WEBVTT 00:00.633 --> 00:06.266 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 00:06.266 --> 00:11.966 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 00:30.266 --> 00:36.633 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 00:36.633 --> 00:42.600 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 00:42.600 --> 00:45.133 align:left position:10% line:5% size:80% [ Electronic beeping, whirring ] 00:45.133 --> 00:53.866 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 00:55.733 --> 00:58.033 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% [ Mouse clicks, keys clack ] 00:58.033 --> 01:01.866 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% [ Tones play ] 01:01.866 --> 01:04.600 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 01:04.600 --> 01:06.766 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Mouse clicking ] 01:09.433 --> 01:12.400 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Keys clacking ] 01:12.400 --> 01:15.733 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -That game is going to shake up the "Zelda" formula so much, 01:15.733 --> 01:18.833 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% and I have an incredibly good feeling about it. 01:18.833 --> 01:21.300 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -[ Chuckles ] 01:21.300 --> 01:23.333 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -I don't have words. 01:23.333 --> 01:25.933 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% [ Mouse clicks, keys clacking ] 01:28.000 --> 01:29.566 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% [ Scroll wheel clicks ] 01:29.566 --> 01:31.433 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -[ Mouse clicks ] -Welcome, Level Uppers, 01:31.433 --> 01:34.366 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% to a live reaction to the Nintendo Switch presentation. 01:34.366 --> 01:36.700 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -Check out the new "Zelda: Breath of the Wild." 01:36.700 --> 01:38.933 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -I am beyond excited. -[ Gasps ] 01:38.933 --> 01:41.366 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -Let's go, my boys! That's the sun! 01:41.366 --> 01:43.266 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -6, 5... 01:43.266 --> 01:45.266 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% -4... -3... 01:45.266 --> 01:48.700 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% -2... -1! 01:48.700 --> 01:51.800 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% [ Bird crying ] 01:51.800 --> 01:54.833 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -That is gorgeous. 01:54.833 --> 01:56.700 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -It's the Master Sword. 01:56.700 --> 02:03.700 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 02:03.700 --> 02:05.400 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Oh! 02:05.400 --> 02:13.233 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 02:13.233 --> 02:15.233 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ All cheering ] 02:15.233 --> 02:18.433 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 02:18.433 --> 02:21.666 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -Let's go! Let's go! 02:21.666 --> 02:23.700 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% -Yes! -[ Mouse clicks ] 02:29.200 --> 02:31.200 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Keys clacking ] 02:32.833 --> 02:35.333 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Mouse clicks ] 02:37.600 --> 02:39.600 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% [ Computer dinging ] 02:41.766 --> 02:43.766 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Hello. 02:43.766 --> 02:46.433 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% Hey, D-Gurl. Wait. Hold on. 02:48.100 --> 02:50.466 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -[ Computer dings ] -A legacy video 02:50.466 --> 02:53.566 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% that goes through past stuff that I've done, 02:53.566 --> 02:56.866 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% then speedrunning, and jumps to the present 02:56.866 --> 02:58.000 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% at the end. 02:58.000 --> 03:00.333 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% [ Computer dinging ] 03:07.466 --> 03:09.466 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% I'm looking for a folder on my computer. 03:09.466 --> 03:11.166 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Keys clacking ] 03:11.166 --> 03:13.233 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% Ancient selfies from the past. 03:13.233 --> 03:14.600 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Mouse clicks ] 03:14.600 --> 03:16.833 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% [ Audio playing backwards ] 03:16.833 --> 03:19.100 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -One of the premier video-game speedrunners. 03:19.100 --> 03:20.500 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% Welcome to the show! 03:20.500 --> 03:21.533 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% -Hey. Thanks for having me. 03:21.533 --> 03:23.366 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% -So, speedrunning. 03:23.366 --> 03:25.800 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -My whole life I've been so passionate about video games. 03:25.800 --> 03:28.200 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% I ended up stumbling across all these people 03:28.200 --> 03:31.566 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% trying to break the game, 03:31.566 --> 03:33.200 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% exploiting the game, 03:33.200 --> 03:35.000 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% abusing the game's code, 03:35.000 --> 03:37.766 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% and just finding some way to get to the end super fast. 03:37.766 --> 03:39.700 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -Wa-wa-wa-wa-hoo! 03:39.700 --> 03:41.033 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -That's a new world record. 03:41.033 --> 03:42.633 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% [ Cheers and applause ] 03:42.633 --> 03:45.233 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -Yes, dude! Yes! 03:45.233 --> 03:47.300 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% I [bleep] finally did it. 03:47.300 --> 03:50.166 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -World [bleep] record. 03:50.166 --> 03:52.433 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -The moment I saw it, I just jumped in headfirst. 03:52.433 --> 03:54.266 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% I'm wearing this headset. I'm, like, wired in. 03:54.266 --> 03:56.166 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% There's like three cords coming out of me right now. 03:56.166 --> 03:58.200 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% We're gonna [bleep] go in hard. 03:58.200 --> 04:00.566 align:left position:47.5% line:83% size:42.5% Oh! [Bleep] It's over. 04:00.566 --> 04:02.366 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% "Ocarina of Time" is dead. 04:02.366 --> 04:06.033 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -Cosmo Wright, the current world-record holder 04:06.033 --> 04:07.933 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% on "Zelda: Ocarina of Time." 04:07.933 --> 04:09.133 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% How fast can you do that game? 04:09.133 --> 04:10.766 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -18 minutes and 10 seconds. 04:10.766 --> 04:12.500 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -When I was 16, I played through "Ocarina of Time." 04:12.500 --> 04:13.600 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% It took me weeks. 04:13.600 --> 04:16.600 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -He basically skipped the entire game 04:16.600 --> 04:18.700 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% and was able to manipulate the code. 04:18.700 --> 04:21.366 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -This is your full-time job. This is what you do, right? 04:21.366 --> 04:22.800 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -19 hours of hard work. 04:22.800 --> 04:26.533 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -His self-made job is literally to play video games, 04:26.533 --> 04:30.500 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% broadcasting his play through the Internet around the world. 04:30.500 --> 04:32.433 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -You immediately have an audience, right? 04:32.433 --> 04:34.033 align:left position:17.5% line:5% size:72.5% -How about Cosmo, everyone? 04:34.033 --> 04:35.233 align:left position:30% line:5% size:60% -Oh, absolutely. 04:35.233 --> 04:38.000 align:left position:30% line:5% size:60% Several thousand usually tune in for "Zelda." 04:38.000 --> 04:40.333 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -I heard some people going by here yelling, 04:40.333 --> 04:42.000 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% "Cosmo, Cosmo." Do you get that a lot? 04:42.000 --> 04:43.633 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% -Ah! -Cosmo! 04:43.633 --> 04:47.500 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% [ Sobbing ] I love you! 04:47.500 --> 04:48.900 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -Sometimes I meet a bunch of people 04:48.900 --> 04:51.100 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% who want to get a picture with me or something. 04:51.100 --> 04:53.300 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% I'm just, like, kind of sitting in my room playing games, 04:53.300 --> 04:55.400 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% but now there's all these people who know who I am. 04:55.400 --> 04:58.566 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 04:58.566 --> 05:01.100 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% [ Cheers and applause ] 05:01.100 --> 05:11.033 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 05:13.166 --> 05:15.800 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Exhales heavily ] 05:18.200 --> 05:20.066 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 05:25.500 --> 05:27.866 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% I'm proud of my past. 05:27.866 --> 05:30.700 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% But people think that the magic's just gone. 05:30.700 --> 05:32.100 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 05:32.100 --> 05:35.866 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% I didn't expect all those people to unfollow me. 05:37.500 --> 05:39.933 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% I can't let myself be torn down like that. 05:43.266 --> 05:45.800 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% "Zelda: Breath of the Wild" is coming out soon. 05:45.800 --> 05:48.400 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% This is a huge moment for me. 05:48.400 --> 05:52.266 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 05:52.266 --> 05:54.900 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Birds chirping ] 05:54.900 --> 05:57.100 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 05:57.100 --> 06:02.733 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% My peak viewership back in the day was 18,300. 