1 00:00:00,633 --> 00:00:06,266 ♪♪ 2 00:00:06,266 --> 00:00:11,966 ♪♪ 3 00:00:30,266 --> 00:00:36,633 ♪♪ 4 00:00:36,633 --> 00:00:42,600 ♪♪ 5 00:00:42,600 --> 00:00:45,133 [ Electronic beeping, whirring ] 6 00:00:45,133 --> 00:00:53,866 ♪♪ 7 00:00:55,733 --> 00:00:58,033 [ Mouse clicks, keys clack ] 8 00:00:58,033 --> 00:01:01,866 [ Tones play ] 9 00:01:01,866 --> 00:01:04,600 [ Computer dings ] 10 00:01:04,600 --> 00:01:06,766 [ Mouse clicking ] 11 00:01:09,433 --> 00:01:12,400 [ Keys clacking ] 12 00:01:12,400 --> 00:01:15,733 -That game is going to shake up the "Zelda" formula so much, 13 00:01:15,733 --> 00:01:18,833 and I have an incredibly good feeling about it. 14 00:01:18,833 --> 00:01:21,300 -[ Chuckles ] 15 00:01:21,300 --> 00:01:23,333 -I don't have words. 16 00:01:23,333 --> 00:01:25,933 [ Mouse clicks, keys clacking ] 17 00:01:28,000 --> 00:01:29,566 [ Scroll wheel clicks ] 18 00:01:29,566 --> 00:01:31,433 -[ Mouse clicks ] -Welcome, Level Uppers, 19 00:01:31,433 --> 00:01:34,366 to a live reaction to the Nintendo Switch presentation. 20 00:01:34,366 --> 00:01:36,700 -Check out the new "Zelda: Breath of the Wild." 21 00:01:36,700 --> 00:01:38,933 -I am beyond excited. -[ Gasps ] 22 00:01:38,933 --> 00:01:41,366 -Let's go, my boys! That's the sun! 23 00:01:41,366 --> 00:01:43,266 -6, 5... 24 00:01:43,266 --> 00:01:45,266 -4... -3... 25 00:01:45,266 --> 00:01:48,700 -2... -1! 26 00:01:48,700 --> 00:01:51,800 [ Bird crying ] 27 00:01:51,800 --> 00:01:54,833 -That is gorgeous. 28 00:01:54,833 --> 00:01:56,700 -It's the Master Sword. 29 00:01:56,700 --> 00:02:03,700 ♪♪ 30 00:02:03,700 --> 00:02:05,400 -Oh! 31 00:02:05,400 --> 00:02:13,233 ♪♪ 32 00:02:13,233 --> 00:02:15,233 [ All cheering ] 33 00:02:15,233 --> 00:02:18,433 ♪♪ 34 00:02:18,433 --> 00:02:21,666 -Let's go! Let's go! 35 00:02:21,666 --> 00:02:23,700 -Yes! -[ Mouse clicks ] 36 00:02:29,200 --> 00:02:31,200 [ Keys clacking ] 37 00:02:32,833 --> 00:02:35,333 [ Mouse clicks ] 38 00:02:37,600 --> 00:02:39,600 [ Computer dinging ] 39 00:02:41,766 --> 00:02:43,766 -Hello. 40 00:02:43,766 --> 00:02:46,433 Hey, D-Gurl. Wait. Hold on. 41 00:02:48,100 --> 00:02:50,466 -[ Computer dings ] -A legacy video 42 00:02:50,466 --> 00:02:53,566 that goes through past stuff that I've done, 43 00:02:53,566 --> 00:02:56,866 then speedrunning, and jumps to the present 44 00:02:56,866 --> 00:02:58,000 at the end. 45 00:02:58,000 --> 00:03:00,333 [ Computer dinging ] 46 00:03:07,466 --> 00:03:09,466 I'm looking for a folder on my computer. 47 00:03:09,466 --> 00:03:11,166 [ Keys clacking ] 48 00:03:11,166 --> 00:03:13,233 Ancient selfies from the past. 49 00:03:13,233 --> 00:03:14,600 [ Mouse clicks ] 50 00:03:14,600 --> 00:03:16,833 [ Audio playing backwards ] 51 00:03:16,833 --> 00:03:19,100 -One of the premier video-game speedrunners. 52 00:03:19,100 --> 00:03:20,500 Welcome to the show! 53 00:03:20,500 --> 00:03:21,533 -Hey. Thanks for having me. 54 00:03:21,533 --> 00:03:23,366 -So, speedrunning. 55 00:03:23,366 --> 00:03:25,800 -My whole life I've been so passionate about video games. 56 00:03:25,800 --> 00:03:28,200 I ended up stumbling across all these people 57 00:03:28,200 --> 00:03:31,566 trying to break the game, 58 00:03:31,566 --> 00:03:33,200 exploiting the game, 59 00:03:33,200 --> 00:03:35,000 abusing the game's code, 60 00:03:35,000 --> 00:03:37,766 and just finding some way to get to the end super fast. 61 00:03:37,766 --> 00:03:39,700 -Wa-wa-wa-wa-hoo! 62 00:03:39,700 --> 00:03:41,033 -That's a new world record. 63 00:03:41,033 --> 00:03:42,633 [ Cheers and applause ] 64 00:03:42,633 --> 00:03:45,233 -Yes, dude! Yes! 65 00:03:45,233 --> 00:03:47,300 I [bleep] finally did it. 66 00:03:47,300 --> 00:03:50,166 -World [bleep] record. 67 00:03:50,166 --> 00:03:52,433 -The moment I saw it, I just jumped in headfirst. 68 00:03:52,433 --> 00:03:54,266 I'm wearing this headset. I'm, like, wired in. 69 00:03:54,266 --> 00:03:56,166 There's like three cords coming out of me right now. 70 00:03:56,166 --> 00:03:58,200 We're gonna [bleep] go in hard. 71 00:03:58,200 --> 00:04:00,566 Oh! [Bleep] It's over. 72 00:04:00,566 --> 00:04:02,366 "Ocarina of Time" is dead. 73 00:04:02,366 --> 00:04:06,033 -Cosmo Wright, the current world-record holder 74 00:04:06,033 --> 00:04:07,933 on "Zelda: Ocarina of Time." 75 00:04:07,933 --> 00:04:09,133 How fast can you do that game? 76 00:04:09,133 --> 00:04:10,766 -18 minutes and 10 seconds. 77 00:04:10,766 --> 00:04:12,500 -When I was 16, I played through "Ocarina of Time." 78 00:04:12,500 --> 00:04:13,600 It took me weeks. 79 00:04:13,600 --> 00:04:16,600 -He basically skipped the entire game 80 00:04:16,600 --> 00:04:18,700 and was able to manipulate the code. 81 00:04:18,700 --> 00:04:21,366 -This is your full-time job. This is what you do, right? 82 00:04:21,366 --> 00:04:22,800 -19 hours of hard work. 83 00:04:22,800 --> 00:04:26,533 -His self-made job is literally to play video games, 84 00:04:26,533 --> 00:04:30,500 broadcasting his play through the Internet around the world. 85 00:04:30,500 --> 00:04:32,433 -You immediately have an audience, right? 86 00:04:32,433 --> 00:04:34,033 -How about Cosmo, everyone? 87 00:04:34,033 --> 00:04:35,233 -Oh, absolutely. 88 00:04:35,233 --> 00:04:38,000 Several thousand usually tune in for "Zelda." 89 00:04:38,000 --> 00:04:40,333 -I heard some people going by here yelling, 90 00:04:40,333 --> 00:04:42,000 "Cosmo, Cosmo." Do you get that a lot? 91 00:04:42,000 --> 00:04:43,633 -Ah! -Cosmo! 92 00:04:43,633 --> 00:04:47,500 [ Sobbing ] I love you! 93 00:04:47,500 --> 00:04:48,900 -Sometimes I meet a bunch of people 94 00:04:48,900 --> 00:04:51,100 who want to get a picture with me or something. 95 00:04:51,100 --> 00:04:53,300 I'm just, like, kind of sitting in my room playing games, 96 00:04:53,300 --> 00:04:55,400 but now there's all these people who know who I am. 97 00:04:55,400 --> 00:04:58,566 ♪♪ 98 00:04:58,566 --> 00:05:01,100 [ Cheers and applause ] 99 00:05:01,100 --> 00:05:11,033 ♪♪ 100 00:05:13,166 --> 00:05:15,800 [ Exhales heavily ] 101 00:05:18,200 --> 00:05:20,066 [ Computer dings ] 102 00:05:25,500 --> 00:05:27,866 I'm proud of my past. 103 00:05:27,866 --> 00:05:30,700 But people think that the magic's just gone. 104 00:05:30,700 --> 00:05:32,100 [ Computer dings ] 105 00:05:32,100 --> 00:05:35,866 I didn't expect all those people to unfollow me. 106 00:05:37,500 --> 00:05:39,933 I can't let myself be torn down like that. 107 00:05:43,266 --> 00:05:45,800 "Zelda: Breath of the Wild" is coming out soon. 108 00:05:45,800 --> 00:05:48,400 This is a huge moment for me. 109 00:05:48,400 --> 00:05:52,266 ♪♪ 110 00:05:52,266 --> 00:05:54,900 [ Birds chirping ] 111 00:05:54,900 --> 00:05:57,100 ♪♪ 112 00:05:57,100 --> 00:06:02,733 My peak viewership back in the day was 18,300. 