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Life update: 
I'm an EM resident now.

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I'm eight months into 
intern year and

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that is crazy because 
it does not feel

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like that much time has passed 
since I started and

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graduated med school, 
honestly...

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Intern year is tough, 
challenging...

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rewarding, too.

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I feel like every single moment 
of the many, many, many --

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too many, so many -- 
hours that we're at the hospital

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we're learning, 
and that's beautiful,

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but also very exhausting.

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I try to remind myself 
that, you know,

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you only train once, 
theoretically,

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so you've got to take advantage 
of this time.

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And that's 
what I'm trying to do,

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but also trying 
to take my own advice of

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not putting life on hold 
just because

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you're doing something else 
that's really hard

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and sometimes consuming.

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So really enjoying 
life and trying to, you know,

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not be defined 
by this experience, per se.

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And happy to report 
that I'm doing okay.

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It's been two-and-a-half years 
since we started

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filming the documentary, 
which is mind-blowing.

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We filmed my third year 
of medical school,

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which is sort of like the intern 
year of medical school.

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And I remember it...

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it was honestly a very -- it was 
a huge change of pace for me.

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I'm typically not someone who

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records themselves 
or likes to take pictures or,

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you know, things like that.

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So it was a very different way

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of expressing myself 
than I'm used to,

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and I'm honestly 
very glad for that chance.

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Yeah, it was like a check point 
to check in with how I was doing

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when maybe I wouldn't 
have verbally said it

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in that same way otherwise.

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Things definitely got serious 
and felt serious third year,

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but I think there were moments 
that kind of helped

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bring me back down to earth 
and remind me that, you know,

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there's a whole world out there 
that isn't this.

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Like, there was this one scene 
that we were filming

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for the documentary where I 
was walking in and out of the ED

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on one of my shifts,

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and they wanted to get 
the perfect shot.

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And I felt ridiculous

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because I had walked 
out of that door

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and back into that door 
like five times in a row.

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And the security guard was like, 
at one point, like,

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looks me up and down and goes,

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"What, are you 
famous or something?"

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And I just thought 
that was hilarious because

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he's absolutely right.

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Like, what was I doing 
and what were we doing?

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But... you know, it was funny 
and it was very

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grounding in the moment.

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I think the further you get 
in this process,

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the more the wool is pulled back 
from over your eyes,

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so it's really important

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to remember those ideals 
you had early on

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and why you set forth 
on this path in the first place.

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So, I'm glad the documentary 
helped me remember that.