06:02.733 --> 06:05.300 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% So if I don't get 20,000 viewers, 06:05.300 --> 06:09.600 align:left position:27.5% line:5% size:62.5% I'm always failing to outdo my past, 06:09.600 --> 06:12.066 align:left position:17.5% line:5% size:72.5% and I can't stand for that. 06:12.066 --> 06:14.000 align:left position:27.5% line:5% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 06:14.000 --> 06:21.266 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 06:21.266 --> 06:24.533 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -[ Gasps ] 06:24.533 --> 06:27.900 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -I know that I'm still capable of everything. 06:27.900 --> 06:30.133 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% And I'm gonna surpass everything. 06:30.133 --> 06:31.733 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% [ Indistinct shouting ] 06:31.733 --> 06:33.366 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% Everything I've ever done before, 06:33.366 --> 06:36.566 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% I'm surpassing all of it. 06:36.566 --> 06:40.533 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% Maybe they'll start to see who I am... 06:40.533 --> 06:42.066 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Crowd cheers ] 06:42.066 --> 06:44.466 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% ...and finally have it in their hearts to respect me. 06:44.466 --> 06:49.000 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 06:49.000 --> 06:50.133 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% [ Monkeys chittering ] 06:50.133 --> 06:52.533 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Birds chirping ] 06:52.533 --> 06:57.933 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 06:57.933 --> 07:01.133 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 07:01.133 --> 07:03.533 align:left position:25% line:5% size:65% [ Computer dinging ] 07:03.533 --> 07:07.000 align:left position:25% line:5% size:65% Is anybody out there? 07:07.000 --> 07:08.500 align:left position:27.5% line:5% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 07:08.500 --> 07:10.833 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% Is anybody out there? 07:12.600 --> 07:13.966 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 07:13.966 --> 07:18.166 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% [ Toothbrush vibrating ] 07:18.166 --> 07:21.066 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% What is the Internet to me? It's connection. 07:21.066 --> 07:22.233 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% Welcome back. 07:22.233 --> 07:23.733 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -[ Keys clacking ] -Okay. 07:23.733 --> 07:25.766 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Mouse clicking ] 07:37.500 --> 07:39.033 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 07:39.033 --> 07:41.400 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% Soylent -- "Ready-to-drink food." 07:41.400 --> 07:44.766 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% It's so convenient. 07:44.766 --> 07:46.800 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Keys clacking ] 07:46.800 --> 07:50.733 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% It's like an entire experience that I've created. 07:50.733 --> 07:52.833 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% The way I sound, the way I behave. 07:52.833 --> 07:54.033 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Exhales heavily ] 07:54.033 --> 07:55.766 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Keys clacking ] 07:55.766 --> 07:59.766 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% [ Exhales heavily ] Even though it's all online, 07:59.766 --> 08:01.533 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% it's still very real. 08:01.533 --> 08:04.566 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Keys clacking ] 08:04.566 --> 08:07.900 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% I'm dumping my life into it, and it almost becomes my soul. 08:07.900 --> 08:10.900 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% [ Computer ringing ] 08:19.300 --> 08:20.633 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% [ Beep ] 08:20.633 --> 08:24.466 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% Hey. -Hi, Angel. 08:24.466 --> 08:26.966 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% How are you? 08:26.966 --> 08:29.300 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -I'm good. 08:29.300 --> 08:31.666 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 08:31.666 --> 08:34.733 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -How are you feeling    about your body and everything? 08:34.733 --> 08:40.833 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -Mostly good, but I think I've had a couple setbacks this year. 08:40.833 --> 08:44.066 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -I don't like that.  -I know. 08:44.066 --> 08:45.800 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% -You ever get invited to, like, 08:45.800 --> 08:48.833 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% these gaming competitions  anymore? 08:48.833 --> 08:52.000 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -I don't go anymore. 08:52.000 --> 08:54.666 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -Have you met  any of your neighbors? 08:54.666 --> 08:57.600 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -No. 08:57.600 --> 09:00.233 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% I mean, I don't want to. 09:00.233 --> 09:02.700 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -No one special? 09:02.700 --> 09:04.933 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -No. I'm just alone. 09:04.933 --> 09:07.766 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -I know.  I don't like that. 09:07.766 --> 09:10.300 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -[ Mouse clicks ] -I'm actually okay with that. 09:10.300 --> 09:12.600 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% I mostly want to connect online. 09:12.600 --> 09:16.266 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -All I care about  is your happiness. 09:16.266 --> 09:17.600 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -I love you. -Bye, Angel. 09:17.600 --> 09:19.733 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% -Bye. -[ Mouse clicks ] 09:23.000 --> 09:26.200 align:left position:30% line:5% size:60% Being a streamer, I have a skewed relationship 09:26.200 --> 09:28.366 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% with the people who watch me. 09:28.366 --> 09:30.833 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% It's like a many-to-one relationship. 09:30.833 --> 09:33.333 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 09:33.333 --> 09:37.366 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% I don't know, Ness. I don't know. 09:37.366 --> 09:43.033 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% [ Computer dinging ] 09:43.033 --> 09:46.066 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% I feel kind of like unrelatable. 09:46.066 --> 09:48.266 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% I really do struggle to connect. 09:48.266 --> 09:50.700 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 09:50.700 --> 09:53.233 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% [ Sighs ] 09:56.600 --> 09:59.100 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 09:59.100 --> 10:02.500 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% I crave physical affection sometimes. 10:02.500 --> 10:03.966 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 10:03.966 --> 10:06.333 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% It's a natural thing to crave. 10:06.333 --> 10:08.433 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 10:08.433 --> 10:13.600 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 10:13.600 --> 10:18.966 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 10:18.966 --> 10:20.966 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 10:20.966 --> 10:25.000 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 10:25.000 --> 10:27.466 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 10:27.466 --> 10:31.866 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 10:31.866 --> 10:34.166 align:left position:27.5% line:5% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 10:34.166 --> 10:41.200 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 10:41.200 --> 10:43.433 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 10:43.433 --> 10:47.633 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 10:47.633 --> 10:50.700 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% [ Computer dinging ] 10:50.700 --> 10:57.566 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 10:57.566 --> 11:03.766 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 11:03.766 --> 11:06.433 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% [ Dinging continues ] 11:06.433 --> 11:13.533 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 11:13.533 --> 11:21.100 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 11:21.100 --> 11:28.333 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 11:28.333 --> 11:30.866 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Mouse clicking ] 11:30.866 --> 11:39.366 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 11:39.366 --> 11:42.700 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% [ Scroll wheel clicking ] 11:42.700 --> 11:45.966 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -Look at this. -[ Pounding on door ] 11:45.966 --> 11:48.033 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% [ Explosions ] 11:51.200 --> 11:56.300 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% [ Indistinct shouting ] 11:56.300 --> 11:58.400 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -Get on the ground now! -Get on the ground! 11:58.400 --> 12:00.100 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -People don't like what I do, 12:00.100 --> 12:02.100 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% they get my information and call the cops. 12:02.100 --> 12:05.166 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -Separate your feet. 12:05.166 --> 12:08.866 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -[ Mouse clicks ] -I don't need this right now. 12:08.866 --> 12:11.133 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 12:11.133 --> 12:12.933 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% It's okay. 12:12.933 --> 12:15.533 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% I'm gonna, like, take a bath. 12:15.533 --> 12:18.766 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 12:18.766 --> 12:20.966 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% [ Bubbles burbling ] 12:20.966 --> 12:23.200 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% My first real memory... 12:23.200 --> 12:26.600 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 12:26.600 --> 12:29.600 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% Is coming out of the bath naked 12:29.600 --> 12:31.933 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% 'because my dad had installed a game. 12:31.933 --> 12:34.266 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% [ Video game beeping, whirring ] 12:34.266 --> 12:39.933 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 12:39.933 --> 12:41.533 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% Standing on this platform, 12:41.533 --> 12:45.866 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% I was struck with a feeling this was a special place. 