113 00:06:02,733 --> 00:06:05,300 So if I don't get 20,000 viewers, 114 00:06:05,300 --> 00:06:09,600 I'm always failing to outdo my past, 115 00:06:09,600 --> 00:06:12,066 and I can't stand for that. 116 00:06:12,066 --> 00:06:14,000 [ Computer dings ] 117 00:06:14,000 --> 00:06:21,266 ♪♪ 118 00:06:21,266 --> 00:06:24,533 -[ Gasps ] 119 00:06:24,533 --> 00:06:27,900 -I know that I'm still capable of everything. 120 00:06:27,900 --> 00:06:30,133 And I'm gonna surpass everything. 121 00:06:30,133 --> 00:06:31,733 [ Indistinct shouting ] 122 00:06:31,733 --> 00:06:33,366 Everything I've ever done before, 123 00:06:33,366 --> 00:06:36,566 I'm surpassing all of it. 124 00:06:36,566 --> 00:06:40,533 Maybe they'll start to see who I am... 125 00:06:40,533 --> 00:06:42,066 [ Crowd cheers ] 126 00:06:42,066 --> 00:06:44,466 ...and finally have it in their hearts to respect me. 127 00:06:44,466 --> 00:06:49,000 ♪♪ 128 00:06:49,000 --> 00:06:50,133 [ Monkeys chittering ] 129 00:06:50,133 --> 00:06:52,533 [ Birds chirping ] 130 00:06:52,533 --> 00:06:57,933 ♪♪ 131 00:06:57,933 --> 00:07:01,133 ♪♪ 132 00:07:01,133 --> 00:07:03,533 [ Computer dinging ] 133 00:07:03,533 --> 00:07:07,000 Is anybody out there? 134 00:07:07,000 --> 00:07:08,500 [ Computer dings ] 135 00:07:08,500 --> 00:07:10,833 Is anybody out there? 136 00:07:12,600 --> 00:07:13,966 [ Computer dings ] 137 00:07:13,966 --> 00:07:18,166 [ Toothbrush vibrating ] 138 00:07:18,166 --> 00:07:21,066 What is the Internet to me? It's connection. 139 00:07:21,066 --> 00:07:22,233 Welcome back. 140 00:07:22,233 --> 00:07:23,733 -[ Keys clacking ] -Okay. 141 00:07:23,733 --> 00:07:25,766 [ Mouse clicking ] 142 00:07:37,500 --> 00:07:39,033 [ Computer dings ] 143 00:07:39,033 --> 00:07:41,400 Soylent -- "Ready-to-drink food." 144 00:07:41,400 --> 00:07:44,766 It's so convenient. 145 00:07:44,766 --> 00:07:46,800 [ Keys clacking ] 146 00:07:46,800 --> 00:07:50,733 It's like an entire experience that I've created. 147 00:07:50,733 --> 00:07:52,833 The way I sound, the way I behave. 148 00:07:52,833 --> 00:07:54,033 [ Exhales heavily ] 149 00:07:54,033 --> 00:07:55,766 [ Keys clacking ] 150 00:07:55,766 --> 00:07:59,766 [ Exhales heavily ] Even though it's all online, 151 00:07:59,766 --> 00:08:01,533 it's still very real. 152 00:08:01,533 --> 00:08:04,566 [ Keys clacking ] 153 00:08:04,566 --> 00:08:07,900 I'm dumping my life into it, and it almost becomes my soul. 154 00:08:07,900 --> 00:08:10,900 [ Computer ringing ] 155 00:08:19,300 --> 00:08:20,633 [ Beep ] 156 00:08:20,633 --> 00:08:24,466 Hey. -Hi, Angel. 157 00:08:24,466 --> 00:08:26,966 How are you? 158 00:08:26,966 --> 00:08:29,300 -I'm good. 159 00:08:29,300 --> 00:08:31,666 ♪♪ 160 00:08:31,666 --> 00:08:34,733 -How are you feeling about your body and everything? 161 00:08:34,733 --> 00:08:40,833 -Mostly good, but I think I've had a couple setbacks this year. 162 00:08:40,833 --> 00:08:44,066 -I don't like that. -I know. 163 00:08:44,066 --> 00:08:45,800 -You ever get invited to, like, 164 00:08:45,800 --> 00:08:48,833 these gaming competitions anymore? 165 00:08:48,833 --> 00:08:52,000 -I don't go anymore. 166 00:08:52,000 --> 00:08:54,666 -Have you met any of your neighbors? 167 00:08:54,666 --> 00:08:57,600 -No. 168 00:08:57,600 --> 00:09:00,233 I mean, I don't want to. 169 00:09:00,233 --> 00:09:02,700 -No one special? 170 00:09:02,700 --> 00:09:04,933 -No. I'm just alone. 171 00:09:04,933 --> 00:09:07,766 -I know. I don't like that. 172 00:09:07,766 --> 00:09:10,300 -[ Mouse clicks ] -I'm actually okay with that. 173 00:09:10,300 --> 00:09:12,600 I mostly want to connect online. 174 00:09:12,600 --> 00:09:16,266 -All I care about is your happiness. 175 00:09:16,266 --> 00:09:17,600 -I love you. -Bye, Angel. 176 00:09:17,600 --> 00:09:19,733 -Bye. -[ Mouse clicks ] 177 00:09:23,000 --> 00:09:26,200 Being a streamer, I have a skewed relationship 178 00:09:26,200 --> 00:09:28,366 with the people who watch me. 179 00:09:28,366 --> 00:09:30,833 It's like a many-to-one relationship. 180 00:09:30,833 --> 00:09:33,333 [ Computer dings ] 181 00:09:33,333 --> 00:09:37,366 I don't know, Ness. I don't know. 182 00:09:37,366 --> 00:09:43,033 [ Computer dinging ] 183 00:09:43,033 --> 00:09:46,066 I feel kind of like unrelatable. 184 00:09:46,066 --> 00:09:48,266 I really do struggle to connect. 185 00:09:48,266 --> 00:09:50,700 [ Computer dings ] 186 00:09:50,700 --> 00:09:53,233 [ Sighs ] 187 00:09:56,600 --> 00:09:59,100 ♪♪ 188 00:09:59,100 --> 00:10:02,500 I crave physical affection sometimes. 189 00:10:02,500 --> 00:10:03,966 [ Computer dings ] 190 00:10:03,966 --> 00:10:06,333 It's a natural thing to crave. 191 00:10:06,333 --> 00:10:08,433 [ Computer dings ] 192 00:10:08,433 --> 00:10:13,600 ♪♪ 193 00:10:13,600 --> 00:10:18,966 ♪♪ 194 00:10:18,966 --> 00:10:20,966 [ Computer dings ] 195 00:10:20,966 --> 00:10:25,000 ♪♪ 196 00:10:25,000 --> 00:10:27,466 [ Computer dings ] 197 00:10:27,466 --> 00:10:31,866 ♪♪ 198 00:10:31,866 --> 00:10:34,166 [ Computer dings ] 199 00:10:34,166 --> 00:10:41,200 ♪♪ 200 00:10:41,200 --> 00:10:43,433 [ Computer dings ] 201 00:10:43,433 --> 00:10:47,633 ♪♪ 202 00:10:47,633 --> 00:10:50,700 [ Computer dinging ] 203 00:10:50,700 --> 00:10:57,566 ♪♪ 204 00:10:57,566 --> 00:11:03,766 ♪♪ 205 00:11:03,766 --> 00:11:06,433 [ Dinging continues ] 206 00:11:06,433 --> 00:11:13,533 ♪♪ 207 00:11:13,533 --> 00:11:21,100 ♪♪ 208 00:11:21,100 --> 00:11:28,333 ♪♪ 209 00:11:28,333 --> 00:11:30,866 [ Mouse clicking ] 210 00:11:30,866 --> 00:11:39,366 ♪♪ 211 00:11:39,366 --> 00:11:42,700 [ Scroll wheel clicking ] 212 00:11:42,700 --> 00:11:45,966 -Look at this. -[ Pounding on door ] 213 00:11:45,966 --> 00:11:48,033 [ Explosions ] 214 00:11:51,200 --> 00:11:56,300 [ Indistinct shouting ] 215 00:11:56,300 --> 00:11:58,400 -Get on the ground now! -Get on the ground! 216 00:11:58,400 --> 00:12:00,100 -People don't like what I do, 217 00:12:00,100 --> 00:12:02,100 they get my information and call the cops. 218 00:12:02,100 --> 00:12:05,166 -Separate your feet. 219 00:12:05,166 --> 00:12:08,866 -[ Mouse clicks ] -I don't need this right now. 220 00:12:08,866 --> 00:12:11,133 [ Computer dings ] 221 00:12:11,133 --> 00:12:12,933 It's okay. 222 00:12:12,933 --> 00:12:15,533 I'm gonna, like, take a bath. 223 00:12:15,533 --> 00:12:18,766 ♪♪ 224 00:12:18,766 --> 00:12:20,966 [ Bubbles burbling ] 225 00:12:20,966 --> 00:12:23,200 My first real memory... 226 00:12:23,200 --> 00:12:26,600 ♪♪ 227 00:12:26,600 --> 00:12:29,600 Is coming out of the bath naked 228 00:12:29,600 --> 00:12:31,933 'because my dad had installed a game. 229 00:12:31,933 --> 00:12:34,266 [ Video game beeping, whirring ] 230 00:12:34,266 --> 00:12:39,933 ♪♪ 231 00:12:39,933 --> 00:12:41,533 Standing on this platform, 232 00:12:41,533 --> 00:12:45,866 I was struck with a feeling this was a special place. 233 00:12:45,866 --> 00:12:48,633 I was alone on top of the world. 234 00:12:48,633 --> 00:12:51,733 ♪♪ 235 00:12:51,733 --> 00:12:55,833 For years, I felt like I was an alien stranded on planet Earth. 