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Life update:
I'm an EM resident now.

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I'm eight months into
intern year and

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that is crazy because
it does not feel

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like that much time has passed
since I started and

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graduated med school,
honestly...

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Intern year is tough,
challenging...

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rewarding, too.

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I feel like every single moment
of the many, many, many --

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too many, so many --
hours that we're at the hospital

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we're learning,
and that's beautiful,

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but also very exhausting.

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I try to remind myself
that, you know,

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you only train once,
theoretically,

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so you've got to take advantage
of this time.

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And that's
what I'm trying to do,

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but also trying
to take my own advice of

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not putting life on hold
just because

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you're doing something else
that's really hard

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and sometimes consuming.

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So really enjoying
life and trying to, you know,

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not be defined
by this experience, per se.

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And happy to report
that I'm doing okay.

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It's been two-and-a-half years
since we started

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filming the documentary,
which is mind-blowing.

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We filmed my third year
of medical school,

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which is sort of like the intern
year of medical school.

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And I remember it...

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it was honestly a very -- it was
a huge change of pace for me.

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I'm typically not someone who

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records themselves
or likes to take pictures or,

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you know, things like that.

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So it was a very different way

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of expressing myself
than I'm used to,

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and I'm honestly
very glad for that chance.

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Yeah, it was like a check point
to check in with how I was doing

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when maybe I wouldn't
have verbally said it

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in that same way otherwise.

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Things definitely got serious
and felt serious third year,

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but I think there were moments
that kind of helped

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bring me back down to earth
and remind me that, you know,

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there's a whole world out there
that isn't this.

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Like, there was this one scene
that we were filming

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for the documentary where I
was walking in and out of the ED

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on one of my shifts,

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and they wanted to get
the perfect shot.

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And I felt ridiculous

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because I had walked
out of that door

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and back into that door
like five times in a row.

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And the security guard was like,
at one point, like,

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looks me up and down and goes,

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"What, are you
famous or something?"

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And I just thought
that was hilarious because

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he's absolutely right.

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Like, what was I doing
and what were we doing?

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But... you know, it was funny
and it was very

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grounding in the moment.

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I think the further you get
in this process,

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the more the wool is pulled back
from over your eyes,

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so it's really important

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to remember those ideals
you had early on

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and why you set forth
on this path in the first place.

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So, I'm glad the documentary
helped me remember that.