12:45.866 --> 12:48.633 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% I was alone on top of the world. 12:48.633 --> 12:51.733 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 12:51.733 --> 12:55.833 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% For years, I felt like I was an alien stranded on planet Earth. 12:55.833 --> 13:04.600 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 13:04.600 --> 13:06.433 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% While the other kids played outside, 13:06.433 --> 13:10.466 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% I was in my room, wired in. 13:10.466 --> 13:12.666 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% While my classmates learned to drive, 13:12.666 --> 13:15.866 align:left position:17.5% line:5% size:72.5% I was setting world records in "Beetle Adventure Racing." 13:15.866 --> 13:18.033 align:left position:42.5% line:5% size:47.5% -Whoo! 13:18.033 --> 13:22.300 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 13:22.300 --> 13:24.733 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -One day I forgot to go to school 13:24.733 --> 13:28.600 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% because I was so absorbed with designing my own video game, 13:28.600 --> 13:31.066 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% a MegaZeux game where you travel through space 13:31.066 --> 13:33.266 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% and save the world from evil robots. 13:33.266 --> 13:39.766 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 13:39.766 --> 13:43.966 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% I even programmed my schoolyard bully Brad as one of the bosses. 13:43.966 --> 13:46.266 align:left position:30% line:5% size:60% [ Lasers firing ] 13:46.266 --> 13:53.000 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 13:53.000 --> 13:58.466 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 13:58.466 --> 14:00.133 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Alarm blares ] 14:00.133 --> 14:03.100 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% Suddenly, my mom came home and saw I wasn't at school. 14:03.100 --> 14:09.466 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 14:09.466 --> 14:11.200 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% But she wasn't mad. 14:11.200 --> 14:14.300 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% My mom knew I was absorbed in a creative process. 14:14.300 --> 14:24.266 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 14:24.266 --> 14:34.266 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 14:34.266 --> 14:43.700 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 14:43.700 --> 14:47.500 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% I want to go on a bigger, better journey 14:47.500 --> 14:49.500 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% than "Zelda: Ocarina of Time," 14:49.500 --> 14:52.133 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% and it's gonna be a beautiful new revival. 14:52.133 --> 14:54.433 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 14:54.433 --> 14:57.266 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -6, 5, 4, 14:57.266 --> 14:59.933 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% 3, 2, 1! 14:59.933 --> 15:02.233 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% [ Cheers and applause ] 15:02.233 --> 15:05.166 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 15:05.166 --> 15:07.533 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Yee-haw! 15:07.533 --> 15:08.633 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -So, I got one. 15:08.633 --> 15:10.400 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% Time to go home and set this baby up. 15:10.400 --> 15:13.633 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -It's finally happening! 15:13.633 --> 15:15.700 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% Ahh! 15:15.700 --> 15:18.800 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 15:18.800 --> 15:22.000 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Alright. 15:22.000 --> 15:24.266 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% These controllers are tiny. 15:24.266 --> 15:31.733 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 15:31.733 --> 15:34.466 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% We haven't even started playing. 15:34.466 --> 15:36.566 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% 1,000. Thank you all. Thank you. 15:36.566 --> 15:37.966 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -[ Computer dings ] -That's very cool. 15:37.966 --> 15:40.933 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% Thank you all for tuning in for my -- my new journey. 15:40.933 --> 15:44.100 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% [ Computer dinging ] 15:44.100 --> 15:46.533 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% You know, today feels like Christmas or something. 15:46.533 --> 15:48.900 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 15:48.900 --> 15:50.366 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% Hey, D-Gurl. 15:50.366 --> 15:52.100 align:left position:12.5% line:5% size:77.5% Oh, I guess you can't hear me, but thank you. 15:52.100 --> 15:54.000 align:left position:42.5% line:5% size:47.5% Hello. 15:54.000 --> 15:55.900 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 15:55.900 --> 15:57.933 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% Here we are. 15:57.933 --> 16:06.666 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 16:06.666 --> 16:09.900 align:left position:27.5% line:5% size:62.5% We've just started. You're at the beginning here. 16:09.900 --> 16:13.500 align:left position:17.5% line:5% size:72.5% This is the very beginning, Shrine of Resurrection. 16:13.500 --> 16:18.766 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 16:18.766 --> 16:21.566 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% We're about to leave this cave. 16:21.566 --> 16:25.400 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 16:25.400 --> 16:27.500 align:left position:25% line:5% size:65% There's a huge world. 16:27.500 --> 16:31.600 align:left position:25% line:5% size:65% [ Computer dinging ] 16:31.600 --> 16:33.333 align:left position:25% line:5% size:65% -You fought valiantly 16:33.333 --> 16:36.500 align:left position:32.5% line:5% size:57.5% when your fate  took an unfortunate turn. 16:36.500 --> 16:40.700 align:left position:27.5% line:5% size:62.5% Here you now stand,  revitalized 100 years later. 16:40.700 --> 16:47.133 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 16:47.133 --> 16:50.400 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -This truly feels more like an adventure 16:50.400 --> 16:52.300 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% than any game I've ever played. 16:52.300 --> 16:53.733 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% I'm really happy right now. 16:53.733 --> 16:55.833 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% [ Computer dinging ] 16:55.833 --> 16:59.800 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 16:59.800 --> 17:04.000 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -May I ask,  do you really remember me? 17:04.000 --> 17:06.400 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 17:06.400 --> 17:08.066 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -Oh, I'm featured right now, am I? 17:08.066 --> 17:10.800 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% [ Chuckles ] That's actually pretty cool. 17:10.800 --> 17:14.333 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Mouse clicking ] 17:14.333 --> 17:18.866 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% Welcome, everyone who's watching from the front page. 17:18.866 --> 17:21.100 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 17:21.100 --> 17:25.900 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 17:25.900 --> 17:27.200 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% Damn. Really? 17:27.200 --> 17:29.966 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% [ Chuckles ] Is there really 1,600? 17:29.966 --> 17:33.566 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% Alright. Welcome, everyone. 17:33.566 --> 17:35.400 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 17:35.400 --> 17:37.566 align:left position:32.5% line:5% size:57.5% - Ya-ha! Ya-ha! 17:37.566 --> 17:39.033 align:left position:12.5% line:5% size:77.5% -Nataran, thank you very much. 17:39.033 --> 17:43.566 align:left position:42.5% line:5% size:47.5% -Ya-ha!  Y-Y-Y-Y-Y-Y-Y-Ya-ha! 17:43.566 --> 17:46.000 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -3,000. That's insane. Thank you. 17:46.000 --> 17:48.466 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 17:48.466 --> 17:51.233 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -[ Cash register dings ] -Thank you very much, D-Gurl. 17:51.233 --> 17:54.333 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 17:54.333 --> 17:56.533 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 17:56.533 --> 17:58.533 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% What do you do for a living? 17:58.533 --> 18:01.633 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% And feel free to not answer any of this, obviously. 18:01.633 --> 18:03.866 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% [ Computer dinging ] 18:06.800 --> 18:09.133 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 18:09.133 --> 18:14.966 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% Oh, golly gosh, I didn't even know your name was Alex. 18:14.966 --> 18:17.666 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% Now I know. -[ Computer dings ] 18:17.666 --> 18:20.066 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -[ Laughs ] 18:20.066 --> 18:22.000 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% I'm from another galaxy. 18:22.000 --> 18:23.066 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 18:23.066 --> 18:25.166 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% Uh, no, I live alone. 18:25.166 --> 18:27.000 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% I kind of like to have my own space, 18:27.000 --> 18:30.266 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% but also, if I'm alone... 18:33.100 --> 18:34.900 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% ...then it's lonely. 18:34.900 --> 18:37.533 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% Well, I should probably go to sleep. 18:37.533 --> 18:38.733 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 18:38.733 --> 18:42.200 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% Oh, you just got home. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. 18:42.200 --> 18:46.400 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% I gotta go to bed. I have to. 18:46.400 --> 18:49.533 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% I guess I kind of stream so that sometimes 18:49.533 --> 18:51.433 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% I am part of people's daily routine. 18:51.433 --> 18:54.066 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% It's kind of cool to have people tuning in regularly 18:54.066 --> 18:59.600 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% and kind of coming along the journey with me. 18:59.600 --> 19:01.933 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% Uh, peace out. Goodbye. 