236 00:12:55,833 --> 00:13:04,600 ♪♪ 237 00:13:04,600 --> 00:13:06,433 While the other kids played outside, 238 00:13:06,433 --> 00:13:10,466 I was in my room, wired in. 239 00:13:10,466 --> 00:13:12,666 While my classmates learned to drive, 240 00:13:12,666 --> 00:13:15,866 I was setting world records in "Beetle Adventure Racing." 241 00:13:15,866 --> 00:13:18,033 -Whoo! 242 00:13:18,033 --> 00:13:22,300 ♪♪ 243 00:13:22,300 --> 00:13:24,733 -One day I forgot to go to school 244 00:13:24,733 --> 00:13:28,600 because I was so absorbed with designing my own video game, 245 00:13:28,600 --> 00:13:31,066 a MegaZeux game where you travel through space 246 00:13:31,066 --> 00:13:33,266 and save the world from evil robots. 247 00:13:33,266 --> 00:13:39,766 ♪♪ 248 00:13:39,766 --> 00:13:43,966 I even programmed my schoolyard bully Brad as one of the bosses. 249 00:13:43,966 --> 00:13:46,266 [ Lasers firing ] 250 00:13:46,266 --> 00:13:53,000 ♪♪ 251 00:13:53,000 --> 00:13:58,466 ♪♪ 252 00:13:58,466 --> 00:14:00,133 [ Alarm blares ] 253 00:14:00,133 --> 00:14:03,100 Suddenly, my mom came home and saw I wasn't at school. 254 00:14:03,100 --> 00:14:09,466 ♪♪ 255 00:14:09,466 --> 00:14:11,200 But she wasn't mad. 256 00:14:11,200 --> 00:14:14,300 My mom knew I was absorbed in a creative process. 257 00:14:14,300 --> 00:14:24,266 ♪♪ 258 00:14:24,266 --> 00:14:34,266 ♪♪ 259 00:14:34,266 --> 00:14:43,700 ♪♪ 260 00:14:43,700 --> 00:14:47,500 I want to go on a bigger, better journey 261 00:14:47,500 --> 00:14:49,500 than "Zelda: Ocarina of Time," 262 00:14:49,500 --> 00:14:52,133 and it's gonna be a beautiful new revival. 263 00:14:52,133 --> 00:14:54,433 ♪♪ 264 00:14:54,433 --> 00:14:57,266 -6, 5, 4, 265 00:14:57,266 --> 00:14:59,933 3, 2, 1! 266 00:14:59,933 --> 00:15:02,233 [ Cheers and applause ] 267 00:15:02,233 --> 00:15:05,166 ♪♪ 268 00:15:05,166 --> 00:15:07,533 -Yee-haw! 269 00:15:07,533 --> 00:15:08,633 -So, I got one. 270 00:15:08,633 --> 00:15:10,400 Time to go home and set this baby up. 271 00:15:10,400 --> 00:15:13,633 -It's finally happening! 272 00:15:13,633 --> 00:15:15,700 Ahh! 273 00:15:15,700 --> 00:15:18,800 ♪♪ 274 00:15:18,800 --> 00:15:22,000 -Alright. 275 00:15:22,000 --> 00:15:24,266 These controllers are tiny. 276 00:15:24,266 --> 00:15:31,733 ♪♪ 277 00:15:31,733 --> 00:15:34,466 We haven't even started playing. 278 00:15:34,466 --> 00:15:36,566 1,000. Thank you all. Thank you. 279 00:15:36,566 --> 00:15:37,966 -[ Computer dings ] -That's very cool. 280 00:15:37,966 --> 00:15:40,933 Thank you all for tuning in for my -- my new journey. 281 00:15:40,933 --> 00:15:44,100 [ Computer dinging ] 282 00:15:44,100 --> 00:15:46,533 You know, today feels like Christmas or something. 283 00:15:46,533 --> 00:15:48,900 [ Computer dings ] 284 00:15:48,900 --> 00:15:50,366 Hey, D-Gurl. 285 00:15:50,366 --> 00:15:52,100 Oh, I guess you can't hear me, but thank you. 286 00:15:52,100 --> 00:15:54,000 Hello. 287 00:15:54,000 --> 00:15:55,900 ♪♪ 288 00:15:55,900 --> 00:15:57,933 Here we are. 289 00:15:57,933 --> 00:16:06,666 ♪♪ 290 00:16:06,666 --> 00:16:09,900 We've just started. You're at the beginning here. 291 00:16:09,900 --> 00:16:13,500 This is the very beginning, Shrine of Resurrection. 292 00:16:13,500 --> 00:16:18,766 ♪♪ 293 00:16:18,766 --> 00:16:21,566 We're about to leave this cave. 294 00:16:21,566 --> 00:16:25,400 ♪♪ 295 00:16:25,400 --> 00:16:27,500 There's a huge world. 296 00:16:27,500 --> 00:16:31,600 [ Computer dinging ] 297 00:16:31,600 --> 00:16:33,333 -You fought valiantly 298 00:16:33,333 --> 00:16:36,500 when your fate took an unfortunate turn. 299 00:16:36,500 --> 00:16:40,700 Here you now stand, revitalized 100 years later. 300 00:16:40,700 --> 00:16:47,133 ♪♪ 301 00:16:47,133 --> 00:16:50,400 -This truly feels more like an adventure 302 00:16:50,400 --> 00:16:52,300 than any game I've ever played. 303 00:16:52,300 --> 00:16:53,733 I'm really happy right now. 304 00:16:53,733 --> 00:16:55,833 [ Computer dinging ] 305 00:16:55,833 --> 00:16:59,800 ♪♪ 306 00:16:59,800 --> 00:17:04,000 -May I ask, do you really remember me? 307 00:17:04,000 --> 00:17:06,400 [ Computer dings ] 308 00:17:06,400 --> 00:17:08,066 -Oh, I'm featured right now, am I? 309 00:17:08,066 --> 00:17:10,800 [ Chuckles ] That's actually pretty cool. 310 00:17:10,800 --> 00:17:14,333 [ Mouse clicking ] 311 00:17:14,333 --> 00:17:18,866 Welcome, everyone who's watching from the front page. 312 00:17:18,866 --> 00:17:21,100 [ Computer dings ] 313 00:17:21,100 --> 00:17:25,900 ♪♪ 314 00:17:25,900 --> 00:17:27,200 Damn. Really? 315 00:17:27,200 --> 00:17:29,966 [ Chuckles ] Is there really 1,600? 316 00:17:29,966 --> 00:17:33,566 Alright. Welcome, everyone. 317 00:17:33,566 --> 00:17:35,400 [ Computer dings ] 318 00:17:35,400 --> 00:17:37,566 - Ya-ha! Ya-ha! 319 00:17:37,566 --> 00:17:39,033 -Nataran, thank you very much. 320 00:17:39,033 --> 00:17:43,566 -Ya-ha! Y-Y-Y-Y-Y-Y-Y-Ya-ha! 321 00:17:43,566 --> 00:17:46,000 -3,000. That's insane. Thank you. 322 00:17:46,000 --> 00:17:48,466 ♪♪ 323 00:17:48,466 --> 00:17:51,233 -[ Cash register dings ] -Thank you very much, D-Gurl. 324 00:17:51,233 --> 00:17:54,333 ♪♪ 325 00:17:54,333 --> 00:17:56,533 [ Computer dings ] 326 00:17:56,533 --> 00:17:58,533 What do you do for a living? 327 00:17:58,533 --> 00:18:01,633 And feel free to not answer any of this, obviously. 328 00:18:01,633 --> 00:18:03,866 [ Computer dinging ] 329 00:18:06,800 --> 00:18:09,133 [ Computer dings ] 330 00:18:09,133 --> 00:18:14,966 Oh, golly gosh, I didn't even know your name was Alex. 331 00:18:14,966 --> 00:18:17,666 Now I know. -[ Computer dings ] 332 00:18:17,666 --> 00:18:20,066 -[ Laughs ] 333 00:18:20,066 --> 00:18:22,000 I'm from another galaxy. 334 00:18:22,000 --> 00:18:23,066 [ Computer dings ] 335 00:18:23,066 --> 00:18:25,166 Uh, no, I live alone. 336 00:18:25,166 --> 00:18:27,000 I kind of like to have my own space, 337 00:18:27,000 --> 00:18:30,266 but also, if I'm alone... 338 00:18:33,100 --> 00:18:34,900 ...then it's lonely. 339 00:18:34,900 --> 00:18:37,533 Well, I should probably go to sleep. 340 00:18:37,533 --> 00:18:38,733 [ Computer dings ] 341 00:18:38,733 --> 00:18:42,200 Oh, you just got home. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. 342 00:18:42,200 --> 00:18:46,400 I gotta go to bed. I have to. 343 00:18:46,400 --> 00:18:49,533 I guess I kind of stream so that sometimes 344 00:18:49,533 --> 00:18:51,433 I am part of people's daily routine. 345 00:18:51,433 --> 00:18:54,066 It's kind of cool to have people tuning in regularly 346 00:18:54,066 --> 00:18:59,600 and kind of coming along the journey with me. 347 00:18:59,600 --> 00:19:01,933 Uh, peace out. Goodbye. 