪ 02:03:20.300 --> 02:03:26.733 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 02:03:26.733 --> 02:03:31.700 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -♪ Night after night ♪ 02:03:31.700 --> 02:03:37.700 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ We'd sit and wait for the morning light ♪ 02:03:37.700 --> 02:03:42.166 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ But we've waited far too long ♪ 02:03:42.166 --> 02:03:47.833 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ For all that's wrong to be made right ♪ 02:03:47.833 --> 02:03:53.033 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -♪ Day after day ♪ 02:03:53.033 --> 02:03:58.733 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ Wishing all our cares away ♪ 02:03:58.733 --> 02:04:03.500 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ Trying to fight the things we feel ♪ 02:04:03.500 --> 02:04:09.266 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ But some hurts never heal ♪ 02:04:09.266 --> 02:04:14.000 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% ♪ Some ghosts are never gone ♪ 02:04:14.000 --> 02:04:18.900 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ But we go on ♪ 02:04:18.900 --> 02:04:23.266 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% ♪ We still go on ♪ 02:04:23.266 --> 02:04:28.600 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ And you find some way to survive ♪ 02:04:28.600 --> 02:04:37.000 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ♪ And you find out you don't have to be happy at all ♪ 02:04:37.000 --> 02:04:41.466 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% ♪ To be happy you're alive 02:04:41.466 --> 02:04:44.133 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -Do you know where she went? Have you heard from her? 02:04:44.133 --> 02:04:45.900 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Yeah. Yeah, I heard from her. 02:04:45.900 --> 02:04:48.033 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% She's staying with my grandparents. 02:04:48.033 --> 02:04:50.233 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 02:04:50.233 --> 02:04:52.200 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -Do they actually exist? 02:04:52.200 --> 02:04:53.766 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% [ Chuckles ] 02:04:53.766 --> 02:04:56.333 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Yes. 02:04:56.333 --> 02:04:58.133 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -So, that's good, right? 02:04:58.133 --> 02:05:00.533 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -Well, going home has never been a solution 02:05:00.533 --> 02:05:01.900 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% to any of my problems. 02:05:01.900 --> 02:05:03.600 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -Well, that's what you got me for. 02:05:03.600 --> 02:05:05.100 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -Seriously? 02:05:05.100 --> 02:05:07.600 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% You're like number three on my list of issues. 02:05:08.500 --> 02:05:11.266 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -You keep a list? -Don't worry, Henry. 02:05:11.266 --> 02:05:13.600 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% You're my favorite problem. 02:05:13.600 --> 02:05:15.233 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -That's all I ask. 02:05:15.233 --> 02:05:20.900 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -♪ Day after day ♪ 02:05:20.900 --> 02:05:26.200 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ Give me clouds and rain and gray ♪ 02:05:26.200 --> 02:05:30.200 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ Give me pain if that's what's real ♪ 02:05:30.200 --> 02:05:36.466 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -♪ It's the price we pay to feel ♪ 02:05:36.466 --> 02:05:40.300 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ The price of love is loss ♪ 02:05:40.300 --> 02:05:44.966 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ♪ But still we pay ♪ 02:05:44.966 --> 02:05:51.200 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -♪ We love anyway ♪ 02:05:51.200 --> 02:05:53.133 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -Look, I know you can't tell me if you're treating her. 02:05:53.133 --> 02:05:55.166 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% Uh, I just wonder if she's okay. 02:05:55.166 --> 02:06:00.066 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -I think she's working on it, and she's aware of the risks. 02:06:00.066 --> 02:06:03.000 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -Do you think she'll come home? 02:06:03.000 --> 02:06:05.700 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -It's hard to say. -Right. 02:06:05.700 --> 02:06:07.733 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Dan... 02:06:07.733 --> 02:06:11.100 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% Would you like me to recommend someone for you to talk to? 02:06:11.100 --> 02:06:13.966 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -No. 02:06:13.966 --> 02:06:16.466 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% Yes. Yes, I would, thank you. 02:06:16.466 --> 02:06:18.833 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 02:06:18.833 --> 02:06:21.466 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -♪ And when the night has finally gone ♪ 02:06:21.466 --> 02:06:24.100 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% ♪ And when we see the new day dawn ♪ 02:06:24.100 --> 02:06:27.300 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ We'll wonder how we wandered for so long, so blind ♪ 02:06:28.900 --> 02:06:31.533 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% ♪ The wasted world we thought we knew ♪ 02:06:31.533 --> 02:06:34.066 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ♪ The light will make it look brand-new ♪ 02:06:34.066 --> 02:06:37.100 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ So, let it ♪ 02:06:37.100 --> 02:06:39.333 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% ♪ Let it ♪ 02:06:39.333 --> 02:06:42.166 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% ♪ So, let it ♪ 02:06:42.166 --> 02:06:43.833 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% ♪ Let it ♪ 02:06:43.833 --> 02:06:47.133 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -♪ Let it shine ♪ 02:06:47.133 --> 02:06:49.800 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% ♪ Shine ♪ 02:06:49.800 --> 02:06:54.000 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% ♪ Shine ♪ 02:06:54.000 --> 02:06:58.700 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ Day after day ♪ 02:06:58.700 --> 02:07:04.233 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ We'll find the will to find our way ♪ 02:07:04.233 --> 02:07:08.666 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% ♪ Knowing that the darkest skies ♪ 02:07:08.666 --> 02:07:13.533 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ Will someday see the sun ♪ 02:07:13.533 --> 02:07:14.666 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 02:07:14.666 --> 02:07:19.600 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% -♪ When our long night is done ♪ 02:07:19.600 --> 02:07:24.433 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ There will be light ♪ 02:07:24.433 --> 02:07:28.466 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ There will be light ♪ 02:07:28.466 --> 02:07:33.366 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% ♪ When we open up our lives ♪ 02:07:33.366 --> 02:07:37.800 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% ♪ Sons and daughters, husbands, wives ♪ 02:07:37.800 --> 02:07:42.766 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% ♪ And fight that fight ♪ 02:07:42.766 --> 02:07:46.166 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ There will be light ♪ 02:07:46.166 --> 02:07:51.200 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ There will be light ♪ 02:07:51.200 --> 02:07:55.666 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ There will be light ♪ 02:07:55.666 --> 02:07:57.166 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 02:07:57.166 --> 02:08:07.233 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% ♪ There will be light ♪ 02:08:07.233 --> 02:08:10.366 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 02:08:10.366 --> 02:08:15.833 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% [ Cheers and applause ] 02:08:26.300 --> 02:08:30.066 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% [ Cheers and applause ] 02:08:40.500 --> 02:08:43.833 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% [ Cheers and applause ] 02:08:43.833 --> 02:08:45.366 align:left position:15% line:5% size:75% -To find out more about this 02:08:45.366 --> 02:08:47.233 align:left position:12.5% line:5% size:77.5% and other "Great Performances"  programs, 02:08:47.233 --> 02:08:50.300 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% visit  pbs.org/greatperformances 02:08:50.300 --> 02:08:53.133 align:left position:17.5% line:5% size:72.5% and follow us on Facebook,  X, and Instagram. 02:08:53.133 --> 02:08:56.433 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% [ Cheers and applause ] 02:09:07.633 --> 02:09:10.233 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% [ Cheers and applause ] 02:09:19.633 --> 02:09:22.333 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% [ Cheers and applause ] 02:09:31.733 --> 02:09:33.900 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% [ Cheers and applause ]