19:03.666 --> 19:05.600 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -...that you can bow-spin to do that? 19:05.600 --> 19:07.300 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% But bow-spinning also doesn't get as many hits, 19:07.300 --> 19:10.900 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% so you need more stamina, so... 19:10.900 --> 19:12.333 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -"Narci," what's up? 19:12.333 --> 19:19.600 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% ♪ Catarina says ♪ 19:19.600 --> 19:23.066 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -D-Gurl. I like your username. 19:23.066 --> 19:25.700 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% The D stands [bleep] and "death to your foes." 19:25.700 --> 19:28.166 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -D-Gurl, have you ever had Soylent? 19:28.166 --> 19:31.100 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% It tastes really good. 19:31.100 --> 19:33.800 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -I'll go to bat for Narci on a lot of things, 19:33.800 --> 19:36.400 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% but not for that [bleep] Soylent [bleep] 19:36.400 --> 19:37.966 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -What was that on the ground? 19:37.966 --> 19:39.666 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% Was that like a nut or something? 19:39.666 --> 19:42.100 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 19:42.100 --> 19:43.833 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% Or should I say "nut"? 19:43.833 --> 19:45.666 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% Nut. Nut. 19:45.666 --> 19:47.633 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -This is the way I am to people I like. 19:47.633 --> 19:51.633 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% So if I'm giving you [bleep] it's probably 'cause I like you. 19:51.633 --> 19:54.066 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% [ Cash register dinging ] 19:54.066 --> 19:57.766 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 19:57.766 --> 20:00.200 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% [ Computer dinging ] 20:00.200 --> 20:03.366 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 20:03.366 --> 20:04.700 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -[ Chuckles ] 20:04.700 --> 20:08.233 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% -I really love the people here, honestly. 20:08.233 --> 20:10.166 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% Not to get all, like, soppy and [bleep] 20:10.166 --> 20:12.766 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% -I'm getting a little emotional. 20:12.766 --> 20:14.433 align:left position:30% line:5% size:60% This is magical. 20:14.433 --> 20:16.500 align:left position:15% line:5% size:75% "Oh, my God, there's a star." 20:16.500 --> 20:21.533 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 20:21.533 --> 20:24.233 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% D-Gurl, will you be my D-girlfriend? 20:24.233 --> 20:26.500 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Computer dings ] 20:26.500 --> 20:30.600 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 20:30.600 --> 20:33.733 align:left position:17.5% line:5% size:72.5% [ Ding! Ding! Ding! Ding! ] 20:33.733 --> 20:35.466 align:left position:15% line:5% size:75% -I think I'm dating Narcissa, right? 20:35.466 --> 20:37.400 align:left position:35% line:5% size:55% I don't know. 20:37.400 --> 20:44.733 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 20:44.733 --> 20:52.600 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 20:52.600 --> 20:55.233 align:left position:32.5% line:5% size:57.5% [ Bird cries ] 20:55.233 --> 20:57.333 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 20:57.333 --> 20:59.333 align:left position:17.5% line:5% size:72.5% -"I like the view up here." 20:59.333 --> 21:02.333 align:left position:12.5% line:5% size:77.5% I feel like I'm in a high point of my life suddenly. 21:02.333 --> 21:05.466 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% And I think this game is partially to thank for that. 21:05.466 --> 21:07.633 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% [ Thudding ] 21:09.766 --> 21:11.333 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% Someone chopped down a tree 21:11.333 --> 21:13.333 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% and, like, launched it super far, 21:13.333 --> 21:15.766 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% but then Link pulls the paraglider, 21:15.766 --> 21:18.833 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% and it actually maintains the momentum 21:18.833 --> 21:20.466 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% from the ragdoll physics. 21:20.466 --> 21:21.900 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% And I'm like, "Oh, my God." 21:21.900 --> 21:24.033 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% [ Computer dinging ] 21:24.033 --> 21:30.466 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 21:30.466 --> 21:32.800 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% Okay, like, look at this tree, right? 21:32.800 --> 21:36.500 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 21:36.500 --> 21:38.466 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% This looks bad, actually. 21:38.466 --> 21:40.833 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% This one right here. This one. 21:40.833 --> 21:44.600 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 21:44.600 --> 21:46.933 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Link grunting ] 21:46.933 --> 21:51.633 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 21:51.633 --> 21:53.600 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% [ Chuckles ] 21:53.600 --> 21:57.300 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 21:57.300 --> 21:59.033 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% Aw, damn it. 21:59.033 --> 22:01.733 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% I guess we want to go more this way. 22:01.733 --> 22:07.066 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 22:07.066 --> 22:08.833 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -New voicemail from Dad. 22:08.833 --> 22:12.066 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -Hey, Narcissa.  Just calling up to say hi. 22:12.066 --> 22:13.600 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% Give me a call sometime. 22:13.600 --> 22:15.166 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% Alright. I love you. 22:15.166 --> 22:17.066 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -New voicemail from Mom. 22:17.066 --> 22:19.966 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -Hi, my darling.  Miss you terribly. 22:19.966 --> 22:22.200 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% Alright, sweetheart.  Hang in there. 22:22.200 --> 22:25.100 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% I love you.  Call me when you're free. 22:25.100 --> 22:26.666 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% Bye. 22:26.666 --> 22:28.966 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 22:28.966 --> 22:31.533 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Ohh. 22:31.533 --> 22:35.333 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 22:35.333 --> 22:38.033 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% Ugh. Wait, why? 22:38.033 --> 22:40.600 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 22:40.600 --> 22:42.433 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% Alright, this is doable, I think. 22:42.433 --> 22:44.466 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% We can do this. 22:44.466 --> 22:46.033 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% Let's [bleep] go. 22:46.033 --> 22:48.166 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 22:48.166 --> 22:50.600 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% Now, that's what I call speedrunning. 22:52.100 --> 22:54.900 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -She just started a run. Let's go. 22:54.900 --> 22:58.400 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -I'm disrupting speedrunning, much like I did in 2011. 22:58.400 --> 23:01.666 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% I want to be the single greatest player of this game. 23:01.666 --> 23:03.233 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% 9 hours and 38 minutes. 23:03.233 --> 23:04.733 align:left position:40% line:5% size:50% 5:04.11. 23:04.733 --> 23:06.933 align:left position:40% line:5% size:50% 3:51.51. 23:06.933 --> 23:08.566 align:left position:12.5% line:5% size:77.5% There's a whole journey to it. 23:08.566 --> 23:10.333 align:left position:20% line:5% size:70% There's the magic to it, with the streams, 23:10.333 --> 23:12.233 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% learning and improving, 23:12.233 --> 23:14.600 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% keeping people company during lonely nights. 23:14.600 --> 23:20.633 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 23:30.300 --> 23:32.700 align:left position:25% line:5% size:65% I can't get up this. It's too high up. 23:32.700 --> 23:34.700 align:left position:30% line:5% size:60% But I think I can jump it with this. 23:34.700 --> 23:37.566 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% You take a bomb, you place the bomb. 23:37.566 --> 23:40.633 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% Then it's, like, shield, backflip and detonate, 23:40.633 --> 23:42.433 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% forward air jump, 23:42.433 --> 23:45.766 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% shield-surf, paraglider. 23:45.766 --> 23:47.866 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% And then you climb up the wall. 23:47.866 --> 23:49.933 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% And you have to do it all really fast and accurately. 23:49.933 --> 23:53.066 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% So let me try. It's like... 23:53.066 --> 23:54.333 align:left position:35% line:5% size:55% [ Explosion ] 23:54.333 --> 23:56.433 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% Wait. It's hard to do. 23:58.933 --> 24:01.066 align:left position:35% line:5% size:55% [ Explosion ] 24:01.066 --> 24:03.266 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% Oh, my God. Come on. 24:03.266 --> 24:05.700 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% [ Explosion ] 24:05.700 --> 24:07.833 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% Come on! Why didn't that work, though? 24:07.833 --> 24:09.800 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% I started today feeling very adequate, 24:09.800 --> 24:12.266 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% and now I feel, like, kind of inadequate. 24:16.666 --> 24:19.866 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% It's okay. It's okay for me to be a mess on stream sometimes. 24:19.866 --> 24:21.533 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% It's okay. 24:21.533 --> 24:24.166 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% I have self-image issues. Like, a lot. 24:26.033 --> 24:29.566 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% Being trans, you walk this fine line 24:29.566 --> 24:34.200 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% between being, like, a goddess and a monster. 