348 00:19:03,666 --> 00:19:05,600 -...that you can bow-spin to do that? 349 00:19:05,600 --> 00:19:07,300 But bow-spinning also doesn't get as many hits, 350 00:19:07,300 --> 00:19:10,900 so you need more stamina, so... 351 00:19:10,900 --> 00:19:12,333 -"Narci," what's up? 352 00:19:12,333 --> 00:19:19,600 ♪ Catarina says ♪ 353 00:19:19,600 --> 00:19:23,066 -D-Gurl. I like your username. 354 00:19:23,066 --> 00:19:25,700 The D stands [bleep] and "death to your foes." 355 00:19:25,700 --> 00:19:28,166 -D-Gurl, have you ever had Soylent? 356 00:19:28,166 --> 00:19:31,100 It tastes really good. 357 00:19:31,100 --> 00:19:33,800 -I'll go to bat for Narci on a lot of things, 358 00:19:33,800 --> 00:19:36,400 but not for that [bleep] Soylent [bleep] 359 00:19:36,400 --> 00:19:37,966 -What was that on the ground? 360 00:19:37,966 --> 00:19:39,666 Was that like a nut or something? 361 00:19:39,666 --> 00:19:42,100 [ Computer dings ] 362 00:19:42,100 --> 00:19:43,833 Or should I say "nut"? 363 00:19:43,833 --> 00:19:45,666 Nut. Nut. 364 00:19:45,666 --> 00:19:47,633 -This is the way I am to people I like. 365 00:19:47,633 --> 00:19:51,633 So if I'm giving you [bleep] it's probably 'cause I like you. 366 00:19:51,633 --> 00:19:54,066 [ Cash register dinging ] 367 00:19:54,066 --> 00:19:57,766 ♪♪ 368 00:19:57,766 --> 00:20:00,200 [ Computer dinging ] 369 00:20:00,200 --> 00:20:03,366 ♪♪ 370 00:20:03,366 --> 00:20:04,700 -[ Chuckles ] 371 00:20:04,700 --> 00:20:08,233 -I really love the people here, honestly. 372 00:20:08,233 --> 00:20:10,166 Not to get all, like, soppy and [bleep] 373 00:20:10,166 --> 00:20:12,766 -I'm getting a little emotional. 374 00:20:12,766 --> 00:20:14,433 This is magical. 375 00:20:14,433 --> 00:20:16,500 "Oh, my God, there's a star." 376 00:20:16,500 --> 00:20:21,533 ♪♪ 377 00:20:21,533 --> 00:20:24,233 D-Gurl, will you be my D-girlfriend? 378 00:20:24,233 --> 00:20:26,500 [ Computer dings ] 379 00:20:26,500 --> 00:20:30,600 ♪♪ 380 00:20:30,600 --> 00:20:33,733 [ Ding! Ding! Ding! Ding! ] 381 00:20:33,733 --> 00:20:35,466 -I think I'm dating Narcissa, right? 382 00:20:35,466 --> 00:20:37,400 I don't know. 383 00:20:37,400 --> 00:20:44,733 ♪♪ 384 00:20:44,733 --> 00:20:52,600 ♪♪ 385 00:20:52,600 --> 00:20:55,233 [ Bird cries ] 386 00:20:55,233 --> 00:20:57,333 ♪♪ 387 00:20:57,333 --> 00:20:59,333 -"I like the view up here." 388 00:20:59,333 --> 00:21:02,333 I feel like I'm in a high point of my life suddenly. 389 00:21:02,333 --> 00:21:05,466 And I think this game is partially to thank for that. 390 00:21:05,466 --> 00:21:07,633 [ Thudding ] 391 00:21:09,766 --> 00:21:11,333 Someone chopped down a tree 392 00:21:11,333 --> 00:21:13,333 and, like, launched it super far, 393 00:21:13,333 --> 00:21:15,766 but then Link pulls the paraglider, 394 00:21:15,766 --> 00:21:18,833 and it actually maintains the momentum 395 00:21:18,833 --> 00:21:20,466 from the ragdoll physics. 396 00:21:20,466 --> 00:21:21,900 And I'm like, "Oh, my God." 397 00:21:21,900 --> 00:21:24,033 [ Computer dinging ] 398 00:21:24,033 --> 00:21:30,466 ♪♪ 399 00:21:30,466 --> 00:21:32,800 Okay, like, look at this tree, right? 400 00:21:32,800 --> 00:21:36,500 ♪♪ 401 00:21:36,500 --> 00:21:38,466 This looks bad, actually. 402 00:21:38,466 --> 00:21:40,833 This one right here. This one. 403 00:21:40,833 --> 00:21:44,600 ♪♪ 404 00:21:44,600 --> 00:21:46,933 [ Link grunting ] 405 00:21:46,933 --> 00:21:51,633 ♪♪ 406 00:21:51,633 --> 00:21:53,600 [ Chuckles ] 407 00:21:53,600 --> 00:21:57,300 ♪♪ 408 00:21:57,300 --> 00:21:59,033 Aw, damn it. 409 00:21:59,033 --> 00:22:01,733 I guess we want to go more this way. 410 00:22:01,733 --> 00:22:07,066 ♪♪ 411 00:22:07,066 --> 00:22:08,833 -New voicemail from Dad. 412 00:22:08,833 --> 00:22:12,066 -Hey, Narcissa. Just calling up to say hi. 413 00:22:12,066 --> 00:22:13,600 Give me a call sometime. 414 00:22:13,600 --> 00:22:15,166 Alright. I love you. 415 00:22:15,166 --> 00:22:17,066 -New voicemail from Mom. 416 00:22:17,066 --> 00:22:19,966 -Hi, my darling. Miss you terribly. 417 00:22:19,966 --> 00:22:22,200 Alright, sweetheart. Hang in there. 418 00:22:22,200 --> 00:22:25,100 I love you. Call me when you're free. 419 00:22:25,100 --> 00:22:26,666 Bye. 420 00:22:26,666 --> 00:22:28,966 ♪♪ 421 00:22:28,966 --> 00:22:31,533 -Ohh. 422 00:22:31,533 --> 00:22:35,333 ♪♪ 423 00:22:35,333 --> 00:22:38,033 Ugh. Wait, why? 424 00:22:38,033 --> 00:22:40,600 ♪♪ 425 00:22:40,600 --> 00:22:42,433 Alright, this is doable, I think. 426 00:22:42,433 --> 00:22:44,466 We can do this. 427 00:22:44,466 --> 00:22:46,033 Let's [bleep] go. 428 00:22:46,033 --> 00:22:48,166 ♪♪ 429 00:22:48,166 --> 00:22:50,600 Now, that's what I call speedrunning. 430 00:22:52,100 --> 00:22:54,900 -She just started a run. Let's go. 431 00:22:54,900 --> 00:22:58,400 -I'm disrupting speedrunning, much like I did in 2011. 432 00:22:58,400 --> 00:23:01,666 I want to be the single greatest player of this game. 433 00:23:01,666 --> 00:23:03,233 9 hours and 38 minutes. 434 00:23:03,233 --> 00:23:04,733 5:04.11. 435 00:23:04,733 --> 00:23:06,933 3:51.51. 436 00:23:06,933 --> 00:23:08,566 There's a whole journey to it. 437 00:23:08,566 --> 00:23:10,333 There's the magic to it, with the streams, 438 00:23:10,333 --> 00:23:12,233 learning and improving, 439 00:23:12,233 --> 00:23:14,600 keeping people company during lonely nights. 440 00:23:14,600 --> 00:23:20,633 ♪♪ 441 00:23:30,300 --> 00:23:32,700 I can't get up this. It's too high up. 442 00:23:32,700 --> 00:23:34,700 But I think I can jump it with this. 443 00:23:34,700 --> 00:23:37,566 You take a bomb, you place the bomb. 444 00:23:37,566 --> 00:23:40,633 Then it's, like, shield, backflip and detonate, 445 00:23:40,633 --> 00:23:42,433 forward air jump, 446 00:23:42,433 --> 00:23:45,766 shield-surf, paraglider. 447 00:23:45,766 --> 00:23:47,866 And then you climb up the wall. 448 00:23:47,866 --> 00:23:49,933 And you have to do it all really fast and accurately. 449 00:23:49,933 --> 00:23:53,066 So let me try. It's like... 450 00:23:53,066 --> 00:23:54,333 [ Explosion ] 451 00:23:54,333 --> 00:23:56,433 Wait. It's hard to do. 452 00:23:58,933 --> 00:24:01,066 [ Explosion ] 453 00:24:01,066 --> 00:24:03,266 Oh, my God. Come on. 454 00:24:03,266 --> 00:24:05,700 [ Explosion ] 455 00:24:05,700 --> 00:24:07,833 Come on! Why didn't that work, though? 456 00:24:07,833 --> 00:24:09,800 I started today feeling very adequate, 457 00:24:09,800 --> 00:24:12,266 and now I feel, like, kind of inadequate. 458 00:24:16,666 --> 00:24:19,866 It's okay. It's okay for me to be a mess on stream sometimes. 459 00:24:19,866 --> 00:24:21,533 It's okay. 460 00:24:21,533 --> 00:24:24,166 I have self-image issues. Like, a lot. 461 00:24:26,033 --> 00:24:29,566 Being trans, you walk this fine line 462 00:24:29,566 --> 00:24:34,200 between being, like, a goddess and a monster. 463 00:24:38,433 --> 00:24:40,000 It's hard for me to explain this, 464 00:24:40,000 --> 00:24:43,533 but sometimes it feels like I... 465 00:24:43,533 --> 00:24:47,900 am really not... 466 00:24:47,900 --> 00:24:49,500 enough or -- 467 00:24:49,500 --> 00:24:51,433 I'm not enough or I'm not, like, 468 00:24:51,433 --> 00:24:53,533 where I want to be with myself. 469 00:24:53,533 --> 00:24:56,433 I don't want to feel like I'm, like, this... 470 00:24:56,433 --> 00:24:58,466 [ Knock on door ] 471 00:24:58,466 --> 00:25:07,333 ♪♪ 472 00:25:07,333 --> 00:25:17,066 ♪♪ 473 00:25:17,066 --> 00:25:19,033 [ Knock on door ] 474 00:25:19,033 --> 00:25:20,366 [ Mouse clicks ] 475 00:25:20,366 --> 00:25:28,000 ♪♪ 476 00:25:28,000 --> 00:25:36,666 ♪♪ 477 00:25:36,666 --> 00:25:37,866 [ Mouse clicks ] 478 00:25:44,966 --> 00:25:46,733 A group of people showed up 479 00:25:46,733 --> 00:25:48,866 and were like, "We're with something. 480 00:25:48,866 --> 00:25:50,466 We're looking for Jake, 481 00:25:50,466 --> 00:25:52,633 for people who are having trouble." 482 00:25:52,633 --> 00:25:53,966 And then I said, "I'm not Jake." 483 00:25:53,966 --> 00:25:55,900 And then they said, "Well, what's your name?" 484 00:25:55,900 --> 00:25:58,966 And then I was like... 485 00:25:58,966 --> 00:26:02,066 "If you don't know my name, then go away." 486 00:26:02,066 --> 00:26:05,100 And then they're like, "Okay. But can we leave a card?" 487 00:26:05,100 --> 00:26:07,066 And I'm like, "Okay. Fine." 488 00:26:09,866 --> 00:26:13,033 "Mental Health Crisis Services." 489 00:26:14,633 --> 00:26:16,366 I wish I asked them more questions. 490 00:26:16,366 --> 00:26:18,833 Like, how the [bleep] -- Like... 491 00:26:18,833 --> 00:26:20,866 Why are you here? 492 00:26:29,133 --> 00:26:30,833 [ Sobs ] 493 00:26:33,800 --> 00:26:43,266 ♪♪ 494 00:26:43,266 --> 00:26:52,033 ♪♪ 495 00:26:52,033 --> 00:27:01,266 ♪♪ 496 00:27:01,266 --> 00:27:10,500 ♪♪ 497 00:27:10,500 --> 00:27:18,666 ♪♪ 498 00:27:18,666 --> 00:27:22,833 ♪♪ 499 00:27:22,833 --> 00:27:24,766 [ Crow caws ] 500 00:27:24,766 --> 00:27:30,000 ♪♪ 501 00:27:30,000 --> 00:27:31,566 [ Indistinct shouting ] 502 00:27:31,566 --> 00:27:33,566 [ Screaming ] 503 00:27:33,566 --> 00:27:41,800 ♪♪ 504 00:27:41,800 --> 00:27:45,166 I think I've been very desperate for any attention, 505 00:27:45,166 --> 00:27:48,433 and thus the people who show me negative attention, 506 00:27:48,433 --> 00:27:50,233 I seek it out. 507 00:27:52,133 --> 00:27:55,266 I've read more hate than you can imagine. 508 00:27:55,266 --> 00:27:57,533 I've read thousands and thousands 509 00:27:57,533 --> 00:27:59,233 of hate messages towards me. 510 00:28:00,500 --> 00:28:03,833 "Kill trans people." Like, "Kill these freaks." 511 00:28:03,833 --> 00:28:05,233 -Watching this stream right now 512 00:28:05,233 --> 00:28:07,466 and hopes this woman kills herself. 513 00:28:07,466 --> 00:28:09,800 -Don't be surprised when you find Cosmo dead. 514 00:28:09,800 --> 00:28:11,533 -Narcissa is [bleep] in the head. 515 00:28:11,533 --> 00:28:14,666 -Sideways for attention! Long ways for results! 516 00:28:14,666 --> 00:28:16,133 -[ Gasps ] 517 00:28:16,133 --> 00:28:17,800 [ Glass shatters ] 518 00:28:17,800 --> 00:28:20,266 -People reacted really negatively to anything 519 00:28:20,266 --> 00:28:22,466 that was apparently some sort of weakness. 520 00:28:22,466 --> 00:28:24,566 So I [bleep] blew up the weaknesses. 521 00:28:24,566 --> 00:28:26,600 I pressed myself up against the wall 522 00:28:26,600 --> 00:28:28,600 and did some crazy [bleep]. 523 00:28:28,600 --> 00:28:31,200 Please support me. Please. 524 00:28:31,200 --> 00:28:34,100 -Flush all your credibility and dignity down the toilet. 525 00:28:34,100 --> 00:28:35,433 -Okay! Would you shut up?! 526 00:28:35,433 --> 00:28:37,333 -Maybe I've caused a little damage. 527 00:28:37,333 --> 00:28:40,133 Certainly other people have caused some damage to me. 528 00:28:40,133 --> 00:28:42,400 It's like I want to respond to all their comments. 529 00:28:42,400 --> 00:28:44,766 "What's going on in your life on the other side of the screen?" 530 00:28:44,766 --> 00:28:47,133 Another [bleep] coward. Goodbye. 531 00:28:47,133 --> 00:28:49,633 You are coming into random people's chats, 532 00:28:49,633 --> 00:28:52,433 being a bigot, being a total piece of [bleep]. 533 00:28:52,433 --> 00:28:55,600 I complain about people being negative towards me. 534 00:28:55,600 --> 00:28:58,700 ♪♪ 535 00:28:58,700 --> 00:29:01,100 Then it causes another whole group of negativity 536 00:29:01,100 --> 00:29:02,833 to spawn off of that. 537 00:29:02,833 --> 00:29:05,766 [ Bokoblins laughing ] 538 00:29:05,766 --> 00:29:07,566 I can almost bait these people 539 00:29:07,566 --> 00:29:09,400 into spreading my image all over the place, 540 00:29:09,400 --> 00:29:11,266 even though it's really negative. 541 00:29:11,266 --> 00:29:17,566 ♪♪ 542 00:29:17,566 --> 00:29:19,333 I'm so lost. 543 00:29:20,566 --> 00:29:23,800 How do I navigate this [bleep] online experience? 544 00:29:26,033 --> 00:29:27,800 [ Mouse clicking ] 545 00:29:32,833 --> 00:29:34,500 [ Line ringing ] 546 00:29:34,500 --> 00:29:35,633 -Hi, Angel. 547 00:29:35,633 --> 00:29:36,833 -Hi. 548 00:29:36,833 --> 00:29:40,233 ♪♪ 549 00:29:40,233 --> 00:29:41,833 -How are you? 550 00:29:41,833 --> 00:29:44,400 -I've been a bit emotional lately. 551 00:29:44,400 --> 00:29:46,200 -It's great to be emotional. 552 00:29:46,200 --> 00:29:48,000 And it's great to be deep 553 00:29:48,000 --> 00:29:51,300 and aware, which you are, of the world and everything, 554 00:29:51,300 --> 00:29:55,533 but, mostly, you shouldn't be crying a lot. 555 00:29:55,533 --> 00:29:57,400 -I know. I know. 556 00:29:57,400 --> 00:29:59,233 -You know. 557 00:30:01,966 --> 00:30:05,033 I haven't seen you in three years. 558 00:30:05,033 --> 00:30:06,633 -No! No! 559 00:30:06,633 --> 00:30:08,066 -I know. 560 00:30:08,066 --> 00:30:13,933 ♪♪ 561 00:30:13,933 --> 00:30:17,333 I should probably be calling more often. 562 00:30:17,333 --> 00:30:18,700 -Yeah, I know. 563 00:30:18,700 --> 00:30:21,933 It's all I do, is think about you every day. 564 00:30:21,933 --> 00:30:24,666 -Bye-bye. -Bye-bye. 565 00:30:26,400 --> 00:30:28,433 -I feel like I'm in a mental rut 566 00:30:28,433 --> 00:30:31,333 and I'm never gonna pull myself out of it. 567 00:30:35,533 --> 00:30:37,266 Okay. 568 00:30:37,266 --> 00:30:38,600 If anyone in my chat 569 00:30:38,600 --> 00:30:42,000 is, like, a counselor or a therapist 570 00:30:42,000 --> 00:30:45,433 dealing with people who have depression, 571 00:30:45,433 --> 00:30:47,933 let's have a conversation publicly. 572 00:30:49,766 --> 00:30:53,733 Twitch must be my all and my everything. 573 00:30:53,733 --> 00:30:57,133 It must be. It has to be public. 574 00:30:58,600 --> 00:31:01,633 No. Stop doubting the power of the Internet. 575 00:31:10,366 --> 00:31:12,800 I feel isolated. I feel it. 576 00:31:12,800 --> 00:31:15,533 ♪♪ 577 00:31:15,533 --> 00:31:16,766 I feel really lonely. 578 00:31:16,766 --> 00:31:18,733 I don't feel like I have friends. 