24:38.433 --> 24:40.000 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% It's hard for me to explain this, 24:40.000 --> 24:43.533 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% but sometimes it feels like I... 24:43.533 --> 24:47.900 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% am really not... 24:47.900 --> 24:49.500 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% enough or -- 24:49.500 --> 24:51.433 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% I'm not enough or I'm not, like, 24:51.433 --> 24:53.533 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% where I want to be with myself. 24:53.533 --> 24:56.433 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% I don't want to feel like I'm, like, this... 24:56.433 --> 24:58.466 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Knock on door ] 24:58.466 --> 25:07.333 align:left position:47.5% line:89% size:42.5% ♪♪ 25:07.333 --> 25:17.066 align:left position:47.5% line:89% size:42.5% ♪♪ 25:17.066 --> 25:19.033 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Knock on door ] 25:19.033 --> 25:20.366 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Mouse clicks ] 25:20.366 --> 25:28.000 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 25:28.000 --> 25:36.666 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 25:36.666 --> 25:37.866 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Mouse clicks ] 25:44.966 --> 25:46.733 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% A group of people showed up 25:46.733 --> 25:48.866 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% and were like, "We're with something. 25:48.866 --> 25:50.466 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% We're looking for Jake, 25:50.466 --> 25:52.633 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% for people who are having trouble." 25:52.633 --> 25:53.966 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% And then I said, "I'm not Jake." 25:53.966 --> 25:55.900 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% And then they said, "Well, what's your name?" 25:55.900 --> 25:58.966 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% And then I was like... 25:58.966 --> 26:02.066 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% "If you don't know my name, then go away." 26:02.066 --> 26:05.100 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% And then they're like, "Okay. But can we leave a card?" 26:05.100 --> 26:07.066 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% And I'm like, "Okay. Fine." 26:09.866 --> 26:13.033 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% "Mental Health Crisis Services." 26:14.633 --> 26:16.366 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% I wish I asked them more questions. 26:16.366 --> 26:18.833 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% Like, how the [bleep] -- Like... 26:18.833 --> 26:20.866 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% Why are you here? 26:29.133 --> 26:30.833 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% [ Sobs ] 26:33.800 --> 26:43.266 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 26:43.266 --> 26:52.033 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 26:52.033 --> 27:01.266 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 27:01.266 --> 27:10.500 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 27:10.500 --> 27:18.666 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 27:18.666 --> 27:22.833 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 27:22.833 --> 27:24.766 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% [ Crow caws ] 27:24.766 --> 27:30.000 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 27:30.000 --> 27:31.566 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% [ Indistinct shouting ] 27:31.566 --> 27:33.566 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% [ Screaming ] 27:33.566 --> 27:41.800 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 27:41.800 --> 27:45.166 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% I think I've been very desperate for any attention, 27:45.166 --> 27:48.433 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% and thus the people who show me negative attention, 27:48.433 --> 27:50.233 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% I seek it out. 27:52.133 --> 27:55.266 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% I've read more hate than you can imagine. 27:55.266 --> 27:57.533 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% I've read thousands and thousands 27:57.533 --> 27:59.233 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% of hate messages towards me. 28:00.500 --> 28:03.833 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% "Kill trans people." Like, "Kill these freaks." 28:03.833 --> 28:05.233 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -Watching this stream right now 28:05.233 --> 28:07.466 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% and hopes this woman kills herself. 28:07.466 --> 28:09.800 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -Don't be surprised when you find Cosmo dead. 28:09.800 --> 28:11.533 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -Narcissa is [bleep] in the head. 28:11.533 --> 28:14.666 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -Sideways for attention! Long ways for results! 28:14.666 --> 28:16.133 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -[ Gasps ] 28:16.133 --> 28:17.800 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Glass shatters ] 28:17.800 --> 28:20.266 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -People reacted really negatively to anything 28:20.266 --> 28:22.466 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% that was apparently some sort of weakness. 28:22.466 --> 28:24.566 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% So I [bleep] blew up the weaknesses. 28:24.566 --> 28:26.600 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% I pressed myself up against the wall 28:26.600 --> 28:28.600 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% and did some crazy [bleep]. 28:28.600 --> 28:31.200 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% Please support me. Please. 28:31.200 --> 28:34.100 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -Flush all your credibility and dignity down the toilet. 28:34.100 --> 28:35.433 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -Okay! Would you shut up?! 28:35.433 --> 28:37.333 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -Maybe I've caused a little damage. 28:37.333 --> 28:40.133 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% Certainly other people have caused some damage to me. 28:40.133 --> 28:42.400 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% It's like I want to respond to all their comments. 28:42.400 --> 28:44.766 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% "What's going on in your life on the other side of the screen?" 28:44.766 --> 28:47.133 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% Another [bleep] coward. Goodbye. 28:47.133 --> 28:49.633 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% You are coming into random people's chats, 28:49.633 --> 28:52.433 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% being a bigot, being a total piece of [bleep]. 28:52.433 --> 28:55.600 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% I complain about people being negative towards me. 28:55.600 --> 28:58.700 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 28:58.700 --> 29:01.100 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% Then it causes another whole group of negativity 29:01.100 --> 29:02.833 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% to spawn off of that. 29:02.833 --> 29:05.766 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% [ Bokoblins laughing ] 29:05.766 --> 29:07.566 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% I can almost bait these people 29:07.566 --> 29:09.400 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% into spreading my image all over the place, 29:09.400 --> 29:11.266 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% even though it's really negative. 29:11.266 --> 29:17.566 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 29:17.566 --> 29:19.333 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% I'm so lost. 29:20.566 --> 29:23.800 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% How do I navigate this [bleep] online experience? 29:26.033 --> 29:27.800 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Mouse clicking ] 29:32.833 --> 29:34.500 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Line ringing ] 29:34.500 --> 29:35.633 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -Hi, Angel. 29:35.633 --> 29:36.833 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Hi. 29:36.833 --> 29:40.233 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 29:40.233 --> 29:41.833 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -How are you? 29:41.833 --> 29:44.400 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -I've been a bit emotional lately. 29:44.400 --> 29:46.200 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -It's great to be emotional. 29:46.200 --> 29:48.000 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% And it's great to be deep 29:48.000 --> 29:51.300 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% and aware, which you are,  of the world and everything, 29:51.300 --> 29:55.533 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% but, mostly,  you shouldn't be crying a lot. 29:55.533 --> 29:57.400 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -I know. I know. 29:57.400 --> 29:59.233 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% -You know. 30:01.966 --> 30:05.033 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% I haven't seen you  in three years. 30:05.033 --> 30:06.633 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -No! No! 30:06.633 --> 30:08.066 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -I know. 30:08.066 --> 30:13.933 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 30:13.933 --> 30:17.333 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% I should probably be calling more often. 30:17.333 --> 30:18.700 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -Yeah, I know. 30:18.700 --> 30:21.933 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% It's all I do,  is think about you every day. 30:21.933 --> 30:24.666 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -Bye-bye.  -Bye-bye. 30:26.400 --> 30:28.433 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% -I feel like I'm in a mental rut 30:28.433 --> 30:31.333 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% and I'm never gonna pull myself out of it. 30:35.533 --> 30:37.266 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% Okay. 30:37.266 --> 30:38.600 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% If anyone in my chat 30:38.600 --> 30:42.000 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% is, like, a counselor or a therapist 30:42.000 --> 30:45.433 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% dealing with people who have depression, 30:45.433 --> 30:47.933 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% let's have a conversation publicly. 30:49.766 --> 30:53.733 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% Twitch must be my all and my everything. 30:53.733 --> 30:57.133 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% It must be. It has to be public. 30:58.600 --> 31:01.633 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% No. Stop doubting the power of the Internet. 31:10.366 --> 31:12.800 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% I feel isolated. I feel it. 31:12.800 --> 31:15.533 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 31:15.533 --> 31:16.766 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% I feel really lonely. 31:16.766 --> 31:18.733 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% I don't feel like I have friends. 31:18.733 --> 31:22.166 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 31:22.166 --> 31:24.066 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% I have this queen-size bed. 31:24.066 --> 31:25.633 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% And it's like all I want to do 31:25.633 --> 31:29.033 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% is, like, roll around with someone. 31:29.033 --> 31:33.466 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% [ Chuckles ] And, like, I just don't. 31:33.466 --> 31:36.766 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 31:36.766 --> 31:38.733 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% I'm just alone. 31:38.733 --> 31:45.233 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 31:45.233 --> 31:49.200 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Rapid beeping ] 31:49.200 --> 31:52.900 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% -Three! Two! One! Go! 31:52.900 --> 31:54.700 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 31:54.700 --> 31:56.900 align:left position:40% line:83% size:50% -It's me. -It's D-Gurl. 31:58.533 --> 32:00.833 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -This is only our first date. Come on. 32:00.833 --> 32:03.433 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% [ Laughs ] I opened up Narci's fridge. 32:03.433 --> 32:07.666 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% It...is only Soylent 32:07.666 --> 32:11.200 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% and then a [bleep] jar of peanut butter. 32:11.200 --> 32:14.566 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% I died the moment I opened it. So... 32:14.566 --> 32:16.433 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% She keeps her room dark. 32:16.433 --> 32:17.900 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% [ Chuckles ] 32:17.900 --> 32:20.400 align:left position:25% line:5% size:65% [Bleep] garbage bags on the window. 32:20.400 --> 32:23.166 align:left position:15% line:5% size:75% So it's kind of a nightmare. 32:23.166 --> 32:26.700 align:left position:25% line:5% size:65% I'm gonna be nesting so [bleep] hard. 32:26.700 --> 32:28.100 align:left position:42.5% line:5% size:47.5% -Nice. -Nesting. 32:28.100 --> 32:29.866 align:left position:27.5% line:5% size:62.5% We're gonna upgrade [bleep] apartment. 32:29.866 --> 32:30.900 align:left position:40% line:5% size:50% -Upgrade. 32:30.900 --> 32:33.666 align:left position:20% line:5% size:70% -I'll [bleep] upgrade it. 32:33.666 --> 32:35.666 align:left position:42.5% line:5% size:47.5% -Game! 32:35.666 --> 32:37.900 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -Alright. Do you want to, like, end the stream? 32:37.900 --> 32:39.633 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -Yeah. For sure. 32:39.633 --> 32:40.966 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -Thank you for tuning in. 32:40.966 --> 32:43.700 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% I'll see you...later. 32:44.700 --> 32:46.000 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Mouse clicks ] 32:49.133 --> 32:51.066 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% [ Beeping ] 32:55.266 --> 32:57.900 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% It's been good. There's this person there with me. 32:57.900 --> 33:00.800 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% And like, I'm not being, like, harshly judged. 33:00.800 --> 33:02.566 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% And I just started, like, crying really hard. 33:02.566 --> 33:04.900 align:left position:30% line:5% size:60% And it was, like, incredibly [bleep] like... 33:04.900 --> 33:08.466 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% It felt almost like therapeutic. It felt like extremely good. 33:08.466 --> 33:10.366 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% I think she's back. 33:10.366 --> 33:11.600 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% Cool. 33:11.600 --> 33:12.900 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% [ Door opens ] 33:14.800 --> 33:16.833 align:left position:45% line:83% size:45% Hey. -Hey. 33:16.833 --> 33:18.300 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Cool. 33:18.300 --> 33:19.866 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -How are you doing? What's going on? 33:19.866 --> 33:23.300 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -Um, I still haven't left the Plateau. 33:23.300 --> 33:24.466 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% [ Laughs ] 33:24.466 --> 33:26.200 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -I'm about to start another one, I guess. 33:26.200 --> 33:28.200 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% Although, I could use a slice. 33:28.200 --> 33:29.433 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% I could use a slice. -Yeah. 33:29.433 --> 33:30.600 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% It's the perfect time for a slice. 33:30.600 --> 33:33.300 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Okay. We're going back to IRL. 33:33.300 --> 33:41.766 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 33:41.766 --> 33:49.933 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 33:49.933 --> 33:56.866 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 33:56.866 --> 34:05.300 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 34:05.300 --> 34:12.533 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 34:12.533 --> 34:19.500 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 34:19.500 --> 34:28.333 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 34:28.333 --> 34:36.933 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 34:36.933 --> 34:41.833 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 34:41.833 --> 34:43.466 align:left position:37.5% line:5% size:52.5% [ Roaring ] 34:43.466 --> 34:48.833 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 34:48.833 --> 34:52.466 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 34:54.566 --> 34:56.966 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Aah! 34:56.966 --> 34:59.566 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% Right back in it. Let's go. 34:59.566 --> 35:02.333 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% One. Come on. This is the run. 35:07.266 --> 35:09.233 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% Yes. First try. 35:12.500 --> 35:15.000 align:left position:15% line:5% size:75% We're heading to the airport later tonight. 35:15.000 --> 35:19.700 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% And that'll be the end of our five-day vacation. 35:19.700 --> 35:21.900 align:left position:30% line:5% size:60% -We're squeezing every last possible second 35:21.900 --> 35:25.033 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% out of the day, Narci. 35:25.033 --> 35:27.266 align:left position:10% line:5% size:80% -Yes, this is world-record pace. 35:30.666 --> 35:32.100 align:left position:42.5% line:5% size:47.5% Ohh... 35:33.800 --> 35:35.900 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% [ Controller thuds ] 35:35.900 --> 35:40.000 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -I stasis'd it too early. So it didn't go. 35:40.000 --> 35:42.800 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% It wasn't disconnected from the bottom yet. 35:44.000 --> 35:45.800 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% Okay. It's over. It's actually over. 35:45.800 --> 35:48.166 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% Just [bleep] -- That's it. Like, there's no more. 35:48.166 --> 35:49.800 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% That's it. -Revali's Gale is now ready. 35:49.800 --> 35:51.266 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -I could have had it, and I didn't get it. 35:51.266 --> 35:54.566 align:left position:17.5% line:5% size:72.5% It's over. The run's over. 35:54.566 --> 35:55.966 align:left position:30% line:5% size:60% It's time to go. 35:59.633 --> 36:09.000 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 36:09.000 --> 36:10.766 align:left position:25% line:5% size:65% [ Keyboard clacking ] 36:10.766 --> 36:20.033 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 36:20.033 --> 36:29.900 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 36:29.900 --> 36:38.933 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 36:44.733 --> 36:47.000 align:left position:15% line:5% size:75% -Okay. I guess I'll just play games or something. 36:47.000 --> 36:49.300 align:left position:35% line:5% size:55% I don't know. 36:49.300 --> 36:51.633 align:left position:27.5% line:5% size:62.5% I missed you, too. 36:51.633 --> 36:53.933 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% But it's been replaced 36:53.933 --> 36:57.100 align:left position:17.5% line:5% size:72.5% by missing Narci even more. 36:57.100 --> 37:01.800 align:left position:37.5% line:5% size:52.5% The line is it was a gay-cation, but... 37:01.800 --> 37:03.300 align:left position:20% line:5% size:70% We just haven't gotten -- 37:03.300 --> 37:05.500 align:left position:30% line:5% size:60% We haven't, like, hammered out [bleep]. 37:08.200 --> 37:10.700 align:left position:37.5% line:5% size:52.5% [ Ringing ] 37:10.700 --> 37:12.733 align:left position:32.5% line:5% size:57.5% -Hello, hello? 37:12.733 --> 37:14.833 align:left position:17.5% line:5% size:72.5% -Let's hash out everything    we are to each other right now. 37:14.833 --> 37:18.466 align:left position:17.5% line:5% size:72.5% -I'm gonna start a new run while we're chatting. 37:18.466 --> 37:21.700 align:left position:15% line:5% size:75% So you're saying that, like, you would kind of want to 37:21.700 --> 37:24.066 align:left position:17.5% line:5% size:72.5% develop something with me? 37:24.066 --> 37:27.666 align:left position:17.5% line:5% size:72.5% -I mean, I'd like to think I'm building a relationship. 37:29.633 --> 37:32.333 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% -I've kind of designed my life in a way 37:32.333 --> 37:35.566 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% where I can just focus in on a few things 37:35.566 --> 37:38.333 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% that I really want to work towards. 37:38.333 --> 37:40.600 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -Okay. So what do you want? 37:40.600 --> 37:44.066 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -I want to be idolized by my viewers. 37:44.066 --> 37:46.666 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% 20,000 viewers or bust. 37:46.666 --> 37:48.733 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% [ Indistinct conversations ] 37:48.733 --> 37:57.633 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 38:00.733 --> 38:02.666 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% If this is the record, 38:02.666 --> 38:04.900 align:left position:30% line:5% size:60% then we must post a Reddit thread called 38:04.900 --> 38:08.800 align:left position:15% line:5% size:75% "Absolutely disgusting record by Narcissa." 38:08.800 --> 38:11.066 align:left position:17.5% line:5% size:72.5% Do I still think I can get over 10,000 viewers 38:11.066 --> 38:12.266 align:left position:20% line:5% size:70% in "Breath of the Wild"? 