579 00:31:18,733 --> 00:31:22,166 ♪♪ 580 00:31:22,166 --> 00:31:24,066 I have this queen-size bed. 581 00:31:24,066 --> 00:31:25,633 And it's like all I want to do 582 00:31:25,633 --> 00:31:29,033 is, like, roll around with someone. 583 00:31:29,033 --> 00:31:33,466 [ Chuckles ] And, like, I just don't. 584 00:31:33,466 --> 00:31:36,766 ♪♪ 585 00:31:36,766 --> 00:31:38,733 I'm just alone. 586 00:31:38,733 --> 00:31:45,233 ♪♪ 587 00:31:45,233 --> 00:31:49,200 [ Rapid beeping ] 588 00:31:49,200 --> 00:31:52,900 -Three! Two! One! Go! 589 00:31:52,900 --> 00:31:54,700 ♪♪ 590 00:31:54,700 --> 00:31:56,900 -It's me. -It's D-Gurl. 591 00:31:58,533 --> 00:32:00,833 -This is only our first date. Come on. 592 00:32:00,833 --> 00:32:03,433 [ Laughs ] I opened up Narci's fridge. 593 00:32:03,433 --> 00:32:07,666 It...is only Soylent 594 00:32:07,666 --> 00:32:11,200 and then a [bleep] jar of peanut butter. 595 00:32:11,200 --> 00:32:14,566 I died the moment I opened it. So... 596 00:32:14,566 --> 00:32:16,433 She keeps her room dark. 597 00:32:16,433 --> 00:32:17,900 [ Chuckles ] 598 00:32:17,900 --> 00:32:20,400 [Bleep] garbage bags on the window. 599 00:32:20,400 --> 00:32:23,166 So it's kind of a nightmare. 600 00:32:23,166 --> 00:32:26,700 I'm gonna be nesting so [bleep] hard. 601 00:32:26,700 --> 00:32:28,100 -Nice. -Nesting. 602 00:32:28,100 --> 00:32:29,866 We're gonna upgrade [bleep] apartment. 603 00:32:29,866 --> 00:32:30,900 -Upgrade. 604 00:32:30,900 --> 00:32:33,666 -I'll [bleep] upgrade it. 605 00:32:33,666 --> 00:32:35,666 -Game! 606 00:32:35,666 --> 00:32:37,900 -Alright. Do you want to, like, end the stream? 607 00:32:37,900 --> 00:32:39,633 -Yeah. For sure. 608 00:32:39,633 --> 00:32:40,966 -Thank you for tuning in. 609 00:32:40,966 --> 00:32:43,700 I'll see you...later. 610 00:32:44,700 --> 00:32:46,000 [ Mouse clicks ] 611 00:32:49,133 --> 00:32:51,066 [ Beeping ] 612 00:32:55,266 --> 00:32:57,900 It's been good. There's this person there with me. 613 00:32:57,900 --> 00:33:00,800 And like, I'm not being, like, harshly judged. 614 00:33:00,800 --> 00:33:02,566 And I just started, like, crying really hard. 615 00:33:02,566 --> 00:33:04,900 And it was, like, incredibly [bleep] like... 616 00:33:04,900 --> 00:33:08,466 It felt almost like therapeutic. It felt like extremely good. 617 00:33:08,466 --> 00:33:10,366 I think she's back. 618 00:33:10,366 --> 00:33:11,600 Cool. 619 00:33:11,600 --> 00:33:12,900 [ Door opens ] 620 00:33:14,800 --> 00:33:16,833 Hey. -Hey. 621 00:33:16,833 --> 00:33:18,300 -Cool. 622 00:33:18,300 --> 00:33:19,866 -How are you doing? What's going on? 623 00:33:19,866 --> 00:33:23,300 -Um, I still haven't left the Plateau. 624 00:33:23,300 --> 00:33:24,466 [ Laughs ] 625 00:33:24,466 --> 00:33:26,200 -I'm about to start another one, I guess. 626 00:33:26,200 --> 00:33:28,200 Although, I could use a slice. 627 00:33:28,200 --> 00:33:29,433 I could use a slice. -Yeah. 628 00:33:29,433 --> 00:33:30,600 It's the perfect time for a slice. 629 00:33:30,600 --> 00:33:33,300 -Okay. We're going back to IRL. 630 00:33:33,300 --> 00:33:41,766 ♪♪ 631 00:33:41,766 --> 00:33:49,933 ♪♪ 632 00:33:49,933 --> 00:33:56,866 ♪♪ 633 00:33:56,866 --> 00:34:05,300 ♪♪ 634 00:34:05,300 --> 00:34:12,533 ♪♪ 635 00:34:12,533 --> 00:34:19,500 ♪♪ 636 00:34:19,500 --> 00:34:28,333 ♪♪ 637 00:34:28,333 --> 00:34:36,933 ♪♪ 638 00:34:36,933 --> 00:34:41,833 ♪♪ 639 00:34:41,833 --> 00:34:43,466 [ Roaring ] 640 00:34:43,466 --> 00:34:48,833 ♪♪ 641 00:34:48,833 --> 00:34:52,466 ♪♪ 642 00:34:54,566 --> 00:34:56,966 -Aah! 643 00:34:56,966 --> 00:34:59,566 Right back in it. Let's go. 644 00:34:59,566 --> 00:35:02,333 One. Come on. This is the run. 645 00:35:07,266 --> 00:35:09,233 Yes. First try. 646 00:35:12,500 --> 00:35:15,000 We're heading to the airport later tonight. 647 00:35:15,000 --> 00:35:19,700 And that'll be the end of our five-day vacation. 648 00:35:19,700 --> 00:35:21,900 -We're squeezing every last possible second 649 00:35:21,900 --> 00:35:25,033 out of the day, Narci. 650 00:35:25,033 --> 00:35:27,266 -Yes, this is world-record pace. 651 00:35:30,666 --> 00:35:32,100 Ohh... 652 00:35:33,800 --> 00:35:35,900 [ Controller thuds ] 653 00:35:35,900 --> 00:35:40,000 -I stasis'd it too early. So it didn't go. 654 00:35:40,000 --> 00:35:42,800 It wasn't disconnected from the bottom yet. 655 00:35:44,000 --> 00:35:45,800 Okay. It's over. It's actually over. 656 00:35:45,800 --> 00:35:48,166 Just [bleep] -- That's it. Like, there's no more. 657 00:35:48,166 --> 00:35:49,800 That's it. -Revali's Gale is now ready. 658 00:35:49,800 --> 00:35:51,266 -I could have had it, and I didn't get it. 659 00:35:51,266 --> 00:35:54,566 It's over. The run's over. 660 00:35:54,566 --> 00:35:55,966 It's time to go. 661 00:35:59,633 --> 00:36:09,000 ♪♪ 662 00:36:09,000 --> 00:36:10,766 [ Keyboard clacking ] 663 00:36:10,766 --> 00:36:20,033 ♪♪ 664 00:36:20,033 --> 00:36:29,900 ♪♪ 665 00:36:29,900 --> 00:36:38,933 ♪♪ 666 00:36:44,733 --> 00:36:47,000 -Okay. I guess I'll just play games or something. 667 00:36:47,000 --> 00:36:49,300 I don't know. 668 00:36:49,300 --> 00:36:51,633 I missed you, too. 669 00:36:51,633 --> 00:36:53,933 But it's been replaced 670 00:36:53,933 --> 00:36:57,100 by missing Narci even more. 671 00:36:57,100 --> 00:37:01,800 The line is it was a gay-cation, but... 672 00:37:01,800 --> 00:37:03,300 We just haven't gotten -- 673 00:37:03,300 --> 00:37:05,500 We haven't, like, hammered out [bleep]. 674 00:37:08,200 --> 00:37:10,700 [ Ringing ] 675 00:37:10,700 --> 00:37:12,733 -Hello, hello? 676 00:37:12,733 --> 00:37:14,833 -Let's hash out everything we are to each other right now. 677 00:37:14,833 --> 00:37:18,466 -I'm gonna start a new run while we're chatting. 678 00:37:18,466 --> 00:37:21,700 So you're saying that, like, you would kind of want to 679 00:37:21,700 --> 00:37:24,066 develop something with me? 680 00:37:24,066 --> 00:37:27,666 -I mean, I'd like to think I'm building a relationship. 681 00:37:29,633 --> 00:37:32,333 -I've kind of designed my life in a way 682 00:37:32,333 --> 00:37:35,566 where I can just focus in on a few things 683 00:37:35,566 --> 00:37:38,333 that I really want to work towards. 684 00:37:38,333 --> 00:37:40,600 -Okay. So what do you want? 685 00:37:40,600 --> 00:37:44,066 -I want to be idolized by my viewers. 686 00:37:44,066 --> 00:37:46,666 20,000 viewers or bust. 687 00:37:46,666 --> 00:37:48,733 [ Indistinct conversations ] 688 00:37:48,733 --> 00:37:57,633 ♪♪ 689 00:38:00,733 --> 00:38:02,666 If this is the record, 690 00:38:02,666 --> 00:38:04,900 then we must post a Reddit thread called 691 00:38:04,900 --> 00:38:08,800 "Absolutely disgusting record by Narcissa." 692 00:38:08,800 --> 00:38:11,066 Do I still think I can get over 10,000 viewers 693 00:38:11,066 --> 00:38:12,266 in "Breath of the Wild"? 694 00:38:12,266 --> 00:38:14,733 Yes, I do. I certainly do. 695 00:38:19,166 --> 00:38:21,466 Clear your mind for this jump. 696 00:38:22,633 --> 00:38:24,333 [Beep] 697 00:38:25,600 --> 00:38:28,966 We're actually on pace for sub-3:40. 698 00:38:28,966 --> 00:38:30,866 It's unbelievable. 699 00:38:33,166 --> 00:38:36,500 I want this run. I want to finish this run. 700 00:38:36,500 --> 00:38:38,333 I want this to be the run. 701 00:38:38,333 --> 00:38:45,166 ♪♪ 702 00:38:45,166 --> 00:38:47,533 Ugh. Oh, my God. 703 00:38:47,533 --> 00:38:50,700 -That was [bleep] miraculous. 704 00:38:50,700 --> 00:38:52,800 Oh, my [bleep] God! 705 00:38:52,800 --> 00:39:00,166 ♪♪ 706 00:39:00,166 --> 00:39:04,766 ♪♪ 707 00:39:06,500 --> 00:39:08,500 3:38.31. 708 00:39:08,500 --> 00:39:12,166 This beats the record by minutes. 709 00:39:12,166 --> 00:39:14,500 Peace and love. Peace and love. 710 00:39:14,500 --> 00:39:16,733 And remember -- 711 00:39:16,733 --> 00:39:19,166 Trans girls rule "Breath of the Wild." 712 00:39:22,766 --> 00:39:29,300 ♪♪ 713 00:39:29,300 --> 00:39:33,733 ♪♪ 714 00:39:33,733 --> 00:39:37,633 -The current world-record holder on "Zelda: Ocarina of Time." 715 00:39:37,633 --> 00:39:39,666 [ Cheers and applause ] 716 00:39:39,666 --> 00:39:41,666 You immediately have an audience, right? 717 00:39:41,666 --> 00:39:43,233 -Oh, absolutely. 718 00:39:43,233 --> 00:39:45,800 Several thousand usually tune in for "Zelda." 719 00:39:45,800 --> 00:39:47,900 [ Cheers and applause ] 720 00:39:47,900 --> 00:39:50,766 ♪♪ 721 00:39:50,766 --> 00:39:53,966 I was at the precipice. 722 00:39:53,966 --> 00:39:57,466 And now I'm like a fallen star. 723 00:39:59,300 --> 00:40:01,666 I want to feel like I'm on top of the world. 724 00:40:01,666 --> 00:40:04,133 ♪♪ 725 00:40:04,133 --> 00:40:07,033 I feel like I'm being swallowed by it. 726 00:40:07,033 --> 00:40:12,833 ♪♪ 727 00:40:12,833 --> 00:40:16,933 ♪♪ 728 00:40:16,933 --> 00:40:18,466 Ugh. 729 00:40:19,766 --> 00:40:22,133 -What's wrong with me?! 730 00:40:22,133 --> 00:40:25,500 -It turns out life is not a fairy tale after all. 731 00:40:27,366 --> 00:40:31,933 -Everything we've done up until now was all for nothing. 732 00:40:31,933 --> 00:40:33,733 [ Sobs ] 733 00:40:33,733 --> 00:40:36,966 -I will never succeed in the way I succeeded in the past. 734 00:40:36,966 --> 00:40:41,066 ♪♪ 735 00:40:41,066 --> 00:40:43,500 This stream will never [bleep] be big again. 736 00:40:43,500 --> 00:40:45,966 It'll never [bleep] happen. I'm not relatable anymore. 737 00:40:45,966 --> 00:40:47,400 And it doesn't matter if I'm the best [bleep] 738 00:40:47,400 --> 00:40:48,933 player in the world at this game. 739 00:40:48,933 --> 00:40:50,633 No one [bleep] cares. 740 00:40:50,633 --> 00:40:53,333 I've gone from being the superstar 741 00:40:53,333 --> 00:40:55,933 to the falling star plummeting into Earth 742 00:40:55,933 --> 00:40:58,300 like a [bleep] comet, slamming down, 743 00:40:58,300 --> 00:40:59,666 creating a shockwave, 744 00:40:59,666 --> 00:41:02,400 and burying in my [bleep] chasm so deep 745 00:41:02,400 --> 00:41:04,133 as everyone piles on 746 00:41:04,133 --> 00:41:06,433 and pushes me down into the caverns of darkness 747 00:41:06,433 --> 00:41:08,900 where I'm crowned the queen of hell. 748 00:41:08,900 --> 00:41:12,166 ♪♪ 749 00:41:12,166 --> 00:41:13,966 They think I'm a deranged freak 750 00:41:13,966 --> 00:41:16,266 who's delusional and should kill myself. 751 00:41:17,566 --> 00:41:20,300 They only [bleep] watch me if I'm raving. 752 00:41:21,766 --> 00:41:24,766 So the only solution is just to [bleep] go nuclear. 753 00:41:24,766 --> 00:41:30,833 ♪♪ 754 00:41:30,833 --> 00:41:33,366 I am the monster that you've all created. 755 00:41:33,366 --> 00:41:36,733 ♪♪ 756 00:41:36,733 --> 00:41:39,333 [Bleep] people watching and observing me as I sit here 757 00:41:39,333 --> 00:41:42,533 and [bleep] go through through the struggle. 758 00:41:42,533 --> 00:41:43,766 I [bleep] hate the game. 759 00:41:43,766 --> 00:41:45,366 I hate people who watch video [bleep]. 760 00:41:45,366 --> 00:41:47,200 The Twitch viewership is so [bleep] blind! 761 00:41:47,200 --> 00:41:49,066 You have such [bleep] poor taste. 762 00:41:49,066 --> 00:41:50,766 I [bleep] hate you. 763 00:41:50,766 --> 00:41:55,400 ♪♪ 764 00:42:06,333 --> 00:42:09,966 So, what happens if I call that phone number? 765 00:42:09,966 --> 00:42:12,233 You get to talk to a counselor. 766 00:42:12,233 --> 00:42:13,800 Well, my phone is right here. 767 00:42:13,800 --> 00:42:15,966 [ Keypad dialing ] 768 00:42:15,966 --> 00:42:17,900 [ Line ringing ] 769 00:42:17,900 --> 00:42:19,833 -Suicide Prevention Lifeline. 770 00:42:19,833 --> 00:42:24,966 -Um, well, I cut off all my hair, and... 771 00:42:24,966 --> 00:42:27,766 I guess it was, like, an act of self-harm. 772 00:42:29,900 --> 00:42:32,333 And... 773 00:42:32,333 --> 00:42:34,266 feeling kind of hopeless. 774 00:42:36,533 --> 00:42:40,833 It's like...people want to see me fail. 775 00:42:42,500 --> 00:42:44,566 And anytime there's any sort of sign of weakness, 776 00:42:44,566 --> 00:42:46,400 they pinpoint it and, like, harass me 777 00:42:46,400 --> 00:42:47,800 and, like, pick at it like a scab 778 00:42:47,800 --> 00:42:49,600 until I'm squeezed and I'm bleeding, 779 00:42:49,600 --> 00:42:51,833 and then, like, I'm just incredibly [bleep] alone. 780 00:42:51,833 --> 00:42:54,533 I'm just like a [bleep] alien on this planet. 781 00:42:56,200 --> 00:42:58,100 It just feels easier to, like, damage 782 00:42:58,100 --> 00:43:01,433 a social connection than it does to grow it. 783 00:43:01,433 --> 00:43:05,000 Yeah. I'll get through tonight. Definitely. 784 00:43:07,833 --> 00:43:09,833 Alright. Bye. 785 00:43:09,833 --> 00:43:11,100 [ Beep ] 786 00:43:13,200 --> 00:43:14,633 [ Phone clatters ] 787 00:43:16,600 --> 00:43:19,100 Well, that was okay, I guess. 788 00:43:23,633 --> 00:43:27,566 ♪♪ 789 00:43:27,566 --> 00:43:30,300 Why weren't you all watching 790 00:43:30,300 --> 00:43:32,966 when I broke the "Breath of the Wild" record? 791 00:43:32,966 --> 00:43:35,333 I could have really used your support. 792 00:43:35,333 --> 00:43:41,300 ♪♪ 793 00:43:41,300 --> 00:43:43,900 I think I'm an attention addict. 794 00:43:43,900 --> 00:43:47,733 ♪♪ 795 00:43:47,733 --> 00:43:49,333 [ Sobbing ] 796 00:43:49,333 --> 00:43:58,233 ♪♪ 797 00:43:58,233 --> 00:44:06,866 ♪♪ 798 00:44:06,866 --> 00:44:12,766 ♪♪ 799 00:44:21,433 --> 00:44:23,466 -Oh, my God. 800 00:44:26,133 --> 00:44:28,700 She did it live on stream? 801 00:44:31,466 --> 00:44:34,066 I don't know. I just hope she's gonna be okay. 802 00:44:36,266 --> 00:44:38,266 [ Ringing ] 803 00:44:38,266 --> 00:44:39,600 -Hello? 804 00:44:39,600 --> 00:44:42,533 -Hey. How do you feel? 805 00:44:42,533 --> 00:44:45,800 -I, like, ruined myself by cutting my hair off. 806 00:44:47,600 --> 00:44:48,933 -You didn't ruin yourself. 