38:12.266 --> 38:14.733 align:left position:17.5% line:5% size:72.5% Yes, I do. I certainly do. 38:19.166 --> 38:21.466 align:left position:12.5% line:5% size:77.5% Clear your mind for this jump. 38:22.633 --> 38:24.333 align:left position:42.5% line:5% size:47.5% [Beep] 38:25.600 --> 38:28.966 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% We're actually on pace for sub-3:40. 38:28.966 --> 38:30.866 align:left position:27.5% line:5% size:62.5% It's unbelievable. 38:33.166 --> 38:36.500 align:left position:30% line:5% size:60% I want this run. I want to finish this run. 38:36.500 --> 38:38.333 align:left position:17.5% line:5% size:72.5% I want this to be the run. 38:38.333 --> 38:45.166 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 38:45.166 --> 38:47.533 align:left position:30% line:5% size:60% Ugh. Oh, my God. 38:47.533 --> 38:50.700 align:left position:15% line:5% size:75% -That was [bleep] miraculous. 38:50.700 --> 38:52.800 align:left position:27.5% line:5% size:62.5% Oh, my [bleep] God! 38:52.800 --> 39:00.166 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 39:00.166 --> 39:04.766 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 39:06.500 --> 39:08.500 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% 3:38.31. 39:08.500 --> 39:12.166 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% This beats the record by minutes. 39:12.166 --> 39:14.500 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% Peace and love. Peace and love. 39:14.500 --> 39:16.733 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% And remember -- 39:16.733 --> 39:19.166 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% Trans girls rule "Breath of the Wild." 39:22.766 --> 39:29.300 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 39:29.300 --> 39:33.733 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 39:33.733 --> 39:37.633 align:left position:10% line:5% size:80% -The current world-record holder on "Zelda: Ocarina of Time." 39:37.633 --> 39:39.666 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% [ Cheers and applause ] 39:39.666 --> 39:41.666 align:left position:32.5% line:5% size:57.5% You immediately have an audience, right? 39:41.666 --> 39:43.233 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -Oh, absolutely. 39:43.233 --> 39:45.800 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% Several thousand usually tune in for "Zelda." 39:45.800 --> 39:47.900 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% [ Cheers and applause ] 39:47.900 --> 39:50.766 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 39:50.766 --> 39:53.966 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% I was at the precipice. 39:53.966 --> 39:57.466 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% And now I'm like a fallen star. 39:59.300 --> 40:01.666 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% I want to feel like I'm on top of the world. 40:01.666 --> 40:04.133 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 40:04.133 --> 40:07.033 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% I feel like I'm being swallowed by it. 40:07.033 --> 40:12.833 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 40:12.833 --> 40:16.933 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 40:16.933 --> 40:18.466 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% Ugh. 40:19.766 --> 40:22.133 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -What's wrong with me?! 40:22.133 --> 40:25.500 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -It turns out life is not a fairy tale after all. 40:27.366 --> 40:31.933 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% -Everything we've done up  until now was all for nothing. 40:31.933 --> 40:33.733 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% [ Sobs ] 40:33.733 --> 40:36.966 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% -I will never succeed in the way I succeeded in the past. 40:36.966 --> 40:41.066 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 40:41.066 --> 40:43.500 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% This stream will never [bleep] be big again. 40:43.500 --> 40:45.966 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% It'll never [bleep] happen. I'm not relatable anymore. 40:45.966 --> 40:47.400 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% And it doesn't matter if I'm the best [bleep] 40:47.400 --> 40:48.933 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% player in the world at this game. 40:48.933 --> 40:50.633 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% No one [bleep] cares. 40:50.633 --> 40:53.333 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% I've gone from being the superstar 40:53.333 --> 40:55.933 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% to the falling star plummeting into Earth 40:55.933 --> 40:58.300 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% like a [bleep] comet, slamming down, 40:58.300 --> 40:59.666 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% creating a shockwave, 40:59.666 --> 41:02.400 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% and burying in my [bleep] chasm so deep 41:02.400 --> 41:04.133 align:left position:25% line:89% size:65% as everyone piles on 41:04.133 --> 41:06.433 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% and pushes me down into the caverns of darkness 41:06.433 --> 41:08.900 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% where I'm crowned the queen of hell. 41:08.900 --> 41:12.166 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 41:12.166 --> 41:13.966 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% They think I'm a deranged freak 41:13.966 --> 41:16.266 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% who's delusional and should kill myself. 41:17.566 --> 41:20.300 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% They only [bleep] watch me if I'm raving. 41:21.766 --> 41:24.766 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% So the only solution is just to [bleep] go nuclear. 41:24.766 --> 41:30.833 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 41:30.833 --> 41:33.366 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% I am the monster that you've all created. 41:33.366 --> 41:36.733 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 41:36.733 --> 41:39.333 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% [Bleep] people watching and observing me as I sit here 41:39.333 --> 41:42.533 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% and [bleep] go through through the struggle. 41:42.533 --> 41:43.766 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% I [bleep] hate the game. 41:43.766 --> 41:45.366 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% I hate people who watch video [bleep]. 41:45.366 --> 41:47.200 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% The Twitch viewership is so [bleep] blind! 41:47.200 --> 41:49.066 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% You have such [bleep] poor taste. 41:49.066 --> 41:50.766 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% I [bleep] hate you. 41:50.766 --> 41:55.400 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 42:06.333 --> 42:09.966 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% So, what happens if I call that phone number? 42:09.966 --> 42:12.233 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% You get to talk to a counselor. 42:12.233 --> 42:13.800 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% Well, my phone is right here. 42:13.800 --> 42:15.966 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Keypad dialing ] 42:15.966 --> 42:17.900 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Line ringing ] 42:17.900 --> 42:19.833 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -Suicide Prevention Lifeline. 42:19.833 --> 42:24.966 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -Um, well, I cut off all my hair, and... 42:24.966 --> 42:27.766 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% I guess it was, like, an act of self-harm. 42:29.900 --> 42:32.333 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% And... 42:32.333 --> 42:34.266 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% feeling kind of hopeless. 42:36.533 --> 42:40.833 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% It's like...people want to see me fail. 42:42.500 --> 42:44.566 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% And anytime there's any sort of sign of weakness, 42:44.566 --> 42:46.400 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% they pinpoint it and, like, harass me 42:46.400 --> 42:47.800 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% and, like, pick at it like a scab 42:47.800 --> 42:49.600 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% until I'm squeezed and I'm bleeding, 42:49.600 --> 42:51.833 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% and then, like, I'm just incredibly [bleep] alone. 42:51.833 --> 42:54.533 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% I'm just like a [bleep] alien on this planet. 42:56.200 --> 42:58.100 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% It just feels easier to, like, damage 42:58.100 --> 43:01.433 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% a social connection than it does to grow it. 43:01.433 --> 43:05.000 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% Yeah. I'll get through tonight. Definitely. 43:07.833 --> 43:09.833 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% Alright. Bye. 43:09.833 --> 43:11.100 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% [ Beep ] 43:13.200 --> 43:14.633 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% [ Phone clatters ] 43:16.600 --> 43:19.100 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% Well, that was okay, I guess. 43:23.633 --> 43:27.566 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 43:27.566 --> 43:30.300 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% Why weren't you all watching 43:30.300 --> 43:32.966 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% when I broke the "Breath of the Wild" record? 43:32.966 --> 43:35.333 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% I could have really used your support. 43:35.333 --> 43:41.300 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 43:41.300 --> 43:43.900 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% I think I'm an attention addict. 43:43.900 --> 43:47.733 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 43:47.733 --> 43:49.333 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% [ Sobbing ] 43:49.333 --> 43:58.233 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 43:58.233 --> 44:06.866 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 44:06.866 --> 44:12.766 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 44:21.433 --> 44:23.466 align:left position:35% line:5% size:55% -Oh, my God. 44:26.133 --> 44:28.700 align:left position:17.5% line:5% size:72.5% She did it live on stream? 44:31.466 --> 44:34.066 align:left position:35% line:5% size:55% I don't know. I just hope she's gonna be okay. 44:36.266 --> 44:38.266 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% [ Ringing ] 44:38.266 --> 44:39.600 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Hello? 44:39.600 --> 44:42.533 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% -Hey. How do you feel? 44:42.533 --> 44:45.800 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -I, like, ruined myself by cutting my hair off. 44:47.600 --> 44:48.933 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -You didn't ruin yourself. 44:48.933 --> 44:52.733 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% You just [bleep] cut your hair off. 44:54.033 --> 44:57.400 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -I don't know how to just be calm and quiet 44:57.400 --> 44:59.366 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% during the hard moments because I feel like 44:59.366 --> 45:02.766 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% I really, really want and need connection. 45:05.900 --> 45:08.166 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% I feel like crying because... 45:10.733 --> 45:14.533 align:left position:12.5% line:83% size:77.5% I'm, like, grateful that you're talking to me right now. 45:14.533 --> 45:16.700 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% -Happy cries are good cries. 45:20.933 --> 45:22.666 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% -Can I ask you something? 45:22.666 --> 45:26.500 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% When would you be free if I was to come? 45:26.500 --> 45:28.333 align:left position:37.5% line:83% size:52.5% -Whenever. -Whenever? 45:28.333 --> 45:34.033 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 45:35.466 --> 45:43.033 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 45:43.033 --> 45:44.633 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% We did it. 45:44.633 --> 45:46.333 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% It's like we're parting the birds. 45:46.333 --> 45:47.700 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% -Yeah. 45:47.700 --> 45:54.500 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 45:54.500 --> 45:56.533 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% -See all this? I'm like, "I'm alive. 45:56.533 --> 45:58.800 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% Like, this is a thing happening." 45:58.800 --> 46:01.133 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Yeah, -I can't help myself. 46:01.133 --> 46:02.533 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% -This is happening as [bleep]. 46:02.533 --> 46:03.933 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -[ Laughs ] Yeah. 46:03.933 --> 46:10.133 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 46:10.133 --> 46:12.933 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% Do you think your life is too filled with things? 46:12.933 --> 46:15.000 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% You have your band. Then you're streaming. 46:15.000 --> 46:17.100 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Yeah. -And you're cooking. 46:17.100 --> 46:19.133 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -I mean, that's just kind of a thing I like to do. 46:19.133 --> 46:20.833 align:left position:42.5% line:77% size:47.5% -Yeah. -That's why I like having people around. 46:20.833 --> 46:22.800 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% Because I can cook for them. 46:22.800 --> 46:25.833 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 46:25.833 --> 46:27.766 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% Try to change your perspective 46:27.766 --> 46:31.300 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% so that you see the sky as, like, a giant lake. 46:31.300 --> 46:33.800 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Okay. -And you're like -- 46:33.800 --> 46:36.466 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% You're above it, looking down at it. 46:36.466 --> 46:40.833 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 46:40.833 --> 46:42.900 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -Do you ever want to go to outer space? 46:42.900 --> 46:45.966 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -For some reason, I feel like the view is better down here. 46:45.966 --> 46:49.966 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% -Earth is beautiful, I think, from here and elsewhere. 46:49.966 --> 46:58.433 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 46:58.433 --> 47:05.700 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 47:10.033 --> 47:13.266 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% All in all, like, I'm doing better now 47:13.266 --> 47:15.833 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% than I was, like, before the trip. 47:18.433 --> 47:22.900 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% The time I spent there felt like it kind of healed me somewhat. 47:22.900 --> 47:25.033 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% Like, I really needed that. 47:30.166 --> 47:33.600 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% Being able to share some affection and, like... 47:37.466 --> 47:39.400 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% ...just be around people, I guess, 47:39.400 --> 47:42.266 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% without being so isolated. 47:45.000 --> 47:48.500 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% Just felt... 47:48.500 --> 47:50.433 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% really good. 47:50.433 --> 47:52.066 align:left position:42.5% line:89% size:47.5% And... 47:57.400 --> 47:59.433 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% I don't know. It's like a breath of -- 47:59.433 --> 48:01.400 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% a breath of -- What is it? 48:01.400 --> 48:04.766 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% A breath of fresh air. 48:10.866 --> 48:16.266 align:left position:17.5% line:83% size:72.5% It might be nice to receive some kind of unconditional love. 48:16.266 --> 48:18.133 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% Seeing my parents. 48:18.133 --> 48:26.600 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 48:26.600 --> 48:33.633 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 48:33.633 --> 48:37.533 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -This is not a healthy  environment for me to be in, 48:37.533 --> 48:41.766 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% therefore I must  leave this place. 48:43.166 --> 48:47.166 align:left position:32.5% line:83% size:57.5% But do not grieve  for my disappearance. 48:47.166 --> 48:49.200 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Bye. 48:49.200 --> 48:52.133 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 48:52.133 --> 48:55.866 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -For I will find what  I'm looking for in this life. 48:57.366 --> 49:00.766 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% I will just do it alone. 49:00.766 --> 49:04.366 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 49:04.366 --> 49:07.266 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% -It's like level one, where you grew up. 49:07.266 --> 49:11.133 align:left position:12.5% line:89% size:77.5% Green fields, grass, and trees. 49:11.133 --> 49:14.200 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% [ Child fussing ] 49:14.200 --> 49:17.400 align:left position:17.5% line:89% size:72.5% -[ Speaking indistinctly ] 49:17.400 --> 49:20.133 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Ohh! 49:20.133 --> 49:22.366 align:left position:35% line:83% size:55% -"You are my most beautiful flower. 49:22.366 --> 49:25.700 align:left position:20% line:83% size:70% -Mommy's gonna catch a fish  to fry tonight! 49:25.700 --> 49:30.300 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 49:30.300 --> 49:32.400 align:left position:30% line:83% size:60% -You are the best of your generation. 49:32.400 --> 49:35.466 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% Brilliant. Talented. Sweet. Honest." 49:35.466 --> 49:38.133 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 49:38.133 --> 49:40.866 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Hi! Hi! 49:40.866 --> 49:42.166 align:left position:45% line:89% size:45% -Hi! 49:42.166 --> 49:45.133 align:left position:27.5% line:83% size:62.5% -"You were special. Different from other children. 49:45.133 --> 49:48.833 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 49:48.833 --> 49:52.666 align:left position:15% line:83% size:75% That is why I quit my job and became a stay-at-home mother. 49:52.666 --> 49:55.133 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 49:55.133 --> 49:58.266 align:left position:10% line:83% size:80% I couldn't possibly trust anyone else to give you the love, 49:58.266 --> 50:00.166 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% attention, and freedom 50:00.166 --> 50:02.766 align:left position:25% line:83% size:65% that your mind needed to explore life." 50:02.766 --> 50:04.533 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% -Bye-bye! 50:04.533 --> 50:13.333 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 50:13.333 --> 50:21.400 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 50:21.400 --> 50:29.566 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 50:29.566 --> 50:36.733 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 50:36.733 --> 50:39.466 align:left position:32.5% line:89% size:57.5% -Ohh! Ohh-ohh! 50:39.466 --> 50:42.600 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% [ Laughs ] 50:42.600 --> 50:45.166 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% Ohh! Aww. 50:45.166 --> 50:47.366 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% How are you? 50:47.366 --> 50:50.000 align:left position:20% line:89% size:70% Ohh! How was your flight? 50:50.000 --> 50:51.366 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% -It was fine. 50:51.366 --> 50:53.833 align:left position:30% line:89% size:60% -Aww! [ Laughs ] 50:53.833 --> 50:56.300 align:left position:35% line:89% size:55% Aw, my baby. 50:56.300 --> 50:59.133 align:left position:15% line:89% size:75% I'm sorry it's been so long. 51:00.600 --> 51:03.133 align:left position:40% line:89% size:50% Aww. Aww. 51:04.533 --> 51:07.033 align:left position:10% line:89% size:80% Oh, it feels so good to hug you. 51:07.033 --> 51:08.800 align:left position:27.5% line:89% size:62.5% Let me look at you. 51:08.800 --> 51:10.466 align:left position:37.5% line:89% size:52.5% [ Laughs ] 51:10.466 --> 51:12.233 align:left position:22.5% line:89% size:67.5% You're just beautiful. 51:12.233 --> 51:14.700 align:left position:22.5% line:83% size:67.5% -She's been waiting for that moment for a long time. 51:14.700 --> 51:18.600 align:left position:42.5% line:83% size:47.5% -Yeah. Oh, you look wonderful. 51:26.933 --> 51:35.000 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 51:35.000 --> 51:40.133 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 51:40.133 --> 51:44.500 align:left position:30% line:5% size:60% -♪ Margaret sees Beth Anne leave ♪ 51:44.500 --> 51:47.600 align:left position:25% line:5% size:65% ♪ As the day fight ♪ 51:49.733 --> 51:54.200 align:left position:30% line:5% size:60% ♪ Each dead name to be thrown out and die ♪ 51:54.200 --> 51:58.966 align:left position:17.5% line:5% size:72.5% ♪ She looks on the bodies ♪ 51:58.966 --> 52:06.466 align:left position:12.5% line:5% size:77.5% ♪ Perfect in their assembling ♪ 52:06.466 --> 52:08.600 align:left position:27.5% line:5% size:62.5% ♪ Without a care ♪ 52:08.600 --> 52:11.200 align:left position:22.5% line:5% size:67.5% ♪ I promise you this ♪ 52:11.200 --> 52:14.066 align:left position:15% line:5% size:75% ♪ Even if you don't believe ♪ 52:14.066 --> 52:23.133 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 52:27.500 --> 52:36.433 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 52:36.433 --> 52:45.433 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪ 52:45.433 --> 52:55.333 align:left position:47.5% line:5% size:42.5% ♪♪