807 00:44:48,933 --> 00:44:52,733 You just [bleep] cut your hair off. 808 00:44:54,033 --> 00:44:57,400 -I don't know how to just be calm and quiet 809 00:44:57,400 --> 00:44:59,366 during the hard moments because I feel like 810 00:44:59,366 --> 00:45:02,766 I really, really want and need connection. 811 00:45:05,900 --> 00:45:08,166 I feel like crying because... 812 00:45:10,733 --> 00:45:14,533 I'm, like, grateful that you're talking to me right now. 813 00:45:14,533 --> 00:45:16,700 -Happy cries are good cries. 814 00:45:20,933 --> 00:45:22,666 -Can I ask you something? 815 00:45:22,666 --> 00:45:26,500 When would you be free if I was to come? 816 00:45:26,500 --> 00:45:28,333 -Whenever. -Whenever? 817 00:45:28,333 --> 00:45:34,033 ♪♪ 818 00:45:35,466 --> 00:45:43,033 ♪♪ 819 00:45:43,033 --> 00:45:44,633 We did it. 820 00:45:44,633 --> 00:45:46,333 It's like we're parting the birds. 821 00:45:46,333 --> 00:45:47,700 -Yeah. 822 00:45:47,700 --> 00:45:54,500 ♪♪ 823 00:45:54,500 --> 00:45:56,533 -See all this? I'm like, "I'm alive. 824 00:45:56,533 --> 00:45:58,800 Like, this is a thing happening." 825 00:45:58,800 --> 00:46:01,133 -Yeah, -I can't help myself. 826 00:46:01,133 --> 00:46:02,533 -This is happening as [bleep]. 827 00:46:02,533 --> 00:46:03,933 -[ Laughs ] Yeah. 828 00:46:03,933 --> 00:46:10,133 ♪♪ 829 00:46:10,133 --> 00:46:12,933 Do you think your life is too filled with things? 830 00:46:12,933 --> 00:46:15,000 You have your band. Then you're streaming. 831 00:46:15,000 --> 00:46:17,100 -Yeah. -And you're cooking. 832 00:46:17,100 --> 00:46:19,133 -I mean, that's just kind of a thing I like to do. 833 00:46:19,133 --> 00:46:20,833 -Yeah. -That's why I like having people around. 834 00:46:20,833 --> 00:46:22,800 Because I can cook for them. 835 00:46:22,800 --> 00:46:25,833 ♪♪ 836 00:46:25,833 --> 00:46:27,766 Try to change your perspective 837 00:46:27,766 --> 00:46:31,300 so that you see the sky as, like, a giant lake. 838 00:46:31,300 --> 00:46:33,800 -Okay. -And you're like -- 839 00:46:33,800 --> 00:46:36,466 You're above it, looking down at it. 840 00:46:36,466 --> 00:46:40,833 ♪♪ 841 00:46:40,833 --> 00:46:42,900 -Do you ever want to go to outer space? 842 00:46:42,900 --> 00:46:45,966 -For some reason, I feel like the view is better down here. 843 00:46:45,966 --> 00:46:49,966 -Earth is beautiful, I think, from here and elsewhere. 844 00:46:49,966 --> 00:46:58,433 ♪♪ 845 00:46:58,433 --> 00:47:05,700 ♪♪ 846 00:47:10,033 --> 00:47:13,266 All in all, like, I'm doing better now 847 00:47:13,266 --> 00:47:15,833 than I was, like, before the trip. 848 00:47:18,433 --> 00:47:22,900 The time I spent there felt like it kind of healed me somewhat. 849 00:47:22,900 --> 00:47:25,033 Like, I really needed that. 850 00:47:30,166 --> 00:47:33,600 Being able to share some affection and, like... 851 00:47:37,466 --> 00:47:39,400 ...just be around people, I guess, 852 00:47:39,400 --> 00:47:42,266 without being so isolated. 853 00:47:45,000 --> 00:47:48,500 Just felt... 854 00:47:48,500 --> 00:47:50,433 really good. 855 00:47:50,433 --> 00:47:52,066 And... 856 00:47:57,400 --> 00:47:59,433 I don't know. It's like a breath of -- 857 00:47:59,433 --> 00:48:01,400 a breath of -- What is it? 858 00:48:01,400 --> 00:48:04,766 A breath of fresh air. 859 00:48:10,866 --> 00:48:16,266 It might be nice to receive some kind of unconditional love. 860 00:48:16,266 --> 00:48:18,133 Seeing my parents. 861 00:48:18,133 --> 00:48:26,600 ♪♪ 862 00:48:26,600 --> 00:48:33,633 ♪♪ 863 00:48:33,633 --> 00:48:37,533 -This is not a healthy environment for me to be in, 864 00:48:37,533 --> 00:48:41,766 therefore I must leave this place. 865 00:48:43,166 --> 00:48:47,166 But do not grieve for my disappearance. 866 00:48:47,166 --> 00:48:49,200 -Bye. 867 00:48:49,200 --> 00:48:52,133 ♪♪ 868 00:48:52,133 --> 00:48:55,866 -For I will find what I'm looking for in this life. 869 00:48:57,366 --> 00:49:00,766 I will just do it alone. 870 00:49:00,766 --> 00:49:04,366 ♪♪ 871 00:49:04,366 --> 00:49:07,266 -It's like level one, where you grew up. 872 00:49:07,266 --> 00:49:11,133 Green fields, grass, and trees. 873 00:49:11,133 --> 00:49:14,200 [ Child fussing ] 874 00:49:14,200 --> 00:49:17,400 -[ Speaking indistinctly ] 875 00:49:17,400 --> 00:49:20,133 -Ohh! 876 00:49:20,133 --> 00:49:22,366 -"You are my most beautiful flower. 877 00:49:22,366 --> 00:49:25,700 -Mommy's gonna catch a fish to fry tonight! 878 00:49:25,700 --> 00:49:30,300 ♪♪ 879 00:49:30,300 --> 00:49:32,400 -You are the best of your generation. 880 00:49:32,400 --> 00:49:35,466 Brilliant. Talented. Sweet. Honest." 881 00:49:35,466 --> 00:49:38,133 ♪♪ 882 00:49:38,133 --> 00:49:40,866 -Hi! Hi! 883 00:49:40,866 --> 00:49:42,166 -Hi! 884 00:49:42,166 --> 00:49:45,133 -"You were special. Different from other children. 885 00:49:45,133 --> 00:49:48,833 ♪♪ 886 00:49:48,833 --> 00:49:52,666 That is why I quit my job and became a stay-at-home mother. 887 00:49:52,666 --> 00:49:55,133 ♪♪ 888 00:49:55,133 --> 00:49:58,266 I couldn't possibly trust anyone else to give you the love, 889 00:49:58,266 --> 00:50:00,166 attention, and freedom 890 00:50:00,166 --> 00:50:02,766 that your mind needed to explore life." 891 00:50:02,766 --> 00:50:04,533 -Bye-bye! 892 00:50:04,533 --> 00:50:13,333 ♪♪ 893 00:50:13,333 --> 00:50:21,400 ♪♪ 894 00:50:21,400 --> 00:50:29,566 ♪♪ 895 00:50:29,566 --> 00:50:36,733 ♪♪ 896 00:50:36,733 --> 00:50:39,466 -Ohh! Ohh-ohh! 897 00:50:39,466 --> 00:50:42,600 [ Laughs ] 898 00:50:42,600 --> 00:50:45,166 Ohh! Aww. 899 00:50:45,166 --> 00:50:47,366 How are you? 900 00:50:47,366 --> 00:50:50,000 Ohh! How was your flight? 901 00:50:50,000 --> 00:50:51,366 -It was fine. 902 00:50:51,366 --> 00:50:53,833 -Aww! [ Laughs ] 903 00:50:53,833 --> 00:50:56,300 Aw, my baby. 904 00:50:56,300 --> 00:50:59,133 I'm sorry it's been so long. 905 00:51:00,600 --> 00:51:03,133 Aww. Aww. 906 00:51:04,533 --> 00:51:07,033 Oh, it feels so good to hug you. 907 00:51:07,033 --> 00:51:08,800 Let me look at you. 908 00:51:08,800 --> 00:51:10,466 [ Laughs ] 909 00:51:10,466 --> 00:51:12,233 You're just beautiful. 910 00:51:12,233 --> 00:51:14,700 -She's been waiting for that moment for a long time. 911 00:51:14,700 --> 00:51:18,600 -Yeah. Oh, you look wonderful. 912 00:51:26,933 --> 00:51:35,000 ♪♪ 913 00:51:35,000 --> 00:51:40,133 ♪♪ 914 00:51:40,133 --> 00:51:44,500 -♪ Margaret sees Beth Anne leave ♪ 915 00:51:44,500 --> 00:51:47,600 ♪ As the day fight ♪ 916 00:51:49,733 --> 00:51:54,200 ♪ Each dead name to be thrown out and die ♪ 917 00:51:54,200 --> 00:51:58,966 ♪ She looks on the bodies ♪ 918 00:51:58,966 --> 00:52:06,466 ♪ Perfect in their assembling ♪ 919 00:52:06,466 --> 00:52:08,600 ♪ Without a care ♪ 920 00:52:08,600 --> 00:52:11,200 ♪ I promise you this ♪ 921 00:52:11,200 --> 00:52:14,066 ♪ Even if you don't believe ♪ 922 00:52:14,066 --> 00:52:23,133 ♪♪ 923 00:52:27,500 --> 00:52:36,433 ♪♪ 924 00:52:36,433 --> 00:52:45,433 ♪♪ 925 00:52:45,433 --> 00:52